Mr. Lu Xun said: "I am not afraid of anything myself. Life is my own business, so it is better to stride towards the road I think I can take. " Even if there are abyss, thorns, canyons and fire pits ahead, I will be responsible for it myself. "Because life is your own, you are fully responsible for it, so you don't hesitate to take yourself as an experiment, dissect yourself, and show it to people together with the body and soul-whether it is noble or distorted.

This scalpel is the sharp and cold pen in his own hand. He used this pen to describe the deformed body and soul under cruel pressure and wanted to use it to point out a way of life for wandering souls. He expressed his wish in Weeds. "Cover the world, can't say that life is boring. The so-called boring machine is the sincerity of life. "

1. Physical redemption

In the epitaph, the body has shown its confusion about its own existence: because people can only use and enjoy the body if they are alive, we know from the reaction of the body that everything in the world should be possessed if it is beneficial, and discarded if it is useless. However, when the body dies, it no longer shows happiness or sadness, pain or agility to everything. Where is the value of the body at this time? In Tomb Raider, the dead obviously don't want to destroy their bodies. It also wants to know the taste of the body, something it has never tasted so far, so it "strives for its own taste". However, when the body is dead, it is different from when it is alive. Therefore, when the dead body asked and threatened, it felt helpless and had to leave, but it also left a sentence: "In hopelessness." The body has fallen into decay and cannot be reborn. Eating is hopeless. To be saved, you need to cherish yourself infinitely. To preserve the body, we can only cherish it-this is the essence of China's thousands of years of funeral history. But in this way, the original taste of the body is unclear: this is the contradiction and doubt about the body.

2. Contradictions and doubts after physical rescue

Once the body is saved, its own contradictions will become more obvious. The trembling of the descending line profoundly shows this contradiction. Young men and women don't realize the hardships of life, and hunger, shame and pain erupt together. The elderly mother once went through all kinds of hardships to raise her daughter, but when her daughter became an adult, she complained to her: "You wronged me all my life!" " "The son-in-law also said," You think you have raised her, but you are actually hurting her. It is better to starve to death as a child! ""Even the youngest daughter played with a withered reed leaf and said loudly like a steel knife, "Kill!" "So the elderly mother began to tremble and spasm. Naturally, Lu Xun, who was holding the pen, was shaking and twitching all over, and he began to doubt the necessity of the previous physical rescue. He found that the saved body-perhaps the body itself is full of endless desires, the desire to grab and the desire to abandon-is not what he used to know. The body is greedy. After it died, it still devoured its own body, but it could not know its original taste. Now that the body is saved, you can eat other people to achieve the purpose of knowing the original taste, so you can deduce the drama of eating people from generation to generation: Yiya steamed her son for Qi Huangong; The Qing soldiers dug out Xu Xilin's heart and blew it up to share. In the last paragraph of Diary of a Madman, Lu Xun appealed to the society that children who didn't eat people might still be saved. However, we can see from this "trembling of the fading line" that we are ready to continue to eat people. Lu Xun began to doubt his health. The image of an elderly mother and body rescuer can only go out in the lonely and helpless night, looking for light from the endless darkness. Naked, like a stone statue, she stood in the wilderness, raised her hands, asked questions to the sky as much as possible, and asked questions in wordless words-the highest realm of human spiritual world asked questions to the great existence that created them-nature. But Lu Xun realized the result of this questioning: it could only be lost in the waves of the barren sea and disappeared in the ups and downs of the waves. Perhaps, as Nietzsche said, "Virtue wakes up more refreshed when sleeping. "When the body covets its original taste for a long time, once it is rescued, it will undoubtedly extend the clutches of greed to all mankind, no matter who this person is. The image of the body rescuer is confusing, and she is a portrayal of Lu Xun's thoughts at that time.

3. Hesitation of soul saving

When the salvation of the body fell into an inexplicable confusion, Lu Xun began to try to explore another form of salvation: the salvation of the soul. However, he showed a helpless hesitation and hesitation about this more ethereal and metaphysical way of saving. He said: "The battle between God and demons is not for the kingdom of heaven, but for the sovereignty of hell. So no matter who wins, hell is still that hell. " The title of Lost Hell implies profound irony. Hell was once a place where the devil questioned the soul. For this reason, the devil prepared a knife mountain, a sword tree and an oil pan, hoping to torture the evil of the soul. But the devil said, "It's all over, it's all over!" Poor ghost lost that beautiful hell! "So, hell is no longer a hell, and everything in hell is wasted. The ghost was bewitched and sent a cry against hell to mankind. They long for human beings to save them. However, when the human emissary gains the sovereignty of hell, the ghost will still be tortured as before, which is the ultimate failure of the soul to help the body. Lu Xun implied two forms of torture in it. First, the physical form of human existence tortured the soul; The other is the torture of the devil's soul. However, Lu Xun immediately noticed the absurdity of these two kinds of torture: hell is still that hell, while dying and being suppressed with an iron fist, which has not changed at all, so that Lu Xun later said: "I often think that' darkness and nothingness' are' real'. "When' darkness and nothingness' become' reality', people, as the main body of life, no longer have some sense of attraction to the soul. Therefore, when people don't know when to sleep, shadow, another reaction form of soul, will bid farewell to the body. However, the shadow hesitated at the same time. The shadow said, "There are things in heaven that I don't want to go." "I might as well sink in the dark.