The hero in my heart is a "gentleman". In the author's eyes, Mr. Wang is a strange man. What is strange about him is that he refuses to let others touch him too much, and he is sensitive and alert to the excessive intimacy or curiosity of others. Other aspects are no different from ordinary people. This is very surprising, but also makes the young author-"I" very curious.
Mr. Wang loves his wife very much. She is a trustworthy relative, but she feels that Mr. Wang is hiding something from himself, so that she doesn't know him well enough. Then it caused his wife's paranoia and thought that Mr. Wang was "tired by himself." Mr. Wang goes to the cemetery once a month to mourn his dead friend. I wanted to go with my husband when he went to the grave, but my husband doubted and refused. In the chat with my wife, I got to know more about my husband. Mr. Wang has no job, but he lives a rich life. In my opinion, he is very talented, but he doesn't show ambition in society. I have great respect for him. My husband and I are just good friends, if there is no letter my husband wrote to me before he died.
This letter can be described as an autobiography of Mr. Wang's youth and even a portrayal of his life. This letter can also show Mr. Wang's trust in me, and even show how trustworthy Mr. Wang is (the person who promised to answer his questions).
This letter describes two major setbacks and changes in Mr. Wang's youth: when Mr. Wang was in junior high school, both his parents died of typhoid fever. Before his parents died, he entrusted her husband to his trusted uncle. My uncle took advantage of Mr. Wang's youth and inexperience to defraud Mr. Wang's parents of a large legacy and wanted to marry his daughter. Try to justify your behavior once. This was rejected by Mr. Wang. From then on, uncle and family became inexplicable and indifferent to Mr. Wang, which forced Mr. Wang to make a decision to leave his uncle's house. When he left, Mr. Wang only got a small part of his parents' inheritance. Mr. Wang left his hometown Kyoto with the pain of being cheated by his relatives and the heart of no longer trusting the world, and went to Tokyo to study with high marks. I met my wife and her mother when I rented a house off campus.
The second big change in Mr. Wang's life was after his good friend's accident. This friend is my husband's best friend since childhood. Because he was too opinionated and courageous, he was abandoned by his adoptive parents. Having the same past as my husband, I intend to help him and let him move in with me. They fell in love with the landlord's daughter. A friend confessed in front of her husband and landlord's daughter. Mr. Wang fell in love first, but he never had the courage to say it. Suddenly, he found himself robbed first, and his heart was very lost. Helpless friends are friends, and you can't tear your face. But Mr. Wang bears a grudge. When a friend fell into pain because of the conflict between ideal and love, Mr. Wang took the opportunity to crush this honest and frank friend. Mr. Wang played a little trick, first proposed to the landlady and got the consent. My friend later learned about it, but he still acted as if nothing had happened in front of my husband. Mr. Wang feels guilty and is going to apologize to his friends and explain the reasons. I didn't expect my friend to apologize and commit suicide. Mr. Wang's unspoken explanation and apology became a pain in his heart, which stimulated his conscience and tortured his heart.
Mr. Wang believes that the death of a friend stems from lovelorn love, and lovelorn love is entirely because of himself. Mr. Wang lost a close friend. Mr. Wang didn't trust his uncle before, thinking that everyone would change in front of money, but later he doubted himself. His performance in front of interests made him doubt human nature, and then lost trust in the world. All these made him passive and depressed all his life, and finally ended his life by suicide in confession.
The heart that Teacher Wang wrote to me seems to be a lifelong regret. I am the same age as my husband now. The purpose of my husband's letter is probably to let me learn lessons and do less things that I regret.
If you remember kneeling in front of that man before, you should put your feet on his head this time. In order not to be insulted in the future, I refuse to respect today. I am willing to endure the loneliness today, not more lonely than today and more lonely than the future. Living in a modern age full of self-reliance, independence and self, I'm afraid everyone must taste this loneliness as a price. "
This novel shows us human nature. Throughout the ages, the word "profit" came first, and many people were deceived. Mr. Wang is a kind person, but he is aware of the evil of human heart and has great doubts about human nature. Because of my feelings, I did something I thought I was sorry for my friend, which led to a lifetime of guilt, and finally I paid my conscience debt with my life. It has caused a lot of thinking about life.