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It's another weekend, and the boring and mediocre life in college continues again and again. Recalling that I took the college entrance examination last year, I often heard various voices before the college entrance examination. Parents often say that children must study hard! This is an era in which knowledge changes fate. You will succeed if you go to college. And the teacher is urging you, often saying that you will be free when you go to college, so you must study harder! Now this society will be eliminated without knowledge, and the college entrance examination is a watershed. One more point, ten thousand enemies.

Although I experienced the cruelty of senior three like many people, I sometimes laugh at myself when I think back to my high school days. Why do you do everything except study hard? When I was a freshman, because of my only hobby, I signed up for an art class at school. Accidentally, I became an art test candidate, which was completely unexpected. With the identity of an art student, I am as enterprising as ever, and I don't know what to do and what not to do. The students around me changed from one batch to another, one crop after another. What remains unchanged is the ignorant boy. On the surface, I still persisted, persisting for three years.

I have tried the pain of the art test, and I will never forget the scene of running around the examination rooms in the cold wind with a heavy painting bag on my back from dawn. I will never forget that there was a lovely girl who helped me look at the examination room in the cold wind. Up to now, I haven't forgotten the girl's name and which university she studied in. Time flies, things are different. In recent years, many things have changed a lot quietly. The former playmates gradually lost contact, leaving only a lot of good memories and blessings during the holiday.

I have been in college for more than half a year. I'm not sure whether I went to college or not. I have a lot of feelings about the world. Some people say that the college entrance examination is a watershed in life, and it is very correct to think about it now. The college entrance examination is like a huge filter, which divides the gifted, the gifted, the second-class, the poor and the uneducated into three grades. It has been allocated to c9 universities, 985,211,two non-universities, two universities, three universities and so on. Excellent people meet more excellent people in excellent environment, while idle people meet more idle people in places where no one cares. At that time, I finally paid for my future, and my college entrance examination results were not ideal. The only comfort I can give is that I have passed the professional score of the undergraduate line. At that time, I had only four ways to go, either repeating my studies for one year, or reporting three books of public garbage or two books of private garbage, or reporting to a better college, giving up my studies and going to society to the extreme.

There are a hundred disappointments in my heart, and my dream is 2 1 1. So I made a small plan in my mind, and the possibility of success in repeating one year was not great, and then I decided to enroll in a poor institution. Originally, I was eager to realize my dream through two years of further study. I always do. I always feel lonely and brave when I know it. However, the fate of nature has changed dramatically in countless moments, so that the original intention has changed beyond recognition. The original silly dream was shattered and fragmented in the real sea of Wang Yang a few months ago, and the teenager who used to be proud of having a dream has already become confused and at a loss. At the beginning, that kind of silly innocence and commitment to parents' love have long since become a bubble.

I still remember my parents worried about me for the first time on the eve of school. Together, they figured out the date when I started school and took a few days off to send me to school. I guess this is the last time my parents will send me to school in my life. When I arrived in the city where my school was located, I was inevitably a little lost after settling down. However, I have to refresh myself and take my parents to a new city to browse the new Qionglou Yuyu and breathe fresh air. There are many happy smiles on parents' faces along the way, but they can't hide their deep sadness. The faster time passes, the more we face parting. When we returned to campus for the last time, the three of us sat down. I have long realized that in the near future, I will be the only one left in this city. My mother's face deepened, and I muttered to myself over and over again. Next to my mother, I bowed my head and nodded silently. My mother's words are deeply branded in my heart. It's time for my parents to catch the bus. Originally, the living expenses were rich, so I was given hundreds. After a long silence, I turned and left. At this time, I can no longer control my tears. I didn't dare to look back at my parents' departure and left my parents' sight in a hurry. Tears as big as beans fall with the rapid pace. No matter how strong a person is, there is also a fragile side. No matter how optimistic a person is, he sometimes cries.

In the new city, I opened a new chapter in my life. I walked alone on an endless road, where I met Sandy from all corners of the country. Everyone's lifestyle, temper and personality are very different. Those who learn are always learning to play, and those who play are always playing. I feel like a failure. I haven't learned to deal with people since I was a child. So far, I haven't made many friends who can talk to each other without reservation. Most of them are familiar strangers with a nodding acquaintance.

Time is a thief of time. It has ruthlessly stolen a lot of things from you and left a lot behind. He taught me to be silent, and gradually I didn't want to talk to people actively. Anyway, no one really understands you. I talk to myself more in the depths of my soul. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror in a daze. What kind of person is the person opposite? Sometimes I plug in headphones, listen to the stories inside, clear my mind, shape my own world, swim in my own world and be myself.

Life is a mixture of five flavors, like a cup of strong tea with endless aftertaste, bitter and sweet. The stories that happened to others, sometimes heard and sometimes watched, are all beautifully written. We are all ordinary people, and we can never live in the sight of others and be looked up to like those giants. It seems that any wealth has nothing to do with me forever. All I want is a simple concern. I just want to have a gentle voice to encourage myself when I am depressed: I am still by your side.

Years of floods and famines will definitely disappoint lovers and beautiful scenery. Since I entered school for half a year, many things have happened around me, and I gradually began to ignore the news of my hometown and talk less and less with my parents. Just occasionally chat with my mother on WeChat and ask each other a few words, and really live an independent life. Leaving the shackles of family for the first time will inevitably lead to many unaccustomed things. I have to face everything by myself. There is plenty of time in college life, and basically you will be fine after a day's class. This is undoubtedly a wonderful thing for me who like to have fun. I have no family constraints and no parents' nagging. More importantly, I have a fixed pocket money every month, and the academic pressure in college is not as tense as that in high school. My spare time is very rich, just like coming to heaven.

When I first went to school, my wallet was very rich and I fell in love with shopping. I carefully selected a skateboard on the Internet and planned to play my skateboard when I was bored. How cool it is to play skateboarding after class. For this reason, I also watched skateboarding videos of various skateboarders and learned about skateboarding. I was so excited when I got the skateboard that I didn't care about my white identity or what others thought. Although I can't row fast, I'm really happy. I just escaped from the purgatory of senior three, and I have never experienced such a feeling of freedom. After three minutes of heat, I didn't have much interest after playing for a while. The skateboard was placed in the corner of the dormitory and soon disappeared. Any university roller skating club is also dismissive. Maybe I'm just naive. Everything is novel for a while, and then it disappears.

The ever-changing society, facing all kinds of temptations in life, slowly lost its initial heart. Perhaps it is the first time to enter the university campus. There is no pure laughter in high school. That's because everyone is working hard for the same goal, and the teacher is also committed to treating every student. But everything here has changed. What kind of student union, community, practical activities, class cadres, joining the party and other activities platforms followed. I interviewed the student union and class cadres for the election, and I am not good at communication. I didn't expect me to succeed. I began to learn to do student union work, arrange and manage some affairs of the class. Weekly meetings and on-call work enrich every day, and some things I am responsible for in the class are also going on in an orderly way.

In the past six months, I have laughed happily, experienced anxiety in the middle of the night and experienced tasteless love! It is said that time is a quack, which heals all the pains in the heart but leaves a scar forever. This feeling is like a thorn embedded in a bone. Although you can enjoy it with peace of mind on weekdays, you will feel dull pain every windy and rainy day, but there is nothing you can do. We can only let nature take its course and wait for the passage of time. I tried many times for the first time. I smoked and drank for the first time, got drunk for the first time, didn't want to sleep for the first time, and failed to express my love to the girl I liked for the first time. I stood on the balcony and watched the stars for the first time.

Looking at the distance in the dark night, thinking about life and reflecting on yourself. I often feel too bad. It seems that I have never succeeded along the way, I have never got what I want, I have never been admitted to my favorite university, and all the girls I like don't like myself. So I'm used to staying up late and nobody cares. Later, I gradually like the feeling of reading, like the world in books, and like listening to the wonderful things of others. The true feelings revealed between the lines are always refining my inner world and enriching my soul. He taught me many truths that my elders and teachers never told me, enriched my vision, washed my soul and tried to bid farewell to mediocrity!

"I long for someone to see through me, and I am often afraid that they will see through me easily." Sharing this sentence has no origin, maybe it's just a reflection of mood.

I have written articles intermittently for several days, and occasionally collect some books, but I seldom settle down to read them, so what I have written these days is still superficial and has no substantive content, or life is too bitter to express. As Buddhists say, every feeling in this world contains different karma and habits, which cannot be diluted too much.

I don't know where the emotional experience brought by ignorant publications in that era came from. It seems that a long time has passed since the endless nonsense and sadness. It is also a frivolous fantasy to think about it. Today, I found that my enthusiasm has dried up. Even though I am experiencing confusion and so-called ups and downs, I can't describe one thing or two in half a word. I don't know if it's the lack of language, or if it's not enough to speak one or two. Even in the end, it is illusory.

I was waiting for someone yesterday, but I didn't realize there was a song in my ear. The lyrics are quite unclear, and the melody is very common and strange. Suddenly, I heard a girl passing by and followed two sentences: "The world is full of nostalgia, and looking at the horizon seems to be in front of me." I can't tell what it smells like, but I think it was a wonderful moment. I went back to look for this song in the evening, and after reading some comments, my eyes began to wet. Most of them said, "The world is lonely, only you and me ..." In the end, I was just lonely.

I am a typical extrovert and autistic person. I seem to have many friends, but I still eat alone, travel alone, and want to talk about a love, but I am afraid and entangled in contradictions. All the contradictions in this world may be the dilemma between reality and ideal. If there are contradictions, you can't have both easily, so you can last forever. Contradictions are excuses. I have a bad heart. I also want to hide in the mountains, drink tea and listen to the rain, read books and practice calligraphy, and be carefree. Even if such a thing can be done at any time, the big difference is that the environment we yearn for is not secular, but a state of mind.

I bought some books to see how others write about the bitterness of life. I hope I can say one or two things one day, and I hope I will never get there. I hope to find someone who understands me, and I hope not to care too much in the world.

Say so much, whether it's nameless moaning or emotional outpouring. We walked a long way just to find ourselves. Let those who know understand, those who don't understand, let the world be the world, and I am willing to be a cocoon.

Time is a soul that passes by in a hurry. It passes by you inadvertently and you don't notice it. Youth is not just a person's shuddering. With the end of the final exam, everyone came to a fork in the road, packed their bags for the first time and set foot on the road home.

After three days of hard work, I finally went home. This feeling is like lovers reunited after a long separation rushing to a warm harbor. Only when you leave your hometown can you understand homesickness and understand that the taste of home is diverse and warm.

Some people say that boys grow up overnight and come home only to find that so many things have happened at home. Grandma left me forever, and my parents hid the fact from me in the distance. They were afraid that my distraction would affect them, and they didn't even see grandma for the last time. In my memory, my closest relatives who played in the yard with me left without saying goodbye and walked so peacefully. But I didn't blame my parents. I don't blame them for not giving me the last chance to see grandma. They did it for my own good and didn't want to add trouble to me in the distance. The dead are gone, so are the living. There is nothing to face when the closest person is gone. Although growing up doesn't mean you will get anything, you will definitely lose a lot! When I got home, I didn't choose to enjoy myself comfortably. I decided to go out and find a job in the society to exercise myself. After all, I am no longer a child, and it's time to be a man with indomitable spirit.

I found a job the next day after I got home. Working as a waiter in a hot pot restaurant is my first job in my life. Although I am a waiter, I am very happy, because I can earn the first bucket of gold by my own ability. This hot pot restaurant is a franchise store under the famous hot pot chain store in China. It's neither too big nor too small, but it's also clean. Every day, an endless stream of guests come here. The manager of this store is a divorced woman with a low rural education. She got the position of manager by virtue of her years of working experience in restaurants.

So my regular work and life began. My mother said that since we had a holiday, we should have a good rest at home and not go out to suffer. I refused her without hesitation. When the son grows up, sooner or later, he will leave the campus for the society forever. It is better to adapt to the society early and gain valuable life experience, so that he won't be caught off guard when that day really comes and suddenly wake up after being slapped by reality. I bid farewell to the comfortable and enjoyable life, and spent every day in the busy. During the winter vacation, I met the peak of passenger flow. There are twice as many guests in the shop as usual every day. This kind of work is also tiring, the salary is low but it is worth it. I have also met many colleagues who work part-time for college students in winter vacation, some of them are freshmen and juniors, and everyone is working hard for the future. Every day, we receive all kinds of guests, high-quality and low-quality, polite and impolite, from all walks of life, and their temperament, dress, manners and conversation are different. At that time, I understood that maybe after many years, I will become a hard-working office worker, and I will feel good to live, live in a family, or sit in the classroom and study. I also understand that the significance of studying is not to mix a diploma, but to have more choices, better and more stable jobs and achieve a leap in class in the future.

I remember Mr. Zhang Xuefeng once said that whenever you can't learn, you should take time out to have a look. Go to Shanghai International Airport, Suzhou Airport, Railway Station and the bus station in the small county below. You will find that the people in these four places are different. Their manners are completely different, and it takes a lot of effort to become what kind of people they are. I dare not completely deny the teacher's point of view, but it is not completely wrong. As far as China's national conditions are concerned, reading is not necessarily the most correct way, but it is the most stable way.

At that time, I thought, I must make my parents live a better life through my own efforts, and I can't be a child living under the protection of my family. Everything comes to him who waits, and another 3,000 armor will swallow Wu. I believe that the world is fair, and how much effort will be rewarded.

At this time, I realized the true meaning of reading and learning, and I was no longer the immature teenager who didn't learn anything for the sake of learning. I know where I am now, so I set myself a medium-term goal. After two years, I must be admitted to an acceptable undergraduate college in southern Jiangsu for further study, improve my academic level, see higher scenery and get to know better alumni. Secondly, I can be closer to my own sister's house. My sister married in Jiangsu a few years ago, which is also the purpose of studying in Jiangsu. Jiangsu's educational resources are second only to the Imperial Capital in China. There are all kinds of famous universities here, and the education is among the best in the country. If you find a job in southern Jiangsu after graduation and take my parents here to live, then our family will be reunited.

In this way, my winter vacation work experience is coming to an end, and I have learned a lot and realized many facts. I left this memorable place with my first bucket of gold, packed my bags and embarked on a journey back to school with my ideal.

When I left, I had a reunion dinner with my family and bid farewell to my soft-hearted mother. This time, the tears in the corner of my eyes once again flowed down unwillingly. The thread in the hand of a kind mother makes clothes for her wayward children. She mended it carefully and thoroughly, fearing that it would delay his time to go home. The depth of mother's face took care of her inner disappointment. How can a son not care? Only getting ahead is the best gift for her. Only when you are alone can you calm down and think about some things, stay away from the hustle and bustle of the world and listen to your inner voice. Here's what you want to say. You can think about life quietly, from life to the universe, which is also the meaning of travel.

Step out of your comfort zone and go to a higher place. You will see better winds and meet better people.

The train kept going day and night, and the passengers around it changed one after another, and the scenery outside the window flashed by. There are towering mountains, long-flowing rivers, quiet and comfortable villages and neon-lit cities. Once again, we can see the vast prosperity of the motherland through a narrow lens, and the prosperity and beauty of the world are still worth appreciating.

Never think, never forget. I have always liked these six words. This sentence comes from Ray Ma, a famous contemporary movie star. The first time I paid attention to him carelessly, I couldn't say how I felt. He always gives people a feeling of sunshine and positive energy, and later I couldn't help falling in love with this clean and positive little brother. Later, I bought Ray Ma's autographed "I am a ronin", which recorded all his experiences along the way and found that his early experiences were not as smooth as I expected. His mother died when he was a child, and his father flew away, leaving only a lonely pony to live with his grandmother. He grew up in a poor and hard environment and formed a strong character. Like most of his peers, he leads an ordinary life of mowing grass and busy farming. When he grew up, he began to work to earn money to support himself. At that time, his biggest dream was to make money to build a house and marry a wife. However, when he chose to go to Beijing to work hard, everything changed quietly. As a waiter in a bar, he asked his colleagues: What can I do to make money? Colleagues said: "Acting is the most profitable". By chance, I took part in the talent show, passed all the way, kept learning and constantly made up for my shortcomings. Later, I was admitted to Beijing Film Academy, which made my noble life and realized the reversal of my life. His success depends not only on his good-looking appearance, but also on his inner positive and indomitable spirit.

The road to success of others can't be copied step by step, but more is to learn from others' enterprising spirit. Whenever you are carefree, think that there is no one behind you and you will not fall down. There are more celebrities who may be far behind you at the same age. The sweat they ate made them extraordinary today.

I haven't written for several days, and occasionally I read something in my mind. Originally, I was going to regain my childhood dream. I was going to start writing novels to taste the taste of being a writer. I finally conceived the plot for a few days, set the background of the characters, and interviewed them the day before yesterday.

Thinking that I still have some ability to write articles, I interviewed the school's new media studio, but I didn't expect to pass it once, so I became a formal new media worker. The history of the school is not long, so some institutions and organizations of the school are still in the embryonic development stage, including my studio. This also provides a bright prospect for my future development. I am very happy after joining the studio. It not only provides an opportunity to exercise, but also gives me an opportunity to display my talents. The new media studio is a department directly under the Propaganda Department of the Party Committee. Different from organizations such as student union, you can earn a sum of money, and more importantly, you can learn a lot.

I met Sister Susie here. She used to be a journalist, a worker struggling in the front line of information. The work of new media is similar to that of journalists. They must strive to be on the front line of the latest school information, and then write articles, typeset them into official WeChat accounts, and send them in the eyes of classmates. Today, the CCTV 7 column team came to our school to shoot a short film of the Department of National Defense Education, so I took a notebook to record the scene and prepared to write a press release. After intense work, I found that I had no clue. It is a bit difficult for me to write a press release for the first time, because I have no professional knowledge and systematic training. It turns out that there are still many things worth learning in the small studio, but this is not enough for me to give up and go all the way to the end, and my painstaking efforts will eventually pay off.

So, let's put the writing of the novel aside. You can't have your cake and eat it. Your dream can come true later. At present, it is more important to study hard and learn more. Learning to charge yourself is more important than charging and releasing. When a person becomes mature, he will gradually pay less attention to others and think more about how to improve himself.

5. 1 After the holiday started, a lot of pimples appeared on my face. For me, who never grows pimples, it is really a very distressing thing. Maybe this is God's punishment for my lack of self-discipline. Often stay up late, eat irregularly, and occasionally eat a lot. For me, a man in the north has worked hard to adapt to the diet in the south.

In fact, whether you are used to it or adapted to it, you still insist on being yourself, just trying to be live high in the noisy world. More and more people come into contact unconsciously and have to face all kinds of complicated relationships. No matter the relationship between colleagues or classmates, it seems that no one really tries to understand the true self, and it is more superficial. Think a little when you talk into your ear, and think a little when you talk into your mouth. I have always felt that I am a person with low emotional intelligence. So far, the so-called interpersonal relationship is very poor, so I have always insisted on being myself. I have never learned the technique of flattery. Anyway, I look down on such people. I know how to flatter them without any skills.

Sometimes I look up to such people, but sometimes I think it doesn't matter if I become president, so I have to take a make-up exam if I fail the course. Society does not need any student union president, nor does it need any schoolmaster. What it really needs is sophisticated talents. Recently, I heard a strange voice. Words like Student Union seem to be more derogatory and contemptuous than positive. It is really annoying to feel superior. Your efforts are only to prove that you are better than yourself yesterday. You don't necessarily think you are superior. True Excellence is not higher than others, but oneself who is too yesterday. Today's self is better than yesterday's.

Time has always been a very important thing in my subconscious, so it appears frequently in my articles. Life is short for several decades. The sun rises and sets in the west, and the sun and the moon change, leaving tree rings, wrinkles on people's faces, gray temples, and petite bodies that can't support the arrogant posture of the past.

I once inadvertently read a sentence on the Internet: My parents who have no worries about food and clothing deserve me and are ashamed of their parents. Parents' efforts have brought a happier life to their children, but hiding in the warm embrace of trees and falling into depravity is actually a disrespect for parents. The hidden rules of the adult world, intrigue and competition, compare the IQ and EQ. If you think they are not easy, write more understanding and consideration to them and try your best to repay them. Inadvertently realized that I really didn't communicate with my family after I left school, but I often looked at a few lines of men on the electronic screen and wanted to know how they felt. So I decided to pick up the phone and call my mother, ask her questions and tell her what I really want.