The Light of Elk is a reminiscence essay by Ba Jin, written in March 194 1 year. This year, Ba Jin returned to his hometown with the hope that his hometown would change. It was eighteen years after he left his hometown, but he was disappointed after living in his hometown of Chengdu for fifty days. He found that it was almost the same as when he left 18 years ago. He was full of thoughts and finally left his hometown again. The article "The Elk's Lamp" records the author's mood when he returned to his hometown this time.
From the content point of view, the ideas expressed in the article are quite profound and rich, and the full text is centered on the words "descendants of Changyi" on the zhaobi of the former residence. Through free association, I expressed my nostalgia for my sister who was swallowed up by the old system, criticized the sin of the old family destroying life in the old society, and criticized the feudal ruling class's idea of "immortality", thus reaffirming my betrayal of the feudal family and expressing my firm belief in the unremitting pursuit of the bright world.
1923, Ba Jin broke through the family barrier and left his hometown. He has never been back, but that doesn't mean he has no nostalgia for his hometown. 1937, Ba Jin wrote in his novel "Home": Although he was full of anger at his home, "those people, places and things have been deeply engraved in my heart, no matter how washed, they will leave traces. I want to forget them. I think I should forget them, but I can't. Until now, I know that I can't say that I have no nostalgia. " It is this homesickness that made the author finally set foot on the land of his hometown again after 18 years, and returned to his hometown of Chengdu, where he was born and raised, and engraved countless childhood memories that he will never forget. However, after 18 years, what did the author see when he returned home?
In the evening, when I stood in front of my former residence, an "old friend" who broke up 18 years ago, although the appearance of the former residence changed a little, it didn't change in the end, but there were four characters "Changyi descendants" on the wall. There was a faint light in the gate, which made him "seem to see a water bowl full of hope fall to the ground and break at once" and "cry in pain". In the darkness, he seemed to see the light on the island of harish, which was the light of Elk's sister in ancient European legend, and sitting in the light was his sad sister.
Legend has it that a long time ago, on the ancient European island of harish, there was an elder sister named Elk who lit a lamp in front of her window every night. Because she has a brother who sails at sea, she is afraid that his sailing brother can't find his way home. She will use her bright light to show her sailing brother the way and point out a way home. She waits every day and looks forward to it every day. But until her death, the poor sister didn't wait for her brother, and finally went to the grave with endless disappointment.
Ba Jin once had a sister who was looking forward to talking in the dark, a sister who was haggard in the narrow circle next to her during the day. When Ba Jin left, he personally promised his sister that he would come back to see her one day and talk to her about things outside. But when Ba Jin came back, death had taken everything away from her sister. Like all old-fashioned women, she left alone, and she finally didn't see the return of her beloved brother. A kind-hearted sister never got her husband's true love before her death. After her death, her husband "never did anything to commemorate her." She lived alone and died alone, and death took everything from her. " This also makes Ba Jin, who occasionally sees elk lights in his dreams, let his younger brother who often dreams and flies to the lights with his eyes open. Why not?
Sister Ba Jin's tragedy was caused by her sinful family. So, what happened to the rest of the family in the past 18 years? 1932, when the author's novel Home was just published in the newspaper, there was bad news at home: Ba Jin's brother committed suicide painfully. From 65438 to 2008, some people in this family died, some people fell down, and some people could only "eat the bitter fruit of the trees they planted". Because of this, the author said bitterly: "For more than ten years, everything seems to have changed, but nothing seems to have changed." What changed was "many people died, many homes were destroyed, and many lovely lives were buried in the grave"; What has not changed is that "many newcomers continue to stage unnecessary tragedies." There are so many "unnecessary wastes-life, energy, feelings, wealth, even laughter and tears". It is precisely because of this that the author painfully realized that "descendants of Changyi" were just a dream of ancestors. A wealthy family, even if it has a lot of money, can't save generations from being destroyed. "Wealth is not suitable for children and grandchildren. If we don't give them a life skill and show them a life path, the small circle of' home' can only destroy the development and growth of young people's hearts; If we don't let them open their eyes to see the world at the same time, wealth can only destroy lofty ideals and good temperament, if it is only consumed in personal interests. " Therefore, the author's criticism of the legacy of the feudal family "descendants of Changyi" has been extended to the criticism of feudal morality and the whole feudal decline system. Of course, while denying the old moral concepts, the author also strengthened his belief of "going to a broad world" and pursuing a bright future. At the end of the article, I said, "This is not the place where I should come." "I'm glad that I left my small home again and entered the vast world.".