Zhang, the head of Hong Kong Painting and Calligraphy Publishing House, once published The Words of the World-An Analysis of the Truth of Ma Zhongxin and San Mao. A few days ago, Zhang accepted an interview with a reporter and once again talked about all kinds of doubts about Sanmao's suicide theory.
Refuting "world-weariness"
The cause of death in the "Autopsy Application" written by the police in Taiwan Province Province is "world-weariness".
Zhang pointed out that if we say "world-weariness", then San Mao doesn't know how many times he will die. It should be noted that Sanmao was ill from childhood until he left this world. Many of her works were completed with pain, including Rolling Red Dust. Some people may say that Sanmao suspects that he is terminally ill and feels pessimistic and disappointed, and his days are running out. In this extremely depressed, gloomy, depressed and decadent mood, he hanged himself.
But is Sanmao really incurable?
Indeed, Sanmao once suspected that she and her mother had the same disease-endometrial cancer. To this end, she decided to be hospitalized for further examination.
199 1 year 65438+1on the evening of October 2, Sanmao went to the veterans general hospital for hospitalization. The next morning 10, the doctor performed a minor operation on Sanmao. Judging from the operation, Sanmao suffers from a common gynecological disease, not the cancer she suspects.
Zhao Guanzhong, Sanmao's attending doctor, told Sanmao clearly after the operation: After the operation, with drug treatment, the endocrine will gradually improve and the menstrual flow will be normal, and told her not to worry.
The hospital decided to arrange for Sanmao to be discharged on the 5th.
But no one expected that San Mao left this world in the early morning of the 4th.
Then, who can explain how she committed suicide in despair after the hospital ruled out cancer for him?
Refuting the theory of "world of mortals" coercion
Another reason for Sanmao's suicide, which was once a smash hit, was that her play "Rolling Red Dust" didn't win the best screenplay award.
In this regard, Zhang retorted that, in fact, Sanmao had already made the psychological preparation for "Rolling Red Dust" not to win the best screenplay award, and she took it lightly. 1 990165438+1October 2 1 month before the golden horse award, San Mao wrote in a letter to Zhang Leping and his wife in Shanghai:
"I worked so hard to write this movie, and there was a huge news. We participated in the Golden Horse Award 12, the largest film exhibition in Taiwan Province Province and Hongkong. I was nominated for the best original screenplay award, but I don't believe I will win the prize. I look at this matter very lightly. "
Although the election failed, Sanmao did not take the loss of the "Best Original Screenplay" award to heart. A San Mao who has been "wandering" in many countries in the world for decades will not be so narrow-minded!
It is nonsense to say that Sanmao died of the pressure of "rolling the world of mortals".
Refuting the theory of "trapped by love"
Zhang pointed out that although San Mao was disturbed by the whirlpool of love, he was by no means trapped by love.
After Jose's death, Sanmao also contacted several boyfriends, but nothing came of it.
A married man once pursued Sanmao, but Sanmao knew very well that the man's wife loved him very much and he had changed his mind.
San Mao explicitly rejected him. San Mao said: "In my moral concept, even if a married man is kind to me, I will never be tempted."
On an island in North Africa, an excellent Spanish advertiser proposed to Sanmao, and Sanmao also had a good impression on him. However, because of the advertiser's occupation, Sanmao is very worried about being exposed to beautiful models in various postures.
She told him frankly, "If we get married, I can't stand living in fear of losing you all the time."
For love, San Mao is rational and realistic.
Sanmao met a handsome and free-spirited young man on vacation. Sanmao was moved by it, but in the end neither of them left a mailing address.
Still in North Africa, Sanmao met a bank manager. When Sanmao returned to Taiwan Province Province, the manager found Sanmao to talk about his feelings. He asked Sanmao to give him 10 days and go out for a holiday together. San Mao was moved by his true feelings and agreed to his request-but not now, but 10 years later. What a clever three hairs.
Zhang said that in Sanmao's emotional world, wisdom, courage and morality have always been advocated, and Sanmao would never commit suicide because he was trapped by love.
In addition, Zhang also used his own evidence to refute the reasons for Sanmao's suicide, such as emptiness, loneliness, exhaustion and suicide.
There are too many doubts about "Sanmao's suicide theory"
In addition, Zhang also raised many questions about Sanmao's suicide-Sanmao once made it clear in Joy of Life: "I won't commit suicide again."
Sanmao has arranged the schedule of 199 1 to March and April of 199 1, and has repeatedly revealed these experiences to friends and reporters. 199 1, 1 one morning, she wrote to Jia Pingwa and told her that she would visit him in four or five months.
Sanmao has repeatedly explicitly refused to die. San Mao said in Fairy Birds: "A responsible person has no right to die." 1990, San Mao replied to a person with a tendency to be world-weary: "If suicide can solve the problem, there will be no living people in the world. I'm telling you, you're not the only one who wants to commit suicide. Many people want to commit suicide. You have a good life. Don't be too sure that Sanmao is definitely not as immersive as you are. She can live, so can you. She doesn't kill herself, and neither do you; I won't let you go if you have a bad life. "
Witness is the antonym of the conclusion.
Zhang said that the way of death, the tools of death, the appearance of the body and the environment at the scene of death are the important basis for judging his suicide and homicide. The situation in Sanmao's mother's eyes (1arrived at the scene before 8 am on October 4th, and 65438+1on the morning of October 4th 10) was totally different from that in the eyes of the police.
The situation provided by the police is that when the hospital cleaning staff found Sanmao's body, "Sanmao's body was half suspended above the toilet and died." A pair of brown silk stockings, one end of which is put around Sanmao's neck, and the other end is tied to the iron hook for hanging the drip bottle. "When the forensic doctor arrived at the scene," Sanmao in red pajamas with white background had been put on the hospital bed "."Sanmao in red pajamas with white background had deep and obvious stockings hanging marks on her neck, from the front of her neck to her ears. Tongue sticking out, eyes slightly open, blood has sunk into limbs, showing gray-black. "
The situation provided by Sanmao's mother, Ms. Miao, is: "Sanmao is sitting on the covered toilet, praying with his hands folded, his head slightly drooping and his expression serene. The stockings hanging around the neck are loosely hung around the neck like necklaces, and there are no ligature marks on the neck, and there are no signs of struggle when they die. "
Strangely, both the witnesses and Ms. Miao arrived two hours earlier than the police, and the scene provided by the police was so different from Ms. Miao.
In addition, there are several objective reasons for Sanmao's mother not to believe that Sanmao committed suicide:
"First, the drip hanger in the bathroom is only 160 cm from the ground. After hanging, the toes are straight, and it can easily touch the ground. Second, the door of the ward is left unlocked, and you can go in with a push, without any intentional preparation for suicide. Third, the stockings show no signs of pulling, just hanging loosely around their necks. "
Zhang said that it was the conclusion of the police and the media that "murdered" Sanmao, which made most people think that Sanmao died of suicide.
So, who murdered San Mao? The reporter was lucky enough to see the proof of the book and found that although the author refuted the "Sanmao suicide theory", there was no evidence that Sanmao was killed. It seems that Sanmao's death will eventually become an eternal mystery.
A letter from Sanmao's father to Sanmao.
San Mao's father wrote:
When you go to the mainland alone for a month, the first thing you do when you come back is to give me two gifts. You gave me a handful of soil from my father's grave and a bottle of water pumped by our Chen family in the well of the old house in Zhoushan Islands. Be careful, be careful. Perhaps, what you expected was that I cried on the spot as a father, but I didn't. The reason I didn't is that I just didn't. After waiting for a few seconds, you suddenly burst into tears and said, "This is the only thing I can repay you in my life, nothing else."
Say that finish, you turned and gently closed the bathroom door.
Maybe I'm confused about my father. The photos you developed after you came back from the mainland, especially those about your hometown, you interrupted me again and again when I was reading the newspaper, explaining to me that this was an ancestral temple. This is crying at grandpa's grave; This is Dinghai city; Who is this? What does it have to do with me in three generations ... You may want to talk more about your hometown with me, and I didn't ask too many questions, but I followed your words after all. You begged your brothers and sisters at home to see the photos, but they didn't come. You must have a lot of experience to tell, and we try our best to cheer up and listen to you. It is only because our parents are too old to talk at night that you suddenly become silent. It's not enough to bring your 100 photos to your apartment. You stole my hometown and water again.
But seven or eight days ago, you showed me Crown Magazine with some photos of you on it. You pointed to the last painting and said, "Dad, look at my calligraphy in Chinese mainland-this is proof."
However, I forgot that you were not straightforward at that time. You gave me three hints, pointing to the photo and talking about the east and the west. Two big "good" words have emerged between the lines. These two words are the pursuit of your life, but I just don't have time to give you the courage to write them, otherwise you wouldn't have written them like this. Your mother and I are still unconscious.
Three days later, you left a letter and left your parents. You didn't bring anything, including flat shoes for you to walk in. After reading your letter, I showed him the empty room where the man went. It's full of things you love, and you haven't moved anything, including the enlarged photo of your husband at the bedside.
I know there's no turning back this time. Perhaps, your mother thought that your departure was another exercise, and you will go home again in a few days, but I guess you have tasted the bleak taste of becoming an immortal. In other words, you have embarked on this ruthless road step by step, but we have failed to keep up with your pace. You are not old, but you are one step ahead of us in the realm. When the mountain reached the top, the snow became the peak. Pinger, Pinger, why are you so clean?
After you lived with us for three years, you suddenly died. There is no contradiction between the two, but your gradual realization and the practice of your behavior after enlightenment.
You study philosophy, but you are obsessed with literature. The feelings between them are often different, but you have watched a dream of red mansions all your life. Your favorite Dream of Red Mansions is a mixture of China's philosophy of life and literature. Pinger, I think your relationship is broken, but it's not broken yet. Remember what you said to me? You said, "That's good, it's good that you don't want it, and it's not good that you want it from her." You promised your mother that you wouldn't hurt life-not physically, not mentally.
The following is San Mao's personal information:
Name: Chen Ping
Alias: Sanmao
Date of birth:1March 26th, 943
Sacrifice Day:199165438+10/4 October.
Native place: Dinghai, Zhejiang
Region: Taiwan Province Province
Country: China
Occupation: writer and playwright
Formerly known as Chen Ping, he was born in Chongqing, Sichuan.
Young San Mao showed interest in books. He was reading A Dream of Red Mansions when he was five and a half years old. When I was in junior high school, I almost read all the world famous books on the market. I dropped out of school in the second grade and was carefully taught by my parents, laying a solid foundation for ancient poetry and English. Studied under two painters, Gu and Shao. Life in the desert inspired her potential writing talent, and with the encouragement of Mr. Ping Tao Xin, then editor-in-chief of United Daily News, her works began to be collected and published. The first work, The Story of the Sahara, was published in May 1976. 198 1 year, Sanmao decided to end her life in a foreign country 14 and settle in China. In June of the same year, 5438+065438+ 10, United Daily News specially sponsored her to travel to Central and South America for half a year, and when she came back, she wrote "Thousands of Waters in Qian Shan" and made a speech around the island.
After that, Sanmao taught literature and art in the Cultural University, teaching novel creation and prose writing, which was deeply loved by students. 1990 engaged in script writing, and finished her first Chinese script, which is also her last work, Rolling the Red Dust. 199 1 65438+ died in the early morning of1October 4th at the age of 48.