Actually, I didn't know what my mission was until 202 11.20. It was not until the monthly meeting of Shengheshu was held that I, as one of the three report operators, was the second to share it that morning. I shared it for 45 minutes, basically crying from beginning to end. I felt so embarrassed that I even cried in my makeup. On that day, nearly 65,438+050 people came to Shanghai to live and relax. When we had dinner together at noon, many new students or prospective students added my WeChat, and they all said to me, "You cry above, and we cry below." A very sensible student told me, "I haven't cried like this for many years, but I cry well."
This business report took me a month and a half to comb deeply, from my mother's pregnancy to 202 1 year 1 1, just one month, I just turned 40. It really gave me a good opportunity to be 40 years old and quickly integrate into the first half of my life.
Let me tell you again, I changed from a Christian to a Buddhist from June 5438 +2020 10. The master of the Zhong Hui in Xianghai Temple gave me a dharma name "Jinghong", which means "spreading dharma and benefiting students, with great momentum", which completely anchored me. The wisdom of the mage is far above me, and I can't understand many things, but the wise mage has seen far and clearly. How to live this life, that is, what is your mission? When I heard the words "spreading dharma and benefiting students, the momentum is like a rainbow", I stayed there like an overflow.
I was abandoned three times since I was a child. This kind of pain is drilled into bone marrow, blood and even cells. It's really painful The first time I was abandoned was when my mother was pregnant for three months. She doesn't want me at all. Because my mother was still young at that time, only 2 1 year old, so my mother went to the hospital three times and sought Chinese medicine and western medicine to get rid of me. But in the end, maybe my life was too bitter and I didn't succeed. In the process of being a fetus, my life feeling was deeply abandoned. The second abandonment was when my mother gave birth to me. She had dystocia for three days and nights, and she was bleeding heavily. The doctor asked her family, "To protect children or adults?" The family's answer is Bao Gong. I understand, after all, I have never seen my unborn child. So this is the second time in my life that I have been abandoned. The third time I was abandoned was when I was 6 years old. When my parents divorced, they all told me that they loved me very much. My father said, "Hong Hong, my father loves you. You can talk to my father. " My mother enthusiastically said to me, "Hong Hong, my mother can't live without you. My mother wants you and loves you." Later, the court awarded me to my father, but my father threw me to my grandmother's house. He saw me once a week, and even less with my mother, basically once or twice a month. I couldn't figure it out at the time. I miss my parents very much. Almost every night, I hide under the covers and secretly Lacrimosa. I dare not cry, lest my grandparents say that I am not strong enough and my bones are not hard enough. This is the third time I have been abandoned, and this time I am really hurt. I spent the first half of my life healing the pain of my childhood.
At that time, it was the first grade of primary school, and I felt neglected and thrown away like garbage. I was very, very lost and sad. I have been reading the Bible since I was nine years old, because such pain is beyond my control. When mom and dad are not around, they regard Jesus as their father. Drawing the energy of love from the Bible, my father's support and encouragement, all the words in the Bible feel that they are encouraging and loving me.
From grade one to grade four in primary school, I was sickly. Every winter, I am very ill and can't go to school. So I had to stay at home alone for a month to recuperate. I have learned to be alone and to talk to myself since I was a child. I have been at home this month, teaching myself as a teacher and a student. The grades in primary schools have always been excellent. Teachers and classmates like me very much. At the same time, I was surprised that I didn't go to school for more than a month and even got excellent grades in every exam, even full marks.
Junior high school went to Baotou No.9 Middle School, the best school in our district, and became classmates with the children of the mayor, the district head, the commander of the Military Commission and the president of the bank. Can everyone feel my sense of loss again? Ten thousand words are omitted here. ...
In junior high school, I was an outstanding student in my class and a very popular "man of the hour" in my grade. After graduating from junior high school, I was persuaded by my whole family to go to a secondary normal school, and my whole family opposed my going to senior high school. At that time, my heart was always in pain, because all my good friends went to key high schools, why not let me go? I also know in my heart that the whole family wants me to be independent as soon as possible and stop spending my parents' money. They just want me not to slow them down too early. Later, I learned that the divorced party can get more property if they want to have children. I suddenly broke down inside. I am far less important than property in the eyes of my parents! From then on, I regarded "money as dirt"!
My language expression has been outstanding since the third grade of primary school, and I often participate in recitation or speech competitions on behalf of the school, and I can get excellent rankings. Entering a normal school highlights my eloquence, which is naturally a good material for being a teacher. Because I can always convey my knowledge clearly and infectiously, making it easier for the recipients to understand and absorb. After graduating from normal school, it is logical to teach in our Baotou Tuanjie No.3 Primary School. That year, I won 80% honor of the school, and also participated in various speech contests and teaching rookie competitions on behalf of the school, district education bureau and municipal education bureau, and won the top rankings.
In fact, going to normal school has always been a pain in my heart. I don't want to go to an ordinary school. I don't want to be a teacher I just want to go to high school and my ideal university like my good friend. It often backfires. The more you don't want to do, the more God will let you do it. I have been a primary school teacher in my hometown for a year, so I must go to Beijing to study. No one can stop my decision! I fasted for three days and beat the whole family!
My inner determination has opened the way for me to study in college. At first, my parents were totally against it, so my university didn't have any financial support from my parents. But in Beijing 1 year, I must work first and save enough tuition. In the second year, I went to junior college for three years. Then I prepared for the college entrance examination for one year, and I studied for two years. Back and forth, I spent six years preparing for the undergraduate course, and the setbacks were very long.
I finally graduated from college in 2007. During the six-year work-study program, I fell in love with the profession of teacher. I found my inner richness and sense of accomplishment. Because there are more than 200 students and their parents, as well as more than 300 teachers and more than 200 salespeople, many school leaders have highly recognized my teaching level and teaching effect. I was at Giant School, the largest training institution in Haidian District, Beijing. At that time, there were more than 300 teachers in this school, which gathered the best teachers in Beijing. I actually won the second prize in the teaching competition in my third year. This is a result that I never dared to think about. 1 is the director of our teaching and research section, with teaching experience of 15 years. The second place is me, with only three years' teaching experience. At that time, it also caused quite a stir in Giant School, with the youngest and shortest teaching experience and even won the second prize.
It is strange that no matter where I am, as long as I give lectures, my popularity will explode. Later, I started a business. The school I founded in Shanghai, Douman Education, was also watered by me for ten years, so many parents came here, and many parents even came to my class across two districts, which made me very moved. At the same time, it is also very popular to give emotional management and coaching technical exchange courses to enterprises.
During the period of starting a business, I accelerated the pace of self-breakthrough learning and growth, became a learning enthusiast and practitioner, broke through many difficulties with the team and lived a happy life.