Children grow up under the oppression of parents' power, but if they can fly away one day, they don't want to be with their parents, which leads to disharmony between parents and children. This kind of education is actually an education that dehumanizes human nature. Parents or teachers are advised to keep learning on the road of education. Here, I'd like to recommend some books for you to try. As a mother and an educator, I have also seen it, which is of great help to my work, my family and even my personal emotional intelligence.
Of course, apart from the parenting style of father or mother, everyone will be influenced by grandparents and other relatives, important people (teachers, leaders, a mentor), peer communication, environment, personal awareness and other parenting styles. Although parenting style will have a great influence on the formation of individual character, it is not a stereotype of 100%. I hope this article can help you understand yourself better.
No one can grow up without being hurt. As we grow up, we will gradually acquire many conditions and abilities. I invite you to calm down, get closer to your inner self, be brave and honest, and realize that you don't fully understand yourself. Try not to look at yourself with criticism or evaluation, embrace the pain of the past, accept and care for yourself, let yourself calm down in a certain time and space, and let go of those stagnant and cold past.