Zhang Haidi is a writer, but writing is very painful. She has a large area of bedsore and exposed bones, but she is still writing. She had several operations, and the operation was very painful. Her nose cancer operation was not anesthetized. She clearly felt the knife cut her nose and the needle went through her skin. The first time she heard that she had cancer, she even felt happy-she was finally free. Zhang Haidi said: My greatest happiness is death. However, she survived.
She writes novels, paints oil paintings, dances ballet, shoots TV, sings, studies for a master's degree ... even, she likes perfume very much and has a full life. Zhu Jun, the host, asked her if it was hard for you to sit like this. She said, yes, it is very hard, but I have been sitting like this for 40 years. As a member of CPPCC, her suggestion is to promote barrier-free facilities in colleges and universities. I am in pain, but I can make others happy. When Zhang Haidi said this, poetry spread from her side.
Twenty years have passed. In retrospect, I was always calm in the face of the media. When you suddenly face so many flashes, laughter and applause, it is most important to adjust yourself. What should I do or what should I do? My heart is always like clear water, so blue and so deep.
And fragile Heidi. You can't imagine the trouble that a disabled woman like me can't do anything when she is dirty. Sometimes I even feel better without me. Sometimes I live in a tall building on business, so I just go and have a look. I often think that if I really fall down like this, everything will be over and I will never have to suffer again. I even want to be euthanized.
In retrospect, I am indeed a very tenacious Heidi. Disability is a great pain for human beings, but it always needs someone to chew. I thank life for giving me a talking pen, so that I can talk and fight. I am not only alive, but also liberated my mind in writing.
Today, sitting in this window, I look at this vast grassland. I hope I can feel the warmth and kindness of the earth step by step with my feet like you, and find the feeling of walking I once had. ...
At the age of 5, Zhang Haidi suffered from spinal hemangioma, which led to high amputation. However, she is physically disabled, determined and hardworking, and is known as the contemporary Paul.
Facing the cruel challenge of fate, Zhang Haidi didn't feel depressed and sink. She fought against the disease with indomitable perseverance, taught herself college English, Japanese, German and Esperanto, and took courses at universities and graduate students. 1On March 7th, 983, the Central Committee of the * * * Youth League held a naming commendation meeting in Beijing, and awarded the title of outstanding * * * member of Comrade Zhang Haidi, who was known as the new Lei Feng in 1980s. From 65438 to 0983, Zhang Haidi began to engage in literary creation, and successively translated The Seaside Clinic, Little Miller's Travels and Rebecca's New School, and created works of more than one million words, such as Windows Open to the Sky and Life and Dreams in Wheelchairs. Now he is a first-class writer in the literary creation room of Shandong Writers Association. 1993 Zhang Haidi passed the examination and thesis defense, and obtained a master's degree in philosophy from Jilin University. 1994 participated in the Far South Games. 1997 was selected as one of the five outstanding disabled people in NHK, Japan. 1998 so far, he is the chairman of China Disabled Persons' Association. Won the title of national model worker in 2000.
Twenty years have passed since we met Zhang Haidi. Few people under the age of 20 remember Zhang Haidi. Modern medicine has continued Zhang Haidi's life, but how bright is the life that has been continued by repeated operations? Twenty years ago, Zhang Haidi was still a warm-blooded young man when he grasped the fate by the throat. Twenty years later, is she still knocking on the door of fate? Let's take a look at Zhang Haidi's inner world. Twenty years ago, Zhang Haidi was very famous. Such a reputation is welcome for an actor and a star. Unfortunately, Zhang Haidi is not. Zhang Haidi has a strong will and a fragile soul.
She is a writer, but she said: I know very well over the years that my reputation outside literature is greater than literary creation itself. I never care about those things, she said. I only care about literary creation itself. How to write the work better ... but everyone can see that she cares. She always feels that her works are not good enough, and books sell well because of fame rather than works, so she has been squeezing herself. But as a disabled person, the society she can contact is really limited, so she has to dig her heart and fantasize desperately. In such oppression and helplessness, Zhang Haidi is suffering more and more. Other people can see the physical pain, and she can tell it, but this kind of inner pain, Zhang Haidi can't tell it, and even if it comes, no one will care. Walking is actually very simple, only three props are needed: an idle mood, a pleasant scenery and a healthy leg. Zhang Haidi has none of these three things, but she can still walk. She has a husband, Wang Zuoliang.
Their walking posture is like this: Wang Zuoliang pushes Zhang Haidi, so they have legs. In order to avoid onlookers, the place for walking is chosen in your own home, which makes you feel idle. As for the pleasant scenery, it is in Zhang Haidi's mouth. Leaning on her husband's back, Zhang Haidi kept describing the scenery she thought of: a tree, a willow, willow leaves are green, a lake, the lake is blue, a telephone pole, a gust of wind, a rainstorm ... The scenery is vivid in Zhang Haidi's description.
In the past 20 years, the couple have been like this, with one back, talking together and taking care of each other. 10 For many years, Wang Zuoliang didn't go out for a haircut, and all the hairstyles were done by Zhang Haidi himself. For 20 years, Zhang Haidi has been living in a simple world of poetry and himself, while Wang Zuoliang is a poet.
Referring to her husband, Heidi said, "He is a very quiet person. Looking back on my 20-year marriage, I feel very gratified. We have made achievements in our respective jobs. We face life calmly and never pay attention to all kinds of guesses. I think time will tell, and I'm surprised. After so many years of marriage, when he went to Canada to study, he was far across the ocean, and our letters would be as real and romantic as then. Have a peaceful wedding
"He is the man in my childhood dream." Zhang Haidi and Wang Zuoliang were introduced by friends, and they have kept in touch ever since. 1982, they got married before they became household names in Zhang Haidi. They didn't have a wedding, and everything was spent in peace.
"At that time, my parents-in-law were in Shanghai, and there were some obstacles, but they were quickly eliminated. My husband came home to explain my situation and asked cautiously,' Is this ok?' They just said: to be mentally prepared, we have to face many difficulties. Later practice proved that my parents-in-law were such good old workers in Shanghai. They trust their son and trust me. "
199 1 year 1 month, Zhang Haidi was diagnosed with basal cell carcinoma, and Wang Zuoliang accompanied Zhang Haidi to Shanghai Zhongshan Hospital for anesthesia-free operation. Before the operation, Zhang Haidi said to Wang Zuoliang affectionately, "If I can survive, I will be very lucky. I hope I can still live with you, but if I die, it's time. I've been holding you back for years. I told my friends that if I die, let them find you a healthy woman better than me. " Wang Zuoliang held Zhang Haidi's hand and his eyes were moist.
Zhang Haidi once asked Wang Zuoliang, "Are you tired of me?" Wang Zuoliang leaned down, kissed Zhang Haidi on the forehead, held her hand and said, "I will never."
"Why?"
"Because you give me new enthusiasm and vitality every day."
Zhang Haidi, who loved painting as a girl, not only wrote, but also created many oil paintings. For Zhang Haidi's oil paintings, Wang Zuoliang became a carpenter again. Zhang Haidi's oil paintings sometimes need to be matched with frames of the same color as the old ship's planks, while Wang Zuoliang uses brown and black shoe polish for coloring, and the effect is excellent. When some oil paintings were exhibited in South Korea, a big businessman took a fancy to them and was willing to pay a high price for them, but Zhang Haidi declined politely because the painting contained Liang Zuo's deep feelings for himself.
* * * Water the flowers of love together.
1998 In the first half of the year, Zhang Haidi and Wang Zuoliang cooperated in translating the American contemporary work modoc-The True Story of the Elephant, and won the 4th National Excellent Foreign Literature Book Award. "When I read about modoc, I cried again and again. I don't think I can translate those sad paragraphs. I feel powerless. So I asked my wife Wang Zuoliang to translate with me. This is our first cooperation in more than ten years. There is only one original document. I translate my chapters every afternoon and he works at night. I gave him those sad chapters. "
Two people in love want to do something for each other every day. Although Zhang Haidi can only move in a wheelchair, she still does some housework as much as possible, such as sweeping the floor and cleaning the table. She also likes cooking, but the kitchen at home is too small for a wheelchair, so she asked Wang Zuoliang to "operate" and cook the dishes she prepared instead of her.
For her husband, Zhang Haidi said affectionately:
"He is a very quiet person. Looking back on my married life for more than 20 years, I feel very gratified. We have made achievements in our respective jobs. We face life calmly and never pay attention to all kinds of guesses. I think time will tell. And I was surprised myself. After so many years of marriage, when he went to Canada to study, our letters would be the same as those of that year. I never believe that a marriage without love can survive. If there is no constantly updated love, the flower of marriage will wither. "
"My husband is a very, very good man. I do something for the society without any obstacles. He will strongly support me. He sent many remittances for me, including sending things. Now many friends have received my books, all from my husband. "
"Of course I am eager to have a child, a girl, very beautiful. I even met her in the early morning sunshine. When I was in great pain, I told my wife that if we had children, we should go to college now. I am really sad to think about this. "
Go to the nursing home together in the future
Let the other person love himself longer and regard himself as a lifelong companion. Zhang Haidi said that this actually requires wisdom and hard work. "A good family life needs creation and innovation, so that life will not be boring."
Zhang Haidi is an intelligent and understanding woman who knows that life needs passion and fun. Her home is always clean, and she tries to add knickknacks. They once adopted a puppy named "Bench". The couple like it very much, and people think it is their child.
On one occasion, Zhang Haidi asked Wang Zuoliang, "We have no children. What should we do when we are old? " Wang Zuoliang put Zhang Haidi's hand in his own and said quietly, "Then, we will go to the nursing home together."
In his later years, Zhang Haidi had a beautiful dream: "I am sitting under a tree. I am wearing a red sweater. I want to wear a bright red sweater. My hair has turned white, and I want to cover my legs with a very beautiful blanket. I have a pomegranate tree on my head and a green lake beside me. "
Zhang Haidi is quite satisfied with his married life. She said, "If I can score, my married life should be at least 890 points." After the 18th National Congress, Zhang Haidi's nationality was questioned, and some people called it German nationality. Zhang Haidi's response to this article: He can clarify his nationality and make the rumor-monger feel ashamed.
In the published blog post, he said: how important it is for a person to think independently, while those who make rumors like to follow suit and have no own thinking and determination. There are also real rumors. Instead of doing more useful things for their country by diligence and hard work, they maliciously fabricate various rumors to confuse people's audio-visual and make impetuous people more uneasy.
At the same time, Zhang Haidi stressed that self-esteem and self-discipline are her constant requirements for herself, and she is even harsh or mean to herself, her comrades around her and her family. "And I think such strict requirements are correct, and this is my choice. I have to do this for my parents' ideal, to be a just person and a person who is beneficial to society. Therefore, I don't care when I am personally hurt, but when my name is associated with my motherland, I will never let her reputation be damaged! "
Zhang Haidi also talked about the media from the incident of his nationality: "The transparency, fairness and truthfulness of information is an important prerequisite for maintaining the order of the information society. It is a serious violation of the relevant laws and regulations of the state if the media that disseminate information allows the dissemination of false information, or even personal attacks, without making necessary clarifications and corrections. In order to win the trust of society and netizens, online media should first abide by professional ethics, not be confused by interests, stick to a just position, and do useful things for society, instead of being the mouthpiece and mouthpiece of rumor disseminators. "
The blog says, why are there always so many rumors? Who is always spreading rumors? Why do they make rumors? Why do such rumors skyrocket overnight like a flood every once in a while? ...... In recent years, as a disabled woman, I have adopted an inclusive attitude in the face of waves of rumors, including malicious attacks on my nationality, including my physical disability. Even in order to reduce people's attention, I stopped blogging and Weibo. However, my tolerance has made rumors more unscrupulous, and more and more people believe in rumors. Some people make rumors bigger and bigger, not only making up rumors about nationality, but even using the pain of a disabled woman to make up rumors, which is really unimaginable in civilized countries! Several years passed, and no one came to stop such rumors, and no one came to protect my reputation. So, I decided to pick up the pen again, and I want to tell you the real life.