On July 2, 20 19, WeChat received a notice from Teacher Xu about the meeting of Benxi High School Conscience Learning Association. After opening it, I saw the schedule inside, which was a little hesitant and tangled. To tell the truth, what xu teacher recommended to me was the best, and I 100% absorbed it, but the time of this study meeting was in conflict with my work: the study meeting was required to report before the morning of July 4th 12, and it was originally scheduled to end at 4 pm on July 6th. Our school held a special training meeting at 9 am on July 4th, and went to Dalian University of Technology for further training from July 6th to 1 1. It is required to report on July 5. I immediately struggled, one was my work arrangement, and the other was my sincere desire for learning ... I told xu teacher the truth, but I just wanted to throw the struggle out and get a definite answer. Xu teacher just told me: "This study will have a great impact on your life and your children. No training or meeting can compare with this." After listening, I decided to come regardless of all difficulties! After careful analysis, I found a solution, so I am very happy! But on the morning of July 4, I received another notice of the meeting, and I can't take time off for this meeting! I feel so difficult in an instant! But in the end, I overcame all difficulties and came to Bengao to attend the study meeting.

On the afternoon of the first day, Teacher Cong Yali, the National General Class Committee of Conscience Learning Society, strictly demanded that nothing, including mobile phones and water cups, should be brought into the meeting place except study materials. Treat all participants equally and unify requirements, including sitting posture, clothing, etc. At first, many people didn't understand or even were reluctant, and the atmosphere was once tense and embarrassing. Seeing that the school leaders were so obedient, everyone obeyed.

Let's talk about learning experience first! Before class, I solemnly sang songs praising my ancestors, and all the students read the textbooks aloud. These are the first time we met, and I accepted them with an open mind and didn't feel rejected. When reading a book, there will be a sudden electricity between the lines, and there will be a * * * sound, but because we are reading together, we have no time to think, so we just made a quick mark. Watching the video, the sense of touch is more direct and more brought in. The notebook recorded many original words and first feelings at that time. Seeing the seemingly eloquent but powerful video of Mr. Bai, I deeply felt the spiritual guidance and awakening.

The next day's study began to get better in the afternoon. Xu teacher's initial intention, his persistence in the earth and his disapproval of secular views all deeply touched me. After listening to my father's words, I couldn't restrain my remorse, couldn't stop my tears, and began to write about my feelings. Later, I watched the video story and the sea burst its banks. One after another, I couldn't stop, I couldn't stop ... I thought of me in high school, my father, my brother, and I felt how arrogant I was now! I think of my lover, who has been neglected by me for a long time, but I didn't give him the respect and gentleness he wanted, didn't give him patience, accused him more than appreciated him, taught him more than discussed him, and told him what to do more than listened attentively. How arrogant and conceited I am.

During the whole process of study and reflection, many ideas flashed in my brain. When I came to study, I was thinking about self-interest. I wanted to be able to enrich myself and be myself in the process of accompanying my children in high school, and then help them. However, whenever I hear good paragraphs and good cases, I can't help but want to bring this idea and good methods back to my work, to help my students, to guide my students, to help one is one, to drive two is two, so that they can find their own spiritual home, open their hearts and welcome the sunshine.

True feelings! 2019.7.5-written in the early morning of 6th.