Text/Luo Mushroom Cool

I have read too many dog blood stories, but I never thought such a thing would happen to me. About my best friend and boyfriend, no, my ex-boyfriend, I should say "you should take good care of yourself and find someone to marry".

The noise in the bar makes me dizzy. I drank the fourth cocktail to drink to my four years of youth. After drinking, I walked into the dance floor and cried, while frantically stepping on the strong music beat and dancing the scattered dances in the dance clubs in those years.

Eiko, who was with me, comforted me and cursed the superior "mistress" girlfriend. I smiled, tears flowed down my eyes like broken beads, into my snow-white shoulder blades and collarbone, and into four years of debauchery and humbleness.

-0 1-

Four years ago, I met Jo Jiang in the dance club of the school club. Jo Jiang is the leader of the dance club. He will take his team members to participate in the large-scale performance of the school. And my "best friend" Xiao Xuan is a member of his team. I had nothing to do with Jo Jiang, so I met her at that party.

On that day, the street dance team led by Jo Jiang won the admiration of fans in the performance. After many breakthroughs, the street dance team successfully reached the top three in the competition. At that time, all the excited members of the street dance team went out to celebrate, and the members clamored to bring their "family" to play, so Xiao Xuan regarded me as the accompanying "family".

I am a quiet girl. I have never been interested in these dinners, but at Xiao Xuan's strong request, I accompanied her to her dinner.

When I stepped into the door of KTV, I met "Jo Jiang", the captain of Xiao Xuan, who never left her mouth. Jo Jiang greeted me warmly, and her calm voice was really fascinating at that moment.

Jo Jiang belongs to the "small fresh" type of male, with a pair of beautiful eyebrows, a tall aquiline nose that looks more three-dimensional under Jumei lighting, and the temptation of a bad smile on her mouth from time to time. No wonder so many girls are fascinated by this type of boy.

That night, Jo Jiang gave people the image of a sunny hip-hop teenager with a white cotton T-shirt, wide pants and black pull-back canvas shoes. I admit that my heart was broken when I first saw him.

That night, I didn't take part in their games much, just sat in the corner and quietly looked at the manuscript I hadn't revised. Xiao Xuan and several other boys kept urging me to drink beer, but I made excuses and refused.

Jiang Chao-bian invited me to join their games with a bottle of beer from time to time, but I never liked playing games and refused him.

-2-

One month after the party, I inexplicably received a friend application from Jo Jiang. After the instinctive reaction, Jo Jiang on the other side of the mobile phone screen sent a sentence, "I heard that you don't have a boyfriend?"

I answered doubtfully, "Hmm".

In less than two seconds, Jo Jiang replied "That's good" with a boastful expression.

Later, Jo Jiang began to show her love to me, sending flowers and gifts from time to time, inviting me to dinner and skipping classes to accompany me to class. On weekends, she asked Xiao Xuan to pull me to practice dancing with them.

While gnawing at the melon seeds in the bag, Eiko said lewdly, "Xiao Wei, a popular boy like Jiaojiang, has taken the initiative to show his love to you, and it is rare to accept him so quickly."

Lying in bed, I smiled and stared at my mobile phone, leafing through photos of life in Jo Jiang's circle of friends, and replied, "Think again".

A month later, under the pursuit of Jo Jiang, I promised to be his girlfriend. That night, I invited Eiko and Xiao Xuan to dinner. Eiko was so excited that she agreed, but Xiao Xuan said she was busy with other things.

Jo Jiang is the leader of the dance club and is busy with training on weekdays. At that time, whenever I was free, I would go to the dance studio and sit and watch him practice dancing. Occasionally, they will pull me over to train together, so almost all the members of the dance club are familiar with me, and they will call me Jiang Jie when they meet.

Just together on New Year's Eve, Jo Jiang dragged me to the crowded and lively square to count down New Year's Eve together. Qiao Jiang, who is eight meters tall, pulled me into his warm coat, bent down and whispered in my ear, "Is it cold, Xiao Wei?" .

The magnetic timbre gradually penetrates into the heart from the ear, which is waxy and sweet, just like those cotton candy that is not greasy. Once touched, it's hard to tear it off.

I broke away from Jo Jiang's coat, looked up at his deep eyes and smiled and replied, "You are not cold at all here, but why did you like me then?"

Jo Jiang's warm eyes seemed to contain endless love, holding my blushing cheeks and pulling me into her arms again. She said enthusiastically, "You wore a plain dress that day, and your flowing hair hung over your shoulders. Obviously it is my favorite type, and it must be good in the future. "

As soon as the words fell, the fireworks on the riverside sounded in an instant, like colorful stars dotted the night sky, like shells and colorful clothes gathered by Hui Yuan, falling into the sky with the wind and disappearing in an instant.

It was my first year with Jo Jiang. I thought we would be as pure and beautiful as the wishes we made that day, but youth will always give you a fatal blow when you love it deeply.

-3-

Jiang Qiao loves dancing and has taken over the dance club session after session. Xiao Xuan is his right-hand man. Our class is the busiest year in junior year. With the rush of study, I reduced the number of times I looked for Jo Jiang. Jo Jiang's focus has shifted to the dance studio, and he looked for me for a whole month.

When everyone was struggling to find internship opportunities, Jo Jiang told me that he planned to set up a street dance practice room outside the school and wanted to start a business through his own interests and abilities.

I said yes.

At that time, he was a senior, and his mind was focused on establishing a hip-hop studio, but the finishing of his graduation thesis was put aside.

Xiao Xuan, who is also a junior, chose to skip classes in her busy studies, and looked for business investment with Jo Jiang to find a suitable place to start a business. For more than a month, Xiao Xuan went out early and returned late. In addition to occasionally skipping classes, she is also busy recruiting people and helping with training.

Interestingly, when I can't find Chao Jiang, I always contact us through Xiao Xuan. During that time, I even doubted my status in Jo Jiang's world.

At that time, he was a senior, and his mind was focused on establishing a hip-hop studio, but the finishing of his graduation thesis was put aside. So I rushed to his place of work and pulled him out to talk.

I remember that the door of the dance studio was locked that day. I waited outside in the cold wind for more than three hours before Jo Jiang appeared.

"Super, can you put aside the dance studio and use snacks for graduation thesis and defense?"

But Jo Jiang said, "Now is the beginning of my career. Let's talk about it when I am busy. "

I yelled at him, "Can you grow up? You want to leave me at school before you graduate from college? "

"Xiao Wei, don't stop me. It' s a big deal to stay in school for one year. " Listening to Jo Jiang's tone, I began to feel in a trance that this boy had been carried away by his career. At this rate, he will never graduate.

That was the first time I quarreled with him. I was so angry that I wanted to drag him to the library. He was not allowed to go to the dance studio outside, but he pushed me away and left me sobbing outside.

The cold wind blew for several hours, and I began to take leave for more than a week with a bad cold.

During my illness, Jiaojiang didn't call me, let alone come and be nice.

Maybe at that time, Jo Jiang and I were just waiting for each other to come and hold your hand and say "I'm sorry" one day, but the other party wouldn't give in at all.

I was desperate for this relationship at that time.

Then one day I took the initiative to go to the dance studio to find Jo Jiang, holding Jo Jiang's hand and saying that I shouldn't be so headstrong before, so we made up.

-4-

Jo Jiang didn't leave her graduation thesis behind and graduated smoothly. At that time, I simply thought that Jo Jiang had listened to me and finished her graduation thesis.

In my senior year, I found an internship unit more than an hour's drive from Jo Jiang, and Jo Jiang and Xiao Xuan devoted themselves to the dance studio.

It's just that I never understood why Xiao Xuan was so keen on running a hip-hop dance studio. I thought she just had a strong sense of professionalism.

The initial dance class has not improved much, which requires a fixed monthly fee and fixed capital investment. The dance studio didn't improve much, making ends meet, and troubles followed, and Jiang became grumpy.

I said, "Chao, you have been running a dance studio for more than a year. Every time I start school, I am busy recruiting new students and looking for customers. There is still no improvement. Give up looking for a job and settle down. "

Jo Jiang heard me say this and stared at me with contempt. "You look down on me. I am so tired not for you, but for our future. "

I looked up at Jo Jiang, who was in her twenties. His face was pale and there was no light in his deep eyes.

What is missing is love for me.

Outside, falling raindrops are dripping in puddles on the side of the road, and the clicking sound is getting stronger and stronger. I looked at the dim moonlight shadow of orange raindrops and stretched out my palm to catch the falling raindrops, but my fingers were too wide.

"For the sake of life? For me? Or for Xiao Xuan? Chao, how long has it been since you came to see me? You seem to spend much more time with Xiao Xuan than I do. "

My wry smile, blame and resentment made me lose my mind, and the irony in my words was like a dagger inserted in my chest and pierced Jo Jiang's heart. Bloody ridicule and jealousy cut off my infatuation with Jo Jiang.

Jiang gawk at me, awkward. He tried to stretch out his hand and pull me into his arms. I stepped back. Probably Jo Jiang didn't want to hug me for a long time, and I almost had a rebellious attitude towards this boy who has been in love for four years.

"Break up, we are not suitable, I am tired." I turned my back on Jo Jiang and threw this sentence out happily. I couldn't hide my excitement.

Jo Jiang stared at me, his face became paler and the blood between his lips and teeth was loose.

"Why?"

I laugh at the evil, my stupidity, my naivety, and Jo Jiang no longer loves me.

"Needless to say, you are interesting by nature and love to make all kinds of friends, but I am very quiet. Over the years, I have never disturbed your nightlife, and I have never opposed what you want to do. I understand now that you and I are not the same kind of people. "

"But weren't we good before?" Jiao Jiang came up to me, held my hand and looked at my eyes stupefied.

"Over the past few years, have you ever asked yourself whether she loves you from the bottom of her bones, who is running around for you, skipping classes for you, writing papers for you, or my verbal girlfriend?"

I wiped the tears from the corner of my eyes and shook off Jo Jiang's hand without tenderness.

Say that finish, I fled in panic. Jiaojiang stood where we kissed for the first time and watched me drift away in fear until I disappeared into the sea of people.

He didn't keep up.

-5-

If I hadn't seen the intimate behavior of Jo Jiang and Xiao Xuan in the dance studio with my own eyes; If I hadn't happened to see the first draft of my graduation thesis for Jiang Qiao on Xiao Xuan's desk; If I hadn't heard Xiao Xuan tell me personally that she and Chao Jiang have been in love for almost five years, maybe I would be stupid enough to think that my best friend and boyfriend would stick together for eight generations.

Eiko once told me not to let boyfriends get along with girlfriends too much. After all, there are some things that we cannot see through. I didn't have too many distractions at that time. I just laughed and said that Jiang Qiao and Xiao Xuan were just partners.

One day, when I hurried to the dance studio to find Chao Jiang, I saw Xiao Xuan looking at Jiang Qiao tenderly, just like I saw Jiang's overtime throb. Their intimate behavior that day, I kept telling myself, just happened inadvertently.

Until later, I saw Xiao Xuan always squatting in the library to look up information besides dancing. The information I saw was the content of Jo Jiang's graduation thesis.

I comforted myself that it was just a coincidence.

I tested Xiao Xuan, and she told me mercilessly, "She loves Qiao Jiang longer and deeper than me."

She said, "A quiet girl like you is not suitable for Qiao Jiang, because you have never done anything for Qiao Jiang."

She said that she ran for the dance studio and racked her brains for her graduation thesis, and she did much more for Chao Jiang than my real girlfriend.

I looked at this delicate face that I had known for seven years, but my eyes blurred the pure appearance when I first saw her.

When she stares at me, there may be jealousy and resentment accumulated for a long time in her pupils.

I don't deserve it?

After that day, all I could think about was, "You don't deserve it."

I just wanted an answer from Jo Jiang, but Jo Jiang didn't stop me when I said goodbye.

At that time, I realized that he was used to the existence of Xiao Xuan and forgot how to love me.

Lost friendship, also lost love. I'm as trusting as a complete fool, and I'm crazy about Joe Jiang.

In Looking for Marriage, the bar was crowded, and I drank the last cocktail to pay tribute to my four years of insanity.

the end