The first half of senior three
I was really depressed in the first half of my senior year. My mood will affect my face. It must have been ugly at that time, so that now everyone says I have changed. In fact, the biggest change is my mentality. At that time, I was a little anxious, but I didn't know who to talk to, so I kept holding it in my heart. I had a lot of acne on my face, and the longer I got, the more irritable I became.
It suddenly occurred to me that I chose finance major because I wanted to go back to work in the county. As a girl, the "good" jobs I can think of are banks and civil servants. I naively thought that studying finance meant entering a bank. Then, in my senior year, the autumn recruitment of banks began. I realize that finance does not have advantages, but some external conditions are very important. To this end, we all took a photo of our own documents to improve the pass rate of online application. However, height is also a well-known potential condition, although the recruitment conditions are not expressly stipulated. I felt hopeless at that time. In order to get a chance, I filled in a fake height, so I applied for it twice online and gave me a written test. Finally got the interview, and the results haven't come out yet. Although the interview was 1.5 months ago, I don't understand why it was delayed and I no longer have illusions. It is normal that banks are not absolutely fair.
I also took part in the national exam,165438+1the exam at the end of October. Because there were too many things in the past six months, I always swayed from side to side, so I didn't make full preparations. In the process of preparation, I attach great importance to the application. At that time, there was a very good institution in the school, which often held free public classes, and I went there every time. There is also a WeChat class, which follows the study and hands in homework every day, so that every time the teacher in that institution sees me, he directly calls my WeChat name and tells me that you can do it! I thought I could do it, too, and the score came out-1 19. 1, which was about 2 points short. I didn't get into the exam, and I didn't feel too sad, but I began to feel sad when I saw the score of the application, but the confident subjects lowered the score so much.
After the national examination, I didn't get a temporary relaxation. I immediately threw myself into the writing of the paper. At that time, I felt that the paper was so difficult, just like pressing a big stone in my heart. I'm afraid I won't pass the exam and I'm afraid I won't graduate, because my tutor asked me to make a model. This is really troublesome. Some software operations are forgotten, and I don't know who to ask. At that time, all my friends were taking the postgraduate entrance examination, so I worked alone because time was tight. At that time, I didn't leave the dormitory for several days, and sometimes I only ate one meal a day. Finally! Finally! I finished it, and then I began to check the copy. The first duplicate check, the result is more than 40%. It was too high, so I started to modify it. Actually, I wrote a lot of them myself. I'm helpless. I don't know how many times it has been revised. It cost about 65,438+000 to change them to about 65,438+08%, which is up to standard. I contacted my tutor to hand in my paper. It is said that the papers written by the students in this class are really poor. I felt uneasy about my paper at that time. When they all left, I handed them over to my tutor, who said, "Your writing is quite good. Ok, hand it in." After listening to this sentence, I am really happy and can't wait to tell everyone (haha, I really told many people). Finally, I finished my thesis and my defense. My heart began to feel better. Looking back now, I really think the thesis is a huge difficulty. In fact, all the difficulties you thought were only at that time. Later, you will think it's nothing. Why are you so sad and stupid?
I also submitted several resumes and met several times in the first half of my senior year. Every interview is to let me know who I really am and what I like to do. I am very grateful to the interviewer I met. Their questions made me know myself better. I met Baidu Pangu, but I was brushed on both sides. I was also asked to tell me why. They said that through talking with me, I found that my intention to apply for a job was not clear. I wish I could come back when I think of it. Indeed, I have been asking myself what kind of job I am looking for and what kind of job I can do. Every time I think about it, I feel sad and find that I don't know myself very well. We often say that we should find a job we like, but what do you like? You like to be close to home and have less money. Well, this kind of work is really difficult. I didn't want to go to a different place, so I submitted my resume to the company online. I wanted to be an accountant, but my qualifications basically didn't meet. I saw an insurance company that said it wanted a financial planner. I submitted my resume and soon received an interview notice and made an appointment. I was rushing home from school for an interview. Every time I go to an interview, I wear a formal suit, and my pants are a little tight. I can only wear long pants inside, get up at six in the morning, pack my things and go to their company by car, and finally find it. This is not an interview. Just a simple conversation. My job is to sell insurance, and the treatment is commission. I have to rent a house here. In short, it is not appropriate to think about it. I cried on the bus when I came back. Maybe there are too many things during this time, and my heart is really depressed. I began to doubt myself and feel so depressed. In a word, all the negative emotions are coming up. Only here can I cry. Nobody knows me. I don't want to go home and let my parents see me. Fortunately, no one noticed me. When I got home, I told my parents the basic situation, and they didn't want to go.
I will pack my bags and go back to school soon. There is a recruitment in the school, and there may be more opportunities. So I don't know how many times I ran back and forth, nor how many times I wiped my tears on the bus. At that time, I was very fragile, thinking too much and lacking in ability. I always question myself. This is a dead end. The holiday is coming soon, so I don't have to rush about looking for a job anymore. I will go home to prepare for the Spring Festival, put my troubles behind me and think about it when school starts.
When I get home, my mother always advises me to have my hair cut. I haven't cut my hair short yet. I struggled for a long time and decided to cut it off. As it turns out, what my mother said is right. Many people say it looks better than before when they see me, haha. It may be that my mood has improved and the acne on my face has gradually disappeared. Go out and get used to light makeup. Everything seems to be getting better again ~
The second half semester of senior three.
I decided to save the exam, or I wanted to go back to work. I didn't go back to school early, but I went back to school after I got my driver's license, in early March. Going back to school with friends to prepare for the exam is always sloppy at first, and I always feel that it is still a long time. Fortunately, nothing happened, and I was in a relaxed state to prepare for the exam. Then the last big move of the school. I went to see it and submitted several resumes, but only one interview was selected. The interview session is quite rich. After listening to the introduction, I still like this company very much, but my work place is Beishangguang, so I really want to work in their company. After the interview is passed, the HR notice must be signed by three parties before April 10, otherwise it will be invalid. After a long struggle, I decided to strike first. So I signed it, and then I kept thinking that I might go to Beijing to work in the future, but I was still a little scared. I always think positively and convince myself that this choice is right. I chose two completely different paths for myself. I don't know what the future is like, and I don't want to think about it. I just want to take every step down to earth.
Just yesterday, the provincial exam ended, and the exam was not ideal, even worse than the usual simulation. I am a person who can't pass the exam. I really don't like exams all the time, and I really don't want to take any more exams. After the exam, I was not as relaxed and happy as I thought before, and I was not very sad to know that I didn't do well in the exam, until my mother asked me how I did in the exam, which made me so sad and disappointed.
I wanted to sleep in, but I woke up at half past six and recorded my year with a short article. No matter which way I take in the end, I will go forward and live my little life happily ~