Family is a terrible place. Many people's parents are the source of their troubles. Now that you're an adult, you're still afraid of disobedience, they're not happy, and they don't support you ..... These are all habits formed since childhood, which are not normal. You can't live in fear of them all your life and expect their approval. It is easy for parents to arrange their children's lives according to their own wishes. You should gradually become independent and realize that you are separated from them ideologically. You are an independent individual and have your own life. You don't need to live for their happiness. If you make them unhappy because you want to live your own life, make them depressed. They are adults and must learn this. Children are not pets, not to make you happy. You are not a pet, and you don't live to please them.