Thinking of a book I read a long time ago, Mr. Kai-fu Lee mentioned in the book that since I was diagnosed with cancer, I experienced such dark moments as anxiety, worry and complaint from the beginning. Later, because of this cancer, I noticed many places that I had neglected before, and made myself understand what was most important to me. After adjusting the focus of life, I live more calmly and happily.
Seeing this topic, I reviewed my past. As a graduate student who is still in school, my darkest moment is probably the failure of the college entrance examination, so I have been in a state of self-blame and inferiority in my freshman year, and the moment of victory is four years after the failure of the college entrance examination. After my own efforts and mental adjustment, I became a graduate student of Peking Union Medical College. There is also a great connection between the two.
# The darkest hour
I remember when the first year of high school started, the class teacher read us a story about a girl who finally got into Fudan University through three years of unremitting efforts in high school. Fudan University described in the story is beautiful. At that moment, I made up my mind to say that I, too, would be admitted to Fudan University and walk around every corner of the campus mentioned in the story. So I came home from school and posted four big characters on the bedside, "Kill Fudan!" "
I can see it when I wake up every day. Yes, I really worked hard for it. In three years of high school, I hardly gave myself a vacation. I used the time on my way home to recite words and take a nap, sleeping less than others. In order to do more English reading, I finished all the homework assigned by the subject teacher before the last evening self-study, so that I could set aside an hour to preview the next day's course ... and the result was obvious. In three years of high school, in 90% cases, I was the first in my class.
Even now, I still remember very clearly that the score of the last mock exam before the college entrance examination is completely no problem for Fudan. However, God is playing tricks on people. I never thought that the last exam in high school for three years was left to the college entrance examination ... because I had high expectations for myself, I was very nervous in the examination room and failed in the college entrance examination.
At that time, many friends around me advised me to consider World War II, but forget it, because I was afraid of the extra psychological pressure of World War II. If I fail again, I don't know how long it will take to get out of this shadow. So I applied to medical college in Beijing.
When I was a freshman, I saw those people in my circle of friends who were more playful than themselves and ranked much behind themselves, and they did better in the college entrance examination. At that time, I often doubted the significance of my efforts and myself. ...
Then I constantly adjusted myself. I go to the library to read books, study in the classroom, run in the playground, teach English in the second teacher, climb mountains and travel on weekends. ...
At that time, I didn't know what benefits I would get from doing these things, but I felt in my heart that I shouldn't waste my time and put my great youth into the right things. In this way, I made many positive friends, established my own club and met good teachers. ....
# Victory moment
When the third year of high school is about to take the postgraduate entrance examination, many of my classmates choose to take the exam in our school. Because of their sense of security, most people are afraid to take risks in other schools. Although my academic performance during my undergraduate period is not very outstanding, the unwillingness brought by Waterloo in the college entrance examination has been faintly echoing in my heart.
So I chose Peking Union Medical College for my postgraduate entrance examination. I never thought I could take the exam every day when preparing for the exam, but I think I still want to give myself a chance, even if I fail in the end, at least I have worked hard for my dream.
During the three months of preparing for the exam, I got up at 5:40 every day, went to bed at night 1 1:30, and rested at my desk for half an hour at noon. I believe this song has been repeated countless times, and I have recited the book of the specialized course from beginning to end for three times. ...
Because I failed in the college entrance examination, I know the importance of mentality for the exam, so I had a heart-to-heart talk with my classmates and teachers a week before the entrance examination, expressing my worries and fears and being encouraged by the teachers. I gradually learned to let go of my obsession with the results of the postgraduate entrance examination and adjust my mentality to meet the challenge.
This time in the examination room, I was calm, just immersed in the world of answering questions and didn't care about the results of the postgraduate entrance examination. After the initial test, I ranked very well, and with the experience of participating in many activities and establishing an English club, the second test passed smoothly. At the beginning of the year, I was invited by an educational institution to share my growing experience in front of 100 college students from different universities. You know, as soon as I took office, my mind went blank.
Looking back on this journey, I find that many things are related in some way. If I hadn't failed in the college entrance examination and couldn't go to Fudan, I wouldn't have come to Beijing to study. If I hadn't come to Beijing, I wouldn't have met some organizations and interesting friends who only existed in Beijing, and I wouldn't have changed myself so much because of their influence.
Man is the product of the environment. What kind of person do you want to be? Take the initiative to choose a similar environment and constantly cultivate yourself in it. Thanks to the ups and downs in every stage of my life, these experiences have made me better.