At the same time, you should consciously try to detect what makes you hate this person and why you hate this person so much. Because a person's relationship with others outside is a projection of his relationship with himself inside, we can't accept those parts of others, largely because we can't face those parts of ourselves inside.
You can record your emotional feelings by keeping an emotional diary, which not only helps you to better perceive and understand your emotions, but also helps you to better sort out your emotions, try to get along with them, explore the hidden needs behind your emotions, and seek ways and means to better respond to and meet your needs. ?
You may have a problem with that person, not with the content of your education. From this point of view, you should not be very old. In your life world, good people say good things and do good things, and bad people say bad things and do bad things. You can't understand that good people can do bad things and bad people can do good things in this world.
Moreover, it is the best mother you think, and let the people you hate educate you. In other words, it is ok for the person you like to educate you, but no matter how right the person you hate is, have you ever tried to react with your mother on this issue? Maybe you have already reflected, your mother will respect your advice, and all your efforts are to make yourself better. If you choose the person you want to commit suicide by throwing yourself into the river, won't all your efforts be in vain? We should be responsible for all our actions. On the other hand, the healthier and happier we live, the more we can make people we hate feel helpless. Try to analyze the problem with your brain and think about whether there are other ways to solve the problem through negotiation besides expressing your feelings of self-abandonment. This is your progress and what your mother wants to see.