Hu Yinmeng, an actress, praised her as a very spiritual literary creator, a real writer Jia Pingwa, and Liang Yusheng, a writer, praised her as a strange girl who is famous for wandering. She is San Mao. Sanmao is a famous female writer in Taiwan Province Province, who has written a lot on both sides of the Taiwan Strait. It is such an independent woman who tried to end her life three times in her life. What happened? 1943 In the spring, Sanmao was born in the war-torn Chongqing. Sanmao's father Chen Siqing changed from a teacher to a lawyer, and his mother Liao changed from a primary school teacher to a housewife. Although the war in Chongqing is dazzling, the life of Sanmao's family is very stable. It was not until Japan surrendered that Chen Siqing came to Jinling with his family to make a living. As a child, Sanmao was withdrawn and often did things that ordinary children would not do, such as going to the cemetery and watching people kill sheep. All this makes Sanmao incompatible with his peers. 1949, Chen siqing moved to Taiwan Province province, married again and had children. In the first few years of living in Taiwan Province Province, politics was very sensitive. Since then, Sanmao's family lived a poor and cautious life, and this situation was not ended until Chen Si Qing Law Firm improved. When Sanmao was in junior high school, the Chinese teacher assigned a composition about "My Ideal". At that time, San Mao wrote on a piece of paper that he wanted to be a scavenger, because scavengers were more free and could explore the other side of dusty things. The Chinese teacher was very angry when she read Sanmao's composition. She bluntly said that she had no promise and ordered her to write another composition. Similarly, San Mao has problems with his math study. Sanmao's math performance is not ideal. The math teacher often scolds her, and her mother is also worried. Finally, Sanmao improved her math scores by relying on her own learning methods, which surprised her classmates. But Sanmao's math teacher made things difficult for her again and asked Sanmao to make another test paper. Sanmao couldn't do it, and the math teacher humiliated Sanmao in public. Sanmao couldn't bear it anymore and chose to drop out of school. Sanmao dropped out of school for seven years. For seven years, Sanmao shut himself in his room, the window was sealed with an iron fence, and Sanmao's heart was frozen. When Sanmao was 20 years old, his younger brothers and sisters went home to discuss interesting things on campus. She felt uneasy and extremely inferior, so she cut her wrist at home and committed suicide. Fortunately, it was discovered by her family and a tragedy was avoided. San Mao's long suspension from school made Chen Siqing feel headache, and soon she was invited to a tutor, Gu. Gu is a painter. Seeing that Sanmao has no talent for painting, he often gives Sanmao some magazines to read. Over time, Sanmao gradually discovered the pleasure of writing and became addicted to literary creation. Finally found San Mao's literary talent. At this time, Gu suggested that she apply for the College of Literature in Taipei to improve her literary quality. Sanmao successfully entered Huagang College of Literature and met a man named Liang Guangming in campus life. Two people often discuss literature together. After a long time, San Mao became enthusiastic about Liang Guangming. Because of the girl's shyness, she didn't show her thoughts to Liang Guangming immediately. Later, when there was an opportunity, Sanmao summoned up the courage to confess, but Liang Guangming refused. In Liang Guangming's mind, career is far more important than love. He said that marriage is impossible. San Mao was in great pain after hearing this, and fled Taipei to study in Spain. San Mao's initial study abroad life in Spain was not smooth. In the dormitory, the other three people often bullied Sanmao and even planted it on her. When the dean heard about it, he also blamed her. In desperation, San Mao picked up the broom in the corridor and waved it at the three people with the dean. The dean was very angry and ordered Sanmao to apologize in public. Sanmao doesn't want to apologize. Later, the dean took the initiative to find her and make peace with her. The three people in the same dormitory dare not embarrass her any more. In this way, San Mao lived a quiet life of studying abroad. After returning to China, Sanmao was exhausted and didn't want to be entangled in feelings. She chose to marry a German professor. Tragically, Sanmao didn't get married, and the German professor suddenly died in Sanmao's arms a few days before her marriage. San Mao was heartbroken and thought of suicide again. She picked up the knife and crossed her wrist again. Fortunately, she was rescued in the hospital. When Sanmao was desperate, her Spanish friend brought her a letter. The letter said that the time limit of six years had come. Do you still remember me Sanmao was deeply moved to learn that this letter was written by Jose and returned to Spain again. Sanmao and Jose met in Spain, when Jose was a high school student, six years younger than Sanmao. Jose once asked Sanmao to get married, but Sanmao didn't want to. Jose had to take a step back and claimed that they would get married again after six years. After San Mao arrived in Spain, he found Jose and stayed with him. However, it seems that God can always make trouble for Sanmao. 1In the autumn of 979, Sanmao received her parents who had traveled across the ocean and accompanied them to travel to England. Jose could not accompany her because of work. But who would have thought that this is farewell. Jose accidentally disappeared while diving, and the search and rescue personnel searched day and night at sea and brought back Jose's body. Since then, San Mao has been devastated and has repeatedly said that he will commit suicide. This is the third time that Sanmao has said that she will commit suicide. However, under the dissuasion of his family, Sanmao still didn't give up his life. Jose is an unpleasant child. After his death, his parents just went shopping and soon returned to Spain. San Mao finished dealing with Jose's funeral affairs and returned to Jose's home. Jose's parents said at the family gathering that Sanmao had no right to inherit Jose's property and forced her to give up Jose's money. However, Sanmao had already seen through the world of mortals, had no intention to argue, and voluntarily gave up the inheritance. 198 1 year, Sanmao returned to China for development, and exerted his residual heat in his later years. It was not until 199 1 1 that Sanmao was admitted to the hospital because of endometrial hypertrophy. After the operation was completed on the 3rd, his body was found the next morning. Sanmao hanged himself with nylon * * *, ending his own life. Childhood autism, juvenile autism, juvenile courtship rejection, middle-aged widowed, this series of things is unbearable for anyone, but it happened that Sanmao endured it. Perhaps Sanmao has been living in darkness for ten years after returning to China, but her legendary story is admirable. Stopping life at the age of 48 is stupid to others, but for Sanmao, it is her last concession to life. There is nothing in the world that makes her want to stay, so why not end it early to avoid adding pain. Reference: Biography of San Mao