I thought two years was enough time for you and me to forget the past. Only when I see myself in the mirror can I know that since I can't forget the beginning of this university, how can I imagine the ending you have already experienced?
Two years later, you will graduate smoothly, and you have passed the ignorance period of youth, but you have not reached the maturity of youth. I know you've lost my intense curiosity about all the unknown times. You are a down-to-earth person and have a stable job in a grandiose world. You are busy and conscientious, and your ideal may be squeezed in the corner of your heart by reality, teetering and shattered. Four years ago, although you didn't think you were excellent, you were unique and humble, walking on the campus of the university and riding proudly on the grassland in your heart. What do you think of yourself now?
Four years later, with a flick of a finger. You must think all this is incredible but extremely real. You suddenly realize that the world of college has nothing to do with you. The outside world is so big that people don't know where to turn. Once we were all goldfish swimming freely in the bathtub, looking for comfort, happiness, satisfaction and existence; Looking for friendship, love and so on. Through vagueness and literature, I am looking for the meaning of my life.
No one does not want to be free. The question is, do you really dare to give you an endless ocean?
Do you feel excited and disappointed when you see this? There is no traceability. The past time is like a rainbow reflecting water waves, and its gorgeous beauty can only be seen in the distance; When you get closer, you find that they are disillusioned and disappear in front of your eyes.
Don't panic, don't be afraid, just say me, I am you, I am your memory, I know what you are thinking, you know what I am looking at, do you remember when I first came to Luoyang on 20 12?
At that time, you were seventeen years old, and you didn't have an accurate timetable for your life, nor did you plan what you would do next minute. But you have many ideals and firmly believe that they will come true in a place called the future. You must not remember the dream at that time, the girls you admired at that time, hehe, you may not even remember their names. Sometimes I am complacent, sometimes I am exhausted, sometimes I am full of confidence, and sometimes I am helpless.
Let me tell you a story. In the legend of China, there is a creature called aphid. Aphids like to inhale colorful miasma best, because they may wear beautiful colorful clothes after inhaling miasma, but miasma is poisonous, so their life span is only one day, they work at sunrise and die at sunset. But among thousands of aphids, there is finally an aphid who is unwilling to accept the fate of only living for one day. It changed its birth habits, refused the beautiful miasma temptation, survived and became a monster on earth. Later, the demon died and I was curious about what it was like to wear a colorful coat. When aging, the moment the sun sets, the aphid returns to its original shape, and it still smokes poisonous miasma resolutely. It is possible that in its 6,000 years, it has been wondering whether those who have only one day to live are more brilliant than it. 6,000 years or a day, which is more meaningful?
I hope you can be a goldfish with a pursuit, or an aphid with a dream, and always cherish those empty ideals. You will no longer face life like me, sometimes anxious and sometimes sighing. You should learn to cherish those days when you have nothing, those days when you have the whole world.
Maybe watching Journey to the West again after work, you will feel that the Monkey King's golden hoop can't reach the sky, he can't explore the sea, there is no the Monkey King, there is no battle to defeat the Buddha, only a lonely little monkey.
If you choose any direction, will you swim to the same fate? What are you looking for?
Today's me