87 shouldn't be like this. As an 87-year-old, you should live between rationality and sensibility, and never get entangled in numerology. I'll tell you one thing, everyone will die. When you die, there is nothing, and you disappear. No matter who feels sorry for you, he or she will forget you. This is the horror of death. Therefore, there is nothing to entangle in life. Live or die. Why bother?