How much I wanted someone around, I kicked him awake and said, please ask me if I am lonely.
This is really my loneliest moment. When I gritted my teeth and curled myself up into a shrimp, when I squatted in the toilet until my legs were numb, but the pain actually turned into pain, when I tossed and turned like a wifi signal to find a better posture, when I was wrapped in a big quilt in this hot summer day. . .
No matter how much I talk and laugh on weekdays, I can always hurt my spring and grieve for my autumn at this time. What I want most is some pain, and I have to spend it alone after all.
Like, some roads always have to be walked alone.
take for example ...
In the first twenty years of my life, I couldn't help others, but I felt the deepest in what you did.
My deepest panic was in junior high school. An important exam, I was unprepared and stepped into the examination room with a dying heart, only to see one of my primary school classmates sitting in front of me and resurrected. In the process of communication, she showed full confidence. I showed unprecedented humility.
"Can you ... put the paper aside later?" I asked with my head down and my face red.
"Do you remember what you said about me at that time? How did you become such a person now! ? "Yes, when I was in the primary school exam, I also righteously reported her cheating to the teacher.
I can't remember the exam clearly, but I remember the embarrassment, humiliation and helplessness of handing over sovereignty to others.
Later, I also helped others cheat. When you are at a loss, someone pokes you helplessly again and again. "I didn't write any multiple-choice questions. Please show me quickly. " I haven't finished yet. I will be quick. When I took back my sovereignty, I looked at others and my mood turned into sympathy.
At that time, the teacher always said that you cheated for others, but you actually hurt others. You can copy for a while, but not for a lifetime.
Later, I gradually realized that you can't cheat in a real exam. Whether it is an assessment of knowledge or an assessment of people.
In the first half of her life, Tang Jing thought that Luo Zijun was screening online, and He Han could also prepare a resume and give it directly to Luo Zijun, but after all, she couldn't help her go to the interview.
When I find a job after graduation, I can't wait to be with my friends every day. Listen to the demonstration, I will go wherever my friends go, and submit my resume together. Except for the interview, I will go into my dark room. The interview made a big taboo and was not fully prepared. Because they rely too much on their friends when choosing a company to do resumes and submitting resumes, they lack understanding of the company, know little about the types of work, and even don't know the responsibilities of the work. Narrow and blind, it is a portrayal of the whole job search process after graduation.
I didn't take the initiative to seek job opportunities, nor did I choose a tailor-made job for myself according to my personality or advantages. What's more, when faced with a good job opportunity, I missed it because of my ignorance. At that interview, I thought I would just recite a self-introduction, and I never knew how to improve.
I remember when I interviewed Longhu Real Estate, there was an internship experience in my resume, and I was a property consultant of a real estate company. When the interviewer asked me what I had done, I stammered at my previous friend's answer. I almost gave up when the interviewer asked me again. How simple it is! A search on the Internet can make the life of a real estate consultant clear, but I just grabbed my friend's life-saving straw and pestered her with questions, not knowing how to save myself.
This is still a great regret in my life. I have a good background, but I haven't taken the first step in my career. I thought I could always rely on my friends, but I didn't know that constant dependence made me lack thinking ability. I took all my friends' things, and then when I left alone, I found that what I brought was not necessarily yours.
I have a very good friend who was hurt by love for some time. In an ancient town, she hugged me and told me that she was very sad. She showed me her scar and cried and tore the knot for me to see.
I hugged her and cried with her and scolded her, but we all know that this can't help her heal the wound. She also wants to lick the wound alone and try to heal herself in sleepless nights. Like cats and wolves, she is extremely fragile.
The company of relatives and friends can really temporarily paralyze the pain of the wound like an anesthetic. A wound that can be healed with companionship is never a real wound.
I once met a man who made me sick at the first meeting. At that time, I was working part-time in a store, and a customer was chatting with friends in the store. I said a lot, meaning that my sister was lovelorn. I was very sad, and then I sent a hug in a circle of friends. "Many people give me hugs", showing off to friends. My forehead is covered with black lines. It's really unlucky to have a sister like you. Don't say empathy, but also pick up people's sadness as a hot spot.
I don't know if you have ever had such a moment. Being scolded by the leader is very wronged. Have you ever thought about telling your friends, but is it useful except for mouth addiction? Scold was also scolded. Keep working with tears in your eyes and don't forget to cheer yourself up. What can't kill me will only make me stronger and stronger. Think about it in a few years. What is this? Then let go of the pain, and the pain will pass for a while.
The fact is that no matter how painful and sad things are, the scars will heal after a long time, and there may be marks, but it doesn't hurt. However, this slowly healing thing can only be done by yourself.
I always think running is a lonely thing, or a private thing, no matter how many teammates there are.
I used to run on the playground with three or five friends and run a marathon with thousands of people. Teammates can't chat like when they are walking except occasionally cheering. The control of breathing rhythm, the test of physical endurance and the fight against thirst all depend on ourselves.
When I ran a marathon with my friends, one of them was weaker than us. Running a few kilometers with us feels really the limit of her usual life. If you don't want to drag us down, just run first. Later, she ran for a walk and persisted in a three-hour half marathon. She doesn't have a medal, but she is her own hero.
A friend and I cheered each other up and ran forward. When we really can't run, even if the other party pulls us, we still have to climb forward step by step.
I have a way, but I still have to go by myself after all. Others can cheer for you, others can accompany you, others can even help you at a critical moment, but they can't go your way after all. You are going out, but you are going to finish it.
Therefore, don't rely on anyone, face things with the courage and mentality of going it alone. No matter who you lose, you must have the ability to walk, even if someone is with you. After all, change is eternal.