To tell the truth, my previous understanding was: let everyone around you, including family, teachers, friends and classmates, feel that you are sincere, trustworthy and helpful. Recently, however, I realized that the most important thing of honesty is not only not to deceive people around you, but also to treat them sincerely. More importantly, instead of deceiving yourself, be honest and frank with your heart. What I used to do was well-intentioned, such as doing my homework carefully, helping my mother with housework, helping my classmates solve problems, listening carefully in class and so on. Now that I think about it, there seems to be something wrong with my motivation. It's that I seem to care too much about what others think of me. I especially want to be a good student in the eyes of teachers, a good boy in the eyes of parents and a good partner in the eyes of classmates. Because of this, I did something that an honest and trustworthy boy should do in their eyes, but it made my conscience uneasy. I remember once, the whole class organized a spring outing to raise money, and the teacher repeatedly stressed that we must do what we can according to our family situation. However, in order to show my sense of collective honor in front of everyone, I promised my monitor to donate 200 yuan money. Actually, my family is not rich. My parents have a mortgage to pay, and they have to support the elderly and me to go to school. Although, in the end, I earned 200 yuan from my mother, but I can still see that my mother is very reluctant. I began to doubt and examine my sincerity for the first time for my impulsive commitment. On another occasion, the teacher assigned a 600-word composition entitled "Being a Man-". I could have written it myself, but I promised several students to go swimming together after school. At that time, I wanted to be honest and not break my word. So, I posted this topic online and borrowed a pen from a netizen to write for me. Sure enough, as I expected, well-meaning netizens wrote me many good articles. However, there is an article "Be Honest" that makes me choose to meditate. Did I do the right thing? Although, I finished my homework; Although, I kept my friend's agreement; Although, I became a good student and partner in their eyes. However, why is my heart so uneasy? Now I finally understand that I lied to myself! In order to achieve his goal and fulfill his vanity and integrity, he broke his promise in his heart. I think I was really wrong. I want to start over.