I was born in a small mountain village, and my mother left home when I was twelve. My father doesn't have much time at home. Even when I was too sick to go to the hospital by myself, I just left barely enough money for treatment and then left. When I was seventeen, after he died in a car accident, I cried in a daze because no one would take care of me when I was seriously ill again. In the same year, my mother-in-law who lived with me passed away, and there was really nothing I could do. She took care of me for seventeen years, but when she was buried, she was just a thin coffin. Another family member is an old dog Xiaohua, who guarded the grave for his father and mother-in-law, and later died because I went to high school in the town. X, the first computer teacher like my brother, didn't see my college admission notice, and my grandmother, who took good care of me, died in a hurry before she got confused. Every time I go back to see them, these graves remind me that every minute of life is precious.
People's feelings are hot and cold, and where will you go? Of course, it makes people miserable and helpless, while poverty may make people lose hope. The whole family is human. Doing homework or reading books under kerosene lamps is the happiest thing in the evening. If it rains, the procedure is to sew the bamboo shell with a plug to prevent rain. Before high school, the main sources of income were catching Monopterus albus at night, fishing on weekends, raising pigs and renting buffaloes. In those years, I measured ten kilometers of rice fields and rivers in Fiona Fang with my feet countless times. Being chased by dogs and snakes, he fell into the water in the middle of the night and fled home in the dark because there was water in the battery; It is inevitable that the eel will be sold by his father without paying tuition fees, and then he will buy meat and wine.
The suffering behind people can still be overcome, but the dignity in front of people is extremely fragile. In class, I am often called out of the classroom for an interview by the teacher because I am in arrears with my tuition. It's wet in class on rainy days, and there may be mud behind your ass. Walking barefoot on the hot road in summer. In winter, I wore shabby clothes and shivered through the long corridor to get my exercise book. These may be the last straw to crush the camel. If I hadn't always taken the bonus from the podium after the exam and posted a wall of awards to satisfy my final vanity, I might have given up long ago.
Being in the whirlpool of fate, striving for things that may be ordinary, every turn seems so involuntary. Fortunately, there is still a trace of pity in fate. After entering high school, the school exempted all tuition and miscellaneous fees, and the X family helped solve the living expenses. After entering the university, computer has finally become my lifelong career and hope, and gastric ulcer and gastric bleeding have finally left me.
I am glad that I chose the Institute of Automation when I applied for research. I am also grateful to the teacher in graduate department for transferring me from other departments to the pattern recognition laboratory. I am also grateful to my tutor, Mr. Zong Cheng qin, for choosing me. Teacher Zong introduced me to the door of scientific research. These five years as a doctor are undoubtedly the happiest time in my past. Shamefully, there is obviously a long way to go before Mr. Zong's expectations. I know I could have done better. This experience has become one of the best moments in my life. I like the topic of human-computer interaction machine translation very much, but this is just the beginning. I hope to have a chance to make up for this regret in the future.
It takes two and a half hours from home to the county seat by car, and I have been looking forward to walking out of the mountains. From Juguang Township Primary School, Yin Da Town Middle School, Yilong County Middle School, Mianyang Nanshan Middle School, to Chongqing Southwest University, and then to the Institute of Automation of Chinese Academy of Sciences, I can't remember how many times I felt almost overwhelmed by the pressure of reality. Along the way, the belief is very simple, don't go out after reading books, don't waste this life. Things are unpredictable, and the future will inevitably face a more complicated situation. But because of these little things, I have the courage and patience to face any difficulties and challenges. Ideal is not great. I only hope that I am over half a year old and will be a teenager when I come back. I hope I can get to know the world again and live up to the hardships I have suffered in my life. Finally, if you can do something to make others' lives better, you will make money in your life.
In recent years, I am especially grateful to X for reshaping my life.
Thank you Mr. X and Mr. X for putting forward many constructive opinions and suggestions for my research. In the communication with them, I was also infected by their honest and down-to-earth lifestyle. Thank you to all the teachers and classmates who work with me in the research group: XXXXXXXXX. We study hard together, learn from each other and laugh like brothers and sisters. No matter where you are in the future, I don't think we will forget the time we spent together these years. Thanks to Ms. X, to the research group, to teachers X, X and X in the laboratory of pattern recognition office, and to teachers X, X, X in graduate department for giving me great help in my study and work. This will be the motivation for my future work, and I hope to eventually become a favorite student of the research group.
Thank my parents for giving me life, my mother-in-law and uncle for raising me, X for caring for me, X and X for supporting me, and people and things that made my life better or not so good along the way.