? I used to have many ideas, but just think about it! Want to do something, just think about it, it is difficult to put it into action. My feelings and cognition about myself are: ineffective action, procrastination, laziness, weird thinking and impossibility. I think I should be quite talented, but I don't think I have any talent, because I can't do anything, and I feel very wronged. I should be able to, but I really can't do anything. It's contradictory and confusing. For example, I want to draw, but I can't draw anything with a pen. I want to do manual work and take scissors, but I don't know how to do it, and I'm afraid I can't do it well. I want to do something at work, but I dare not say it. I am afraid I can't do it well, of course I dare not do it. Want to write a share, I don't know how to start, I don't know what to write and what not to write. ...

But recently I found myself very mobile. When I have an idea, I will put it into action. If you want to make a small video, do it right away. Seeing that Tik Tok's apples grow well, I also want to try them. I acted immediately, bought apples and cut them ... I felt that the doors and windows at home were old and ugly, and I wanted to change the color. I'll do it right away. I'll buy paint and brush it myself. After painting the doors and windows, I feel that the color of the dado does not match the color of the new doors and windows. If you want to match a color you like, act now. I feel that the sofa is a little old again, and I need to wrap it up and change into a new dress. In this way, I did it myself. After work and rest, I decorated and renovated my home, and it was completely new, and I did it myself. I really feel old! My understanding of myself has changed a lot. I really feel clumsy and lazy to learn anything! Because of this, I never want to cooperate with others, but do it silently, afraid that others will laugh at me and think I am stupid, and I will not ask for help no matter how difficult it is. This time, I also made a breakthrough and began to invite friends to help. But my friends not only didn't laugh at me and dislike me, but also were rated as "active", "talented woman" and "hardworking little bee", and I accepted it frankly.

Then how do I break the seal of movement? Never dare to do it, too lazy to do it, can't do it, and do it now?

Through the four-step tool of life map. Although I didn't take the offline course of Life Map, I learned this tool completely and systematically. However, as soon as I heard teacher Daozi's public welfare audio on the Himalayas, I felt that she conveyed the truth of life and the law of life, and I fell in love with this law and truth. Therefore, although the current conditions are not enough to support me to go to the online and offline life map course, my pursuit of the truth and law of life has not been going on. Listen to the teacher's audio more; Participate in online micro-course universities; In the group that feels life, watch the sharing of friends; Invite emotional counselors who feel life to do case consultation, and constantly ponder how to do these four steps in each process. What is the principle? I also keep practicing in my life and myself. Although I may not fully understand that my exercise is not up to standard, it is enough to make a huge change in my life.

I understand the four steps of the map: first, consciously release emotions, second, see the cause and effect clearly, third, see the truth clearly and turn over beliefs. Fourth, find your love and do what you love to do. What does he do? What does he run? Take my action of unsealing this time for example.

I want to share my growth and changes in the group. I feel a lot of changes. I want to share my growth and gains, but I can't say anything. I feel very uncomfortable, all kinds of emotional grievances, anger, shame! It's stuck in my chest. If I can't get out, I will release my emotions. I will tell you how I feel. I feel so wronged. I usually ask myself and answer myself. I asked myself how I was wronged. A: I can't say what I want to say and I can't do what I want to do. It's so uncomfortable! Then I shouted out this distress. I said I felt terrible, and then I felt so stupid that I couldn't do anything. I began to cry and shout, telling everything I felt and thought: I didn't dare to say a word, and I didn't know how to say it. I feel so stupid, I can't do anything, I can't do anything But I think I will. I am so wronged ...

After crying out my feelings and thoughts in this way, I asked myself when I had the same feeling. Then I recalled a childhood memory: when I was in primary school, I was once invited to participate in the school dance performance, and when I went to perform again, the teacher never called me again. I felt ashamed at that time because the teacher wouldn't let me go. It must be because I can't dance well that I feel stupid and can't dance well. Then I wanted to go, and I liked dancing very much. But I don't think I can dance well, and I can't help it. The teacher won't let me go, and I can't help it. Who makes me stupid and can't dance well? I feel stupid, timid and helpless after evaluating myself. When I shouted out these feelings, I suddenly saw a truth. Am I stupid? Why was I invited to the school dance team by this teacher? Just because I like dancing, I want to dance when I see the school dance team dancing well, so I found some classmates. I found music to practice choreography with them, and then danced at the New Year's Eve party in our class, which was well received by teachers and classmates. Later, the teacher of the school dance team heard about it and invited me over. If I am stupid, can I choose my own music and choreography, and then teach my friends to perform together at the New Year's Eve party? So where did I get stupid? But a voice said: then you can't dance well, and the teacher won't let you dance. Isn't that stupid? I overturned it again. Is it because I'm stupid that I can't dance well, or because I haven't danced or practiced before? I haven't practiced my movements. Of course, I don't have a partner who often dances. I am a good dancer. That's because I haven't practiced much, not because I'm stupid. Yes, it is. I saw the truth! There is also helplessness. The teacher won't let me go. I really want to jump, but I can't. Is there really no way? If I want to dance, I should tell my teacher at that time that I like dancing and am willing to learn and practice. Please ask the teacher to teach me. If I practice more, I can change this result through my own actions. Yes, it makes me understand that what I want to do is not just waiting for others to allow me to do it. I can take the initiative to fight for it I'm really happy to see this. I feel that the whole person has been unsealed. I also understand why I always dare not do many things, because I believe I am stupid, I can't do anything well, and I have no choice. So, I started to act, starting with some small things and simple things. Try to do it when you have an idea. Of course, there will be a lot of emotions in the middle, otherwise I can't do it. I also use this method to release, see those absurd perceptions and ideas, see the truth, and then turn it over and transform it before acting. Follow the steps that things conform to the law, from a basket, a trinket to a small bag, and try to do it. From small things to bigger and bigger things, I have personally decorated my home. If I have any ideas at work, I will also take the initiative to ask the leader for instructions. What I want to try is also allowed by the leader. I really feel that my life has changed a lot from before. It's an exaggeration to say it's upside down, but it's not serious, hahahaha! I'm in a different mood anyway Many times, I am also quite satisfied with myself, unlike the previous denial and dissatisfaction with myself, which is the root of my unhappiness. Find the root cause, with tools, I believe I will get better and better! This is definitely not empty talk!

(The decoration is not finished yet, and pictures will be provided when it is finished. )