The turbid water in the rough waves can be used to drown my feet.
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If I want to spread the classics I received and describe my dreams, I won't give them, but I will write the truth and I will be frustrated everywhere. After all kinds of experiences, I will burn myself, abandon my loyalty and win fame and fortune in my arms. At this time, I will show my talents. When I am alone, I think deeply, and my heart aches, telling the depression of the times!
The above passage is my self-speculation about Chi Dawei's psychology, which is not accurate, but it is not outrageous. People can't compete with the word "desire" in the end, and scholars are not immune. Literati in China have a vague definition of themselves, trying to hold on to their beliefs, only to be bruised by the floating social wind. Today, with the continuous collision and integration of traditional culture and the reality of the times, how to choose the road for an ideal and simple person has become a major issue for the whole people. We are not Chi Dawei, but who will we become? Will it become not yourself?
The original intention of reading the book "Water of Canglang" for the first time is very contradictory. As far as I am concerned, what Chi Dawei did in the office of the Health Department is correct, relying on a little cultural background and being in a passionate era. He is the most correct choice for a man with lofty ideals, and also the voice urgently needed in this era. I think he should hold his unruly head high and spread his beliefs, just like a Bai Lianhua swaying in the wind in the world. Unexpectedly, the sound was suppressed by the rancid smell so quickly, and even one day there were signs of assimilation. Following Yan Zhen's pen and ink, I felt the warmth and coldness of the people in the book. I'm confused. Is such a talented and ambitious person so unpopular with the times? During those years in the Society of Traditional Chinese Medicine, I was full of sympathy and love for him. I don't want to see him standing proudly alone! I think he should change his life. Where the world is tacky and weak, he always takes a big bite.
But what Chi Dawei wants is not a bite, not a bowl, but a woof!
The change of environment, the burden of family, the resistance of society and the stimulation of people around him all made him compromise. For an intellectual with a medical graduate background, everything has become of no special value, the ideal world has collapsed, and his ideas have been destroyed by interests and confusion. Times have changed, people can't be static, and they can't be immersed in an illusion. Although unwilling, but also have no choice, a so-called literati, the most important thing is to put people and society in mind, not to eat and sleep for them, but now, society and people no longer need him, he can't take care of himself. He needs to banish society from his heart, which means that he has no strength and courage to face up to the truth of life. Chi Dawei can exile them temporarily, but he can't stop, which also laid the foundation for the reform he carried out after he became the director.
? When everything is about to explode, let it explode. "The height is too high, the benchmark is too low, and the taste of being too low is also very uncomfortable." The person who says this sentence will be disgusted, and he will bow his head to the ground. The times have given us enough wisdom to see the truth, so we no longer make up sacred presuppositions for ourselves and pursue the impossible. After experiencing the spiritual torture of phoenix nirvana, he finally gave up the dignity and ideal that he once regarded as life, interacted with people and things that he once despised, and got the water that he dreamed of and could not say the taste. Perhaps only with this king can he return to the original starting point, reverse the painting on the book cover and float up from the bottom of the turbid water, revealing the edges and corners of human nature that he had to polish. Therefore, Chi Dawei, who is unwilling to give up the nature of intellectuals, wants to reform. Although his painstaking reform in this field met with obstacles and ended in failure, it also showed us his conscience and civilian thinking. After reading the fine works, what this book wants to convey to us is not negative energy, not the theory of ideal uselessness, but a necessary topic of how to locate the direction of value. It is not easy to have an ideal and fight for it today when market interests become the vane. The wheels of the country need to be driven by people with ideals and ambitions in Qian Qian. Life forces everyone with irresistible legitimacy, rationality and authenticity. When we dedicate ourselves to life, do we leave a solid foothold for our ideals and ensure that we can stand firm in the torrent of hubbub and wind?