I have a dream I have a dream (preface) "I am me/fireworks of different colors ... I like me/let roses blossom and bear fruit." ..... "Leslie Cheung, who has always been different, sang like this. I have worked in the field of teaching for 18 years, humming this song and continuing to pursue it, because I have a dream. As if it were a dream, I plunged into the profession of teacher. I said she was a career, not a career, because at first I only thought it was just a means of making a living, just like a construction worker or other occupations. Due to the accidental factors of fate, I got the admission notice of a normal college. I remember that I was not happy when I received the notice from the postman. Four years of college life has fulfilled my dream of reading. I borrowed almost all the famous literary works, political and historical works in the library at that time. Perhaps I tried my best to fill a loss in my life. Recalling those days, I still feel full and happy. Four years later, I came to teach in a rural middle school that I was not familiar with. It was a quiet day, and I lived a miserable, leisurely and busy life. During my years as a teacher, I also felt the joy and joy after getting excellent results in the college entrance examination with students, but this joy did not last long until the appearance of two people changed my fate. One of the two people who changed my fate is Wei Shusheng, a teacher who can't live in heaven. After being transferred to jiangyan middle school, the headmaster recommended the book Wei Shusheng, an educational reformer, to everyone at a teachers' meeting. I almost finished reading the book in one breath. A rural ordinary teacher who can apply for 150 times, a person can make Chinese teaching so vigorous without changing his composition, and a person can make his knowledge accumulation so profound only through self-study on the basis of graduating from grade three. So one night I studied him, his almost persistent love, his ability to "enter the spiritual world of students" and his Chinese education concept. I was almost obsessed with trekking on this rich mountain, sucking the aura of the mountain, so I had later articles such as "Self-control Education is the Core of Wei Shusheng's Educational Thought" and "Building the Emotional World of China Education", and I also had a career like Wei Shusheng's. Another teacher who changed my fate is our special teacher Chen Kai. I got to know Mr. Chen Kai from his book How to Be a Teacher. I assume the sacred post of a teacher with a sense of historical responsibility. Starting from love, I sow the seeds of emotion and truth in the language, and a teacher's earnest pursuit leaps between the lines. The value of teachers ... in a deeper sense, it should be reflected in the spread of human civilization and the development of intellectual resources, in the cultivation of talents needed for social development, and in promoting the progress of human society. Although this lofty value of teachers has not been universally recognized by the whole society, history will eventually prove that teachers are the noblest profession in the world, and their respect by people will be eternal. "These philosophical words in the book deeply shocked me and made me feel ashamed and uneasy. Later, Chen Kaixian and I became neighbors, and his professionalism, noble personality and elegant demeanor infected me all the time. Although Teacher Chen Kai retired a few years ago, he still reads and writes every day, gives lectures to students for free, and talks with every student and every young teacher who is eager for his help. " Remember, before you dare to undertake the task of cultivating a person, you must first turn yourself into a person. "This sentence in Rousseau's masterpiece" Emile "makes me feel that I must abandon my past self, rebuild my new self, and become a person with noble personality charm like Teacher Chen Kai. Although I was confused at the beginning of teaching, I feel full and happy now living next to Mr. Chen Kai because I have a dream. I still remember a controversial class when I 1992 transferred to jiangyan middle school. At that time, when the school accepted a demonstration school, I received a phone call from the school at seven o'clock in the evening saying that I wanted to listen to my class. The class was ready at that time, and I was in no hurry. The next day, "Lin Daiyu entered Jia Fu", I asked the students to briefly introduce the main contents of the first five chapters. I chose a few words to introduce the main characters, and the students listened with relish. Then I started with the character analysis and immediately cut into the analysis of Wang Xifeng. I asked the students to find the words that best reflected her character and appreciate them. Students express their opinions, and some even imitate the sudden change between intimacy and sadness. I feel good about myself after class. Who knew that the evaluation was lower when the class was evaluated later? The reason is that I didn't speak the text, but spent a long time introducing something that has little to do with the text. At that time, my heart was full of frustration and I hit the wall of reality for the first time. "Go to the land with poor water, and then sit and watch Yun Qi". From then on, I put down everything in my heart, and the most important thing is to put down my face. I will study from scratch like a primary school student, and I will try my best to do what I want to do. I secretly swear. Since then, I have been teaching Chinese in two classes as a head teacher, and I have been talking with the teachers in the class and asking them for advice every day. After listening to every teacher in the Chinese group, I focused on learning from teachers in the same grade as the class. Although I am a little eager for quick success and instant benefit, I have also learned a lot while attending classes. I feel the wisdom of teacher Zhang Zhenbang, the passion of teacher Chen Zhangming and the simplicity of teacher Chen Ping. Many young teachers have also given me many lessons, and I am deeply grateful to them. Gradually, in the process of learning, I felt the joy of teaching, the abstinence and exquisiteness of teaching art, and gradually formed my own style while learning from hundreds of schools, which was recognized by teachers. Perhaps because of my strong nature, I always feel a little empty in the busy teaching process. How can I fill this void? I chose to talk to famous books. I want to be an educator, not a teacher. The words of the pioneers made me feel like a spring breeze man. Put down a calm desk in my heart, and in the dead of night, I tasted the sweetness of educational masterpieces. Reading has enriched me and promoted me to constantly reflect on my teaching behavior. Looking back on that class, I feel a little more confident and thoughtful. More importantly, I want to thank that class and those who have cared and helped me. I am not a "swift horse" in my life journey, but I have been cared and cared for by countless "Bole" in my life journey. "'make-up' whispered to her husband, the depth of thrush is out of date." I waited in this state of mind for a long time when the manuscript fell into the mailbox. Maybe there was no news again, I thought at that time. Suddenly, one day, I received a letter from Mr. Qi Wanjun, telling me that the manuscript could not be used, and there were many pertinent words, between which were care and love. This warmth has always been treasured by me, and it is also the source of motivation to urge me to continue practicing writing. "I wrote this passage for the 200th issue of Friends of Chinese Teaching. I don't know Mr. Qi, but he cares so much about a junior and gives me a warm baptism. May my blessing always accompany Mr. Qi and friends who teach Chinese. There is also Mr. Sang Jianzhong, the current editor-in-chief of Chinese Teaching Newsletter. My article "Self-control education is the core of Wei Shusheng's educational thought" got a lot of help and guidance from him, and later many articles were published one after another. Mr. Sang Jianzhong is sincere and kind. Later, I talked to him about it at a national seminar, and he smiled and said that he couldn't remember. The acquaintance with Mr. Yu Lijun, the editor-in-chief of Composition Review, was even more dramatic, probably in the winter of 1992. When I got up at about six o'clock in the morning, I called Mr. Yu Lijun, who was far away in Jilin, and asked the author's name of a short article I sent. Its seriousness and rigor are admirable. Later, I published several articles in the Composition Review, and Yu, the editor-in-chief, wrote a special article for me. "Nowadays, Composition Review is very famous all over the country. It has the largest readership and author group from primary school to university, and it has become a unique newspaper integrating reading review and writing review. Xiao Ying from China Youth Daily, Zhang Caihong from Composition Monthly, Huang Jiancheng from Learning Chinese, Fu Hongjun from The Road to Success and so on. , as well as the leaders, teachers and colleagues of the language group in my school, care about me in every possible way and encourage me. Because of their concern, I was promoted to a first-class teacher and a senior teacher in 1995 and 1999 respectively, and was rated as "National Excellent Teacher" by the National Language Association and "National New Star of Educational Reform" by the National Language Association. I often say that I am lucky, because I have met many kind people, and I sincerely wish them a safe life. In 2002, when the students who participated in the college entrance examination completed their "spiritual choice", I was also making my choice. Should I continue to stand in front of my three-foot platform, or go to the teaching and research section to engage in my favorite teaching and research career? Is it for the extra bonus of nearly 1,000 yuan per month, or do you play your own specialty to serve more people? " Wealth cannot be a reason for work. " Comrade Zhang Yiqun, then director of the Education Bureau and secretary of the General Party Branch of our school, once told us that I had made a choice, but I knew that my heart would never leave the three-foot platform and my beloved education career at any time. When Hu Shi went to the United States as an ambassador, he wrote a poem with two sentences: "If you are a pawn crossing the river, you must go forward bravely. "I think only by doing this can I be worthy of so many people who have cared about me and will continue to care about me. I once read a fable about an eagle. An adventurous boy retrieved an eagle egg from Ying Chao, and later had a baby eagle among the hatched chicks. At first, it was very satisfied and lived the same life as a chicken, but when it grew up, it had a strange and uneasy feeling inside, until one day, a big eagle soared over a chicken farm, and the baby eagle felt that his wings had a strange new force and had the idea of flying into the sky. It has never flown, but it has the inner strength and nature to fly. It spread its wings and flew to a low mountain top. It flew to the top of a higher mountain with great excitement and finally rushed into the sky. I sometimes feel like that eagle. I often feel uneasy about my shallowness. I am constantly reinventing myself. I am eager to fly, because there is a dream hidden in my heart. Although more than 100 articles have been published in Chinese Teaching in Middle Schools, Chinese Teaching Newsletter, Friends of Chinese Teaching, Chinese Newspaper, Composition Review, China Youth Daily and other newspapers and periodicals in the past six years, in retrospect, I still feel very uneasy. Some articles have obvious examination marks. Although some articles express their own opinions, they are always piecemeal and lack theoretical thickness. In recent years, I have tried to find a way in the research of independent cooperation in Chinese education, but I can't comfort myself when I stumble. The reason why I put some of my articles into a book is to reflect on myself and to put an end to my efforts during this period. Russian writer Turgenev put it well, "Work, work, now is not the time to write a summary". I still have a long way to go in teaching, although I don't know I'm dreaming.