A year ago, I found evidence that he cheated.
That day, my husband was correcting students' papers in front of the computer. Afraid of affecting his work, I cut the fruit and crept up behind him to comfort him, only to find that he was absorbed in reading an email, and I didn't even know it was behind me. I stood behind him for a long time, and the letter I saw clearly stated the deep affection between him and a girl named Chuchu. My body began to tremble involuntarily and my breathing began to accelerate. At this time, my husband reacted and then switched pages with the fastest speed. I laughed coldly. What are you afraid of? I saw everything.
Chuchu is a student of her husband, and she is beautiful. Because she loves her husband, she often calls him for various reasons. Once she rushed home to find him and said that she was discussing a paper. Unexpectedly, they had sex right under my nose. Judging from the letter, they started dating very early, because I was away on business for nearly three months some time ago, so I didn't find it; During the time when I came home, they kept an ambiguous relationship through email.
I think there should be more than an affair between them. I read all their letters at my urging. Every time I read a book, my heart is like being stabbed severely. By the time I finished reading it, it had become riddled with holes.
In order to show my loyalty and determination to make a clean break with Chuchu, my husband deleted all the letters about them in the mailbox in front of me. He said to me seriously, "Wife, please forgive me once. I am possessed by a ghost." Don't worry, you are really the only one in my heart, and I promise I will never contact her again! "
I asked him, "Are you together? How many times? " At this time, the husband began to falter: "this, wife, let's forget it, ok?" Broken glass! My heart was furious, and the last flame to save my feelings was extinguished. I packed some clothes and took my daughter straight to my parents' house-my husband cheated on me. How can I live in my life?
However, a month later, under the persuasion of my family and the pleading of my husband, I finally relented. After all, it is not easy to form a family from falling in love to getting married for more than ten years.
I'm back, but I feel different.
On my first night home, I couldn't sleep. I just looked at my sleeping husband and imagined him in bed with that woman, feeling extremely depressed. I shook my head desperately and told myself not to be paranoid, but my thoughts always revolved around their letters, those disgusting words and deep feelings. I woke my husband up crazily and asked him, "What is so good about that woman that it is worth spending so much energy on her?" My husband is too sleepy to speak. He just said, "There is nothing good about her, but I was possessed by a ghost for a while." "Do you still have connections?" The husband shook his head. "Give me the phone and I'll ask her." At this time, my husband jumped up from the bed and yelled at me: "You're finished. It's all over. Stop it!" He did something wrong and was angry with me. I immediately flew into a rage: "What, are you protecting your little lover now?" Dare to do it, are you afraid that I will settle accounts with her? "My husband sighed, and then told me that after he broke up with Chuchu, she couldn't let go and burned herself with cigarette butts. He didn't answer her phone, she kept texting, but he still ignored it. " Let things fade now, don't complicate them. I swear that I will never give any woman a chance to get close to me again. "
In fact, I understand that my husband really regrets it. Looking at his actions, thinking about his efforts for this family in recent years, thinking about our lovely daughter, I decided to start over with him. However, I found that the days can't go back.
I began to think about another question, that is, does my husband love me or not? If I didn't go on a business trip with him at that time, he was emotionally lonely, so he had an improper relationship with the students, then after I came back, he still kept a relationship with her-her letter was extremely warm, not only urging my husband to smoke less and drink less, but also letting him go to bed early at ordinary times. Did her husband give her his heart long ago?
I found that my husband has also undergone some changes since they broke up. Usually, my husband often reads until late at night, but recently he always goes to bed early and doesn't sleep, staring at the ceiling in a daze. I couldn't help wondering, so I asked him obliquely, "Why did you go to bed so early? Are you worried? " My husband ignored me and continued to meditate. I simply asked him, "What, are you thinking about that girl student again?" My husband turned his head and said coldly, "Here we go again, I won't bother you." Finally, he was upset by my question and simply fled to the study to sleep.
What makes me more suspicious is that my husband started drinking tea. It makes me angry to think that the girl knows a lot about tea, and they also talked about how to taste tea in their letters. Back in those days, after we got married, I often made tea for him to quit smoking. He said his stomach was upset after drinking it. Now he has changed his habits for many years for a female student.
On one occasion, my husband made a cup of Longjing, and when he just asked for it, I sarcastically said, "Isn't it that drinking tea is uncomfortable for my stomach?" Your little lover is really capable. Did she help you with your stomach? Can you drink tea now? "My husband put down his teacup and glanced at me." Why are you so ugly? " I went up and grabbed his teacup and ordered him: "Don't drink tea in the future, do you hear!" The husband couldn't stand it anymore and shouted, "You didn't mean to live! """Yes, how about it!" ……
In the following days, such quarrels were staged almost every day. I can only remind him in this way, making him feel guilty, remorse and pain. Sometimes when watching TV or reading a book, or doing nothing, I can always think of this matter and the contents of those letters, and often imagine them together. At first, my husband would comfort me once or twice because of my tears. Later, he got used to it, and even he couldn't get out of the shadow of it. In short, life has become a mess, noisy every day, everyone is very tired.
I have thought very well, but every time I see him like that, I can't help quarreling with him. I don't know how to deal with the sequelae of this matter. I feel crazy.