1One day in April, 986, I was born in Maoming, Guangdong, a warm village with mountains and greenery. When I was a child, I loved to laugh, lively and cheerful, and naughty like a boy. Although my family is not rich, I have a very hardworking father in the era of Daxing project, so the living conditions at home are not bad compared with other rural families. Fate didn't make my carefree childhood last too long. When I was 9 years old, my grandmother, who raised me the most, had a stroke and died. I still remember that I joked at her bedside that when she was well, I would plant flowers for her in the yard, but she left three days later ... At that time, I didn't understand the meaning of death, and it was meaningless to be sad, except that she never appeared again.

Two years after my teenage grandmother left, my father also left at the end of a heart attack. When I was 1 1 years old ... in my memory, my father didn't like me, to be exact, he didn't like me. I never understood why, except for beating and cursing. Maybe it's because of my naughty personality. I can only find a reason to convince myself. The only evidence that he loves me is that when I was over one year old, my mother told me that I was seriously ill once. At that time, many people said that I was hopeless, but he still insisted on carrying me around in the wind and rain for medical treatment. In this life, he gave me two lives. When dad was diagnosed with heart disease, it was already late. At that time, the doctor gave the result that the success rate of heart bypass was 50%, and the cost was130 thousand. If he doesn't do it, he can only live for three years. In that era when medical care was underdeveloped and even heart bypass was still in the experimental stage, dad chose to give up treatment just to leave more money for his son. Fate is an indescribable thing. Even though he never liked me, I was always with him during his seven years of strength and pain. In the past seven years, I have witnessed him go from a strong middle-aged man tortured by illness. Every night, he will walk around the house all night, see the child, cover him with a quilt, stand on the balcony and sigh in the distance until he needs crutches to walk, and he has to go to first aid repeatedly. At that time, I wholeheartedly hoped that he would leave early. Although such an idea is unfilial, at least he can have a good sleep and not suffer after going to heaven. Fate is unfair to him. His most painful sister left without waiting for the last time. She left with tears in her eyes ... I remember the night before he left, I was alone with him in the old house where my grandmother died. He coughed and bled from time to time, looked at me for a while and then at the old clock on the wall. The second hand is dripping wet, as if to rush something and fly outside. His only last words were left to me, telling me to help my mother and family more in the future, and then he never spoke again. For seven days after my father left, bees often flew around me. The old man said that my father was reluctant to come back to see me. I think maybe he loves me.

After the twists and turns of adulthood, the family has slowly changed. My mother works harder and harder, but she is still getting poorer and poorer. The burden of four children made her overworked and shocked. Finally, in the face of choice, my brother dropped out of school in grade three, and I dropped out of school before I graduated in grade three. In the end, no one was admitted, and the younger sister of the technical secondary school helped her younger brother to go to school while working. Then I went to find a classmate who works in Dongguan to introduce my job. /kloc-when can I work in the factory at the age of 0/5? I was unlucky, and my classmates didn't notice. I slept on the roadside all night, and finally rushed into a job without paying the deposit. This is a black factory run by Hong Kong people. Every morning from 7: 30 to 3: 30, there is no overtime pay and no reward. I can't even find any foam in my food. I don't have any protection. My skin is in direct contact with paint and I feel dizzy every day. After working hard for two months, I resigned. One month's salary was deducted for less than three months, and I took 800 yuan. I was very excited at that time. I immediately went out to buy a suit for my family. Because the Mid-Autumn Festival is coming in a few days, I bought two boxes of moon cakes and sent them back together. Finally, I spent the remaining 200 yuan in a ten-dollar hotel for a few days, and then I found an electronics factory to work. This electronics factory is run by chaozhou people, and the boss is very kind. Accommodation and food are good. Overtime is paid, and two days off a month. Compared with the previous black factory, this is a paradise and a hell. The good times didn't last long. After working here for less than two months, the skin exposed to paint began to break out in a rash. Many people think I have syphilis and dare not come near me. It didn't get better after intravenous drip. My sister sent me money to read it twice, once for 200 yuan and once for 300 yuan. When there is no bank, there is only a post office. I have to take a bus for two hours every time and queue up at the post office to get money, but unfortunately it is not cured. Finally, I was persuaded by the factory and gave me 200 yuan more. I still feel warm when I think about it. After returning home, my mother took me to a famous local village doctor to treat me, and then sent me to learn computer. At that time, you can find a good clerical job by learning computer typing. After studying for half a month, I met some girls who didn't like studying in the city, commensurate with their sisters. They lent me beautiful clothes to help me make up, took me in and out of discos, and said they could bring me a lot of money. She gives me 50 yuan every time she helps me get something for someone else. The temptation is really great. Money is too easy to come by. I just want to make money. I didn't know it was ecstasy until the end. How terrible! I almost became a drug dealer! In order to get rid of these so-called sisters, I dare not go to school. Later, my period sent me to a friend's furniture store in Guangzhou to learn to sell furniture, live in the basement and squeeze an hour to go to work every day. Sometimes I am embarrassed to borrow money to eat, and I am often hungry. One day, a junior high school pen pal who had contact with me in Guangzhou came to me and told me that he was a driver in a factory and asked me to work as a clerk in his factory for one month. At first, he said that the factory was renovated and everyone lived outside for the time being. Men and women crowded together to make a floor, ate porridge and pickles every day, and took me to class and training everywhere. Every day, I listen to a bunch of people with runny noses and tears, and say emotionally how much money I have earned. After my success, I changed my fate for my family. When I didn't know what pyramid selling was, I was very moved to hear that investing thousands of dollars could change the fate of my family and help others to change their destiny. Then they asked me to call home. I lied to my family that it would cost 2000 yuan to buy a computer. As soon as my brother heard it, he guessed that I had been cheated and asked me to find a way to escape. But I was followed for 24 hours and broke. I can't escape at all. My brother immediately found some friends and took an eight-hour bus to Guangzhou to meet me the next day. Coincidentally, when he came to Guangzhou, he just saw the MLM man pulling me around in the car. My brother rushed out of the car and dragged me back with him, but my ID card was taken away.

? When I got home, Menstruation took me to work in the furniture store she was going to take over in Zhanjiang. It seems that everything has been settled. In their eyes, I am still a smart and diligent girl. Go to work every day, go back to my uncle's house to help with housework after work, and then help clean the new house during menstruation.

We met online when we met love. Those who entered the internet cafe in those years were all bad children in the eyes of others. Basically, few people have computers at home and no cameras at any time. Rich people's mobile phones are all black and white. Ordinary people use BB machines, the most popular QQ, voice chat rooms and take photos. At that time, although I studied computer, I couldn't type or surf the Internet. The best girl dragged me to the Internet cafe to accompany her to surf the Internet. She listened to me playing music and she was talking about QQ.

After a long time, I also learned to go to QQ, which my cousin gave me. My name is 100 degree boy, and I changed it directly to 100 degree girl. He was the first person to add me. I sent a message directly through the request. Can you be my wife? I said "good" when I was in trouble, so I had the beginning of the story.

When I 17, he 18, he was a freshman, I was in Guangdong, and he was in Hebei. At that time, online dating was rare, because there were very few people surfing the Internet, and it was a fantasy in people's eyes. Then, about a year later, we met every night. In his sophomore year, he dropped out of school and went to work in an iron mine in Tangshan. So I saved up the money for breakfast every day, waited in front of the telephone shop early and bought a telephone magnetic card to call him. I saved my salary, bought a second-hand flip phone and chatted with him all night when he was on the night shift. Because he is changing the extension, we are still chatting tirelessly. Although we don't know what each other looks like, our hearts are actually.

In April 2004, I took a bus from Maoming for 8 hours to Guangzhou Railway Station, waited all night to buy a ticket to Beijing, took a train for 24 hours to Beijing West and took a bus for several hours to Tangshan, and then called him to say that I had come to see him. He didn't believe me at that time and thought I was joking. It was already late at night when I took a taxi for two hours to the door of a very remote iron mine. I was hungry and carrying a big backpack, with only 64 pieces left! It was his colleague who came out to meet me at the first time. He is working at another door in the distance. Many people teased me that he was Yang Yongbin. He has been hiding in the corner, laughing and not talking. I ran straight to him and asked him to say something. As soon as he opened his mouth, he said, what? I just laughed. I am most familiar with this voice. At that time, my heart was about to jump out. Across Qianshan and Wan Li, the man who misses him day and night is just around the corner. How wonderful! I finally know what he looks like.

? My arrival made the lonely iron mine explode, and his uncle quickly talked to him, saying that it was not reliable and told me to go back with a thousand dollars, but he firmly said that I would leave him and I would leave him. At that moment, I was sure that it was love between us, and it had nothing to do with each other's looks! (Because I'm just plain-looking and a little dark), then a man from Henan molested me in an iron mine. He and everyone in the Ministry fought with the Henan gang and chopped people. 11120 came and they were taken away all night. Later, his uncle settled it with hundreds of thousands of compensation, and then when I met him, I felt that I had already had a lifetime of good luck, and the pain I had experienced before was not worth mentioning.

? Living in his home is like walking into heaven. This is a village with simple folk customs. His parents treat me better than their own. They were afraid that I couldn't adapt, so they started a new stove for me. What do I want to eat? His father walked more than ten miles to town to buy it for me. There is delicious food at home. They always give it to me first and then eat the rest. His mother always takes me to the market every week and buys me all kinds of things. He took me to catch ancient pupae, lotus and corn, and took me everywhere on a motorcycle every day. Half a year later, I secretly married him behind my family's back. Before the wedding, the bed was burned down, and all the wedding photos were accidentally and inexplicably exposed by the photographer. None of them were left. Maybe all this is destiny takes a hand, which leads to nothing to miss after we break up.

? We have been very happy after marriage, but we have never been pregnant with a baby. The nightmare of infertility has broken all this! ! ! Occasionally quarreled and went back to Guangdong, because I had a prenatal examination before I got pregnant. There are many reasons for infertility that can be found out, and some can't be found out. Faced with this result, I realized what a bolt from the blue was. Although he doesn't mind, his family won't mind, but how much I want to have a child for him in my life. If he wants to treat, any poor family will be dragged down by me. Because of helping me, I dare not want his family to sell iron. If I don't die, I will be drowned by my mouth when I get married. I can't stand the finger pointing behind my back. Moreover, my father died of a heart attack, and my heart often hurts. My heart rate has been irregular. I am more afraid that I will suddenly get sick and leave like my father. I should spend the rest of my life with him. I panicked. I don't know what to do. I only know that we can't have children in this life, and the only idea at that time was to leave him! Let him go. Let him go. Let him give up hating me so that he can fall in love with others in the future and be happy with others. So I thought I cleverly planned a plot of infidelity, breaking his heart and leaving his family (comment 100, I updated this relationship after thirteen years). A few years after I left my first love, I actually met two people who loved me very much, but one chose to marry my pregnant ex-girlfriend behind my back because I was infertile. When I learned that, I broke up resolutely. Another four-year-old boy, who knew me from a dance company, went through all kinds of hardships to join the army and transferred me to my city. He retaliated against my cruel refusal and became my sister's ex-boyfriend after sleeping with my stepsister. 20 14, in the ninth year after I left my first love, I was introduced by a friend and registered with a boy who just got out of prison on the second meeting. There is no love, but he needs a wife and I need a marriage. After so much experience, I can no longer love anyone, and I no longer believe that anyone can love me for a lifetime. I just want to find someone who can respect me and be kind to me to build a family and contribute to the family together, so I don't need him to love me. Before the wedding, my family still failed to escape from the clutches of pyramid schemes. My sister has been cheated out of her savings for more than ten years by her classmates, plus her brother's, it will be more than 100 thousand! But for my wedding, my mother took out her last 10 thousand savings to hold a banquet for me. My sister gave me a dowry with a credit card, and my sister gave me a washing machine. The man only gave me a bride price of 8888, and my family also paid more than 30 thousand dowry, worth more than 70 thousand Because all the furniture was taken away by my sister-in-law at the ex-factory price, I know my family is afraid that I will be looked down upon when I get married, so I try to make it look more beautiful. The man's home is a village in the city and belongs to a single-family building. The family environment was ok at that time. He spent 450 thousand on decoration, and he didn't give me a penny of the gift money he received from his wedding. His in-laws also asked me to hand over all the gifts from my family. I didn't promise, I only gave half. One week before the wedding, I accidentally used his fish salt to make soup, which caused me to be poisoned. I still remember that they sent me to the hospital to send invitations, leaving 300 yuan and leaving without life-saving money. The doctor examined me and scolded me. The bride is dying. Marry a ghost? I have a wry smile in my heart. When I decorate, I go to work 24 hours a day and rest 24 hours a day. When I have a rest, I cook for more than 20 workers every day. When I got married, you didn't buy three gold insurances. You bargained with your son and gave me 5000 yuan for the ring. His ring cost 4800 yuan, mine 1200 yuan. Your son bought me more than 2000 necklaces because I paid a month's salary in advance. Wedding photos are our money, and so is the gift car. All kinds of expenses have been spent. A few days after my marriage, I took some money to have tubal surgery, but I still couldn't get pregnant. Then they made me swallow it in various ways. I didn't take medicine every day for two years, and I never got pregnant with the cold attitude of 180 degrees. Then I dragged my sick body to find a job, and my mother-in-law found me a job serving pots. Finally, I went to KTV as a waiter without drinking or wearing high heels. I only worked in this last job for less than two months, because my sister resigned when she was suspected of cervical cancer. Finally, I came back to another place to work as a temporary worker to sell moon cakes, live with friends, and eat fast food stomach cramps at work every day. My friend spent more than 2000 yuan to give me an intravenous drip for a week, but it didn't work. I have a stomachache when I go to work during the day, and I can't straighten up at twelve o'clock at night. My hair may come out of my underwear. The needles were gone twice, so I asked the nurse in the next bed to change them, and I lost more than ten kilograms a week. My brother and sister really watched it.

I went back to my mother's house to raise my stomach for a month, and people gradually gained weight, so I found a job of milk tea nearby, ten hours a day, one month 1600, and took two days off. The work is not difficult, but it is quite good. Anyway, I've been working out. Then people in the circle of friends began to distribute products. I remember it was August of 20 13, when the name wechat business didn't exist. I wanted to earn some extra money, so I helped make a circle, and then someone came to get it, earning 30 yuan per order, and actually earning 900 yuan in the first month! Then I took this 900 to wholesale and bought it myself. At that time, the explosion was really profitable, but I never sold the retail price. I sold it after earning 70 or 80. Then the owner of the tea shop saw that I delivered goods in the store every day and had different opinions. Let me choose whether to continue working and open a branch for a while or be fired. I found it was a good business opportunity, so I decided to resign. Finally, he gave me a trumped-up charge of dirty hands and feet and fired me. At that time, the owner of the shop next door offered me 3000 yuan a month to work in her shop, but I refused. I borrowed 1500 yuan to get a skin care agent, but when explosions flooded the streets, I resolutely transformed into a brand. My family is not optimistic about staying at home full-time. I only took one business in the first month, which made me fidgety. Then I cruelly packaged my products into trial packages and delivered them to your door for free. Many people robbed me of my free things, and all at once they were gone. Then, people began to buy back, retail, introduce and collect agents. In a few months, my team has grown to more than 100 agents, becoming the first batch of WeChat businesses with a monthly income of over 10,000. Later, I went back and forth to a tea shop to invite my former boss to dinner, and I slapped him with my actions. As a result, he had the cheek to let me take his wife to do WeChat business! When people are shameless, they can really achieve the ultimate. This shop has been closed since I left.

Wechat business achieved a bottleneck in the second half of the second year, which can be said to be black July. Suddenly, the whole Wechat business community could not sell goods collectively, which was related to the overwhelming doubts at that time. When did the fund market sprout? I took a team of more than 400 people to collectively transform the fund plate for the agency income, and invested several pots. As a result, my WeChat business earned hundreds of thousands, but I owed 40,000 foreign debts. The team collapsed! ! ! At that time, I really slapped myself a few times, and my intestines were blue with regret. Desperate for three months, my big agent left. After all, people still have to earn money to eat, and I don't blame them. Then I cleaned up my mood and made a platform. In two months, I grew to 267 people and accumulated contacts. Then I retired to the second line and started doing WeChat business again. From taking a small team as an agent to the highest level, changing to a big team directly to the top level, from a single retail to a wholesale to a development team. Now I am full of energy! Think about it. From starting a full-time job to four years now, from relying on a generation to having your own team, I fell down and got up again. Now I'm running around all over China, and it's really bloody all the way!

Two months ago, I finally ended my five-year marriage in name only. I won't hate the repeated betrayal of my ex-husband, and I won't hate the harshness of my parents-in-law. Even when my father-in-law lost 230 thousand gambling debts and borrowed usury, I was willing to help pay off the debts. Over the years, I have changed from a simple and humiliating independent woman to a sophisticated independent woman. I learned to change myself, learn to be positive and optimistic, learn to dress up and maintain well, practice my ability to make money, and try my best to be kind to my family. I have proved my worth.

For the rest of my life, I want to make myself better, meet myself better, and become more like myself before. I always believe that fate will open a window for me when it closes a door!