A handsome and gentle head caught my eye, 800 meters apart, incredibly close! "Hello!" Say hello to strangers on wechat for the first time.
I passed your friend verification request, and now we can start chatting. After a while, I received the news. But we didn't talk. I started to have a stranger lying quietly in my WeChat address book, but I didn't feel any intersection.
At first, I didn't know that I would fall in love with you so hopelessly later.
One night two days later, I was lying in bed with nothing to do. Looking through the WeChat address book, I saw a beautiful avatar. "hello! Are you there? " I spoke. Look, what a cliche opening remarks. Look at the information. The address shows Ningbo. "Are you from Ningbo?"
"hello! Well, I am from Ningbo! " I'm a little surprised that you replied to my message in a few seconds. Because I always think that seconds is a virtue.
"So far away, I thought you were on our side!" I'm a little lost for no reason. I come from a small county in Gansu, a small place with inconvenient transportation. I am in the north, and you belong to Jiangnan water town. If you say love, what is better and safer than opening your heart, family, property and marriage? The so-called 800 meters is just an illusion.
"A few days ago, my college classmate got married. He's from you. I went to the wedding, and now I have returned to Ningbo! "
"So that's it. Wenxuan? Is this WeChat nickname your real name? "
"Well, yes, my last name is Han!"
Yes, Han Wenxuan, in the moonlight.
I saw Chen Xiao's undulating breasts.
Smell the peculiar smell of girls.
A very complicated idea rose from my heart: I felt a little excited.
And feel ashamed. . Your name later became my robbery. It is also a sweet existence in my life for a long time.
Just after the end of February, there was a peaceful scene everywhere, and the air was always filled with festive atmosphere. The February atmosphere between you and me began to become subtle. Every night, you talk for a long time and forget the time and the strange and confused eyes of people around you when you smile at your mobile phone. Hit it off, time always flies unconsciously.
You said you like hot pot, cucumber with garlic paste, pickled plum, grape and peanut baby dish, and you like to drink water to dissolve it. You like light blue and white best.
And all this is as amazing as mine. I'm really shocked to hear that.
No one has ever been exactly like everything I like.
Your birthday is in 65438+ 10, so am I, you are Scorpio, so am I.
I don't like sweets, and neither do you.
We all like a series of super spicy things, such as Zhou Heiya.
I joked, "You're not my past life, are you? What hobbies are incredible to me. "
"This is possible. Probably it was changed later, and the others were well preserved. " You made a happy face.
We video and send photos, like lovers, without scruple. You said I was beautiful, beautiful and talented, and I was still single. This is a shame. I said you are handsome, witty, humorous and ambitious, and you are alone, so I will be balanced in my heart.
In February, I watched it for a long time, actually it was the 29th. I solemnly say to you: "I heard that today is a girl's confession day, and I can't refuse."
"Did you tell anyone?"
"Certainly not, because I don't know who to confess to!"
"Then wait until the next February 29th!"
The preset script in my heart is that you say: then tell me first! Then I can tell you all the sweet words and even related poems and songs.
Unfortunately, the plot is divorced from the script.
On March 1, I left home to work in Lanzhou. In our suddenly busy life, the only thing that hasn't changed is endless chatting with you every night. We don't care whether we can get up the next morning or fall asleep at work during the day. It's just that between us, I feel there is always something to talk about.
I joked that I would make a chat schedule that belongs to us in the future. We can take a five-minute break, drink some water and wash our hands for the last time. "This is unexpected, I didn't expect it to be such a result. I just want to prove myself through hard work, and I want to get your good feelings and good feelings. However, since it has caused such a result, it cannot be redeemed. Go to Zongyang Group, and I will give you a job that will make you more confident and give full play to your talents, and the salary will far exceed that in Ailian Company. What do you think? " Between, then continue to chat. After talking, I broke up and fell asleep.
You smiled from ear to ear.
You said that chatting with me feels very happy and comfortable, and you have to hold your mobile phone for half an hour every time you say good night. Why don't we publish the chat records and make some money, so that you can take me on a trip to Bali.
So, every morning, I began to carefully write down our chat record the night before.
Tuesday, March 8, 2065 438+06
"People nearby are actually not close at all, such as you." I'm sad and sorry.
"It was close at first, and then it was far away."
"Later, it became farther and farther."
"Ah ..."
"What's the matter? Haven't you recovered from your cold? Is it uncomfortable? " I know you have a cold and a fever these days, but unfortunately there is nothing I can do. I can't help but start blaming myself when I think about it.
"Well, just thinking a little messy ..."
For an instant, my nose was sour and my tears were like dew! At that moment, I knew I was hopelessly in love with you.
I have never been so seriously worried about someone. I am afraid that you are unhappy, that you are ill and nobody will take care of you, that you are lost and lonely, that you are suddenly polite to me, and that we will forget me if we don't contact you. But I know, in fact, what I am most afraid of is that when you are sick, I can do nothing for you, and even care and greetings are pale and redundant.
I really want to make a phone call, listen to your voice and tell you that you have me. But I don't have your number.
"You should be good." I try to keep the second half of the sentence to myself: otherwise I will be very worried.
"I suddenly found that you are suitable for business, your personality, and your lifestyle. It's easy to gain a sense of identity, and it's easy for others to accept it. Coupled with your unique language charm, you will be very successful. " You suddenly change the subject: "You must take care of yourself, okay."
I panicked, because I have always stubbornly believed that when a person tells you to take good care of yourself, it proves that he is leaving.
You really left, disappeared, disappeared in the network. I waited all night, day and night, and you never showed up on time again. I open WeChat and click on the dialog box, but I can't see the familiar "the other party is typing ...".
20 1 March 610am15am, insomnia, I wrote in my circle of friends: a runny nose and a tear. Only you can see it. If nothing else, I just want you to see, even if you casually say hello to you, I will be elated and satisfied. But you didn't. You startled me, as if you had suddenly disappeared.
Let's go
There are so many things in common, so, do you still love me as much as I love you? Do you care about me as much as I care about you?
20 16 March 1 1, Friday
"You have a runny nose and tears. You won't catch a cold, will you? "
I'm glad you finally showed up.
"No, no, I'm fine! What about you? Is a cold good? " I quickly replied, for fear that you would disappear again.
You disappeared for two days, and my world spent six autumn.
"Well, so neat! It has cooled down recently, and it takes courage to get up in the morning! "
"Cold weather can't stop your pace. You have to meet your future girlfriend, rain or shine, rain or shine, not afraid of cold and heat. " I don't even know what I'm talking about again.
"You're right, then I'll take 99 steps first, and the rest will let my future girlfriend go."
I clapped countless times in my heart across the screen.
Saturday March 6, 2065438
"There are signs of being silly recently. Will it be more stupid when you are in love, and not stupid when you are married? " I send these words to you.
Isn't it because I fell in love with you that I found that girls have zero IQ when they fall in love?
"Love is stupid and has a happy ending. Are you in love? "
"No" Han, you big fool, why don't you even have the courage to say "Yes, I love you"? I have despised myself in my heart countless times, Qian Qian.
"That is the desire, impulse and idea of falling in love. Love becomes silly. When your float passed the bus stop sign of 1, I saw her-the woman who was supposed to be my bride. She is very haggard, at the age of thirty, and her face has left the vicissitudes of years. The beauty that has been replaced by wrinkles, the eyes that have fascinated me deeply, are dim at the moment. At the age of 30, I have made small achievements in my career at the moment. When you are not by my side, I am walking alone in the alley we walked for the first time, and I still seem to feel the temperature of your palm. The wind blows through the leaves and keeps swaying, just like my heart is thinking of you. Is it true that every woman who falls in love with someone like me will be filled with only him? I always prepare an extra pair of chopsticks when I eat every day, so you are always with me. Cctop。 Radiant, thanks to the little girl. Her love aroused my confidence and courage and inspired my fighting spirit. Now I understand how inseparable a person's success is from those who silently support him. I got nothing in return. Only by giving her a stable home and a real birthright can I alleviate my guilt. Say it! "
"So you want to introduce me to someone?" I asked on purpose.
"Don't want to. I want to introduce myself. Such a good girl wants to be selfish. "
I remember one thing you said. You once liked a girl, but you gave it to your buddy because at that time, you thought it was a brave thing.
"If you have a long life, you must find someone from two of a kind, otherwise you would rather be alone." You go on.
"I will definitely find that person." It could be me, right? I am secretly happy to think like this. About two minutes later, not every love is earth-shattering, but it is a realm of marriage. Clock, "are you sleepy? Why don't you talk? " I asked. You always reply to my messages within a few seconds.
He pinched her nose covered with age spots. "Yes, you are the treasure in my hand, no matter when." "No, someone is looking for her. She is in a bad mood, comfort her. "
My heart thumped and I was speechless. After a long time, I didn't say a word. The air is full of vinegar.
"Are you asleep?"
"No."
"Why don't you talk? I thought you were asleep. "
"Don't leave some time for you to comfort others. I won't bother you first! " I pretended that I didn't have any psychological changes.
"You think too much. We are good friends. I am so busy, I must care about what I care about first. "
"You care." I wanted to ask a question mark, but after thinking about it, I came to a full stop. This is a question mark. Maybe you will be embarrassed. You didn't tell me, how can I pursue it?
"The world is full of dust. It is enough to love someone, not to be greedy."
"Weak water is 3,000, just take a ladle to drink." I'll pick up the point you threw.
"We have so much resonance that we may fall in love with you one day."
"Well said!" I was so happy that I danced in bed and my cell phone fell and hit my face.
"How can I put it?"
"I don't know." I am embarrassed to tell you that I have been in love with you for a long time. As I guessed, Xue married a man eight years older than her. This eight-year-old is inevitably a high gap in the eyes of ordinary people, even in the eyes of ordinary conservative people, but in Xue's eyes, age is completely unpredictable. Even when she is eighteen years older than her, she will gladly accept it, as long as she sincerely pays-I know that snow is a key, and a key can sometimes be used for a lifetime. To a great extent, the heart of snow is close to a piece of snowflake, hexagonal. In the north wind, it is not falling, but flying, flying into the empty sky and a sea of Haizi, but not contaminated with dust! .
"If you are by my side, I will really fall in love with you."
I thought it wouldn't be a problem as long as we were in love. Why must I be by your side as the premise? I'm confused.
"If things, too many variables, unreliable. Besides, there are so many people around you ... "I didn't ask you why you can't fall in love with me in the distance first.
"But like you, unique, after all,no."
"Well, everyone is unique, unique."
Thank god, at least you still have me in your heart now. Right?
Sunday, March 20, 2065 438+06
"Are you back?"
"Come back, forever."
"I thought you were waiting for me."
"What do you think is so right. Why did you go today? I didn't care about me all day. " I pouted.
"I went to see the cherry blossoms."
"With whom?" Thousands of "can't be a woman" flew in front of my eyes.
"Human beings. You can't come. Going out and looking sad. "
"What injury. You have me. " I suddenly feel a little distressed.
"You're not around, today is waiting for you under the cherry tree, you didn't come. The person who wants to be with you is you. "
"How to have the heart to let you alone. Wait, I will be a frequent visitor to Jiangnan in the future. "
"Are you going to settle in Jiangnan?"
"I'm crazy if you take me in."
"No, I'm here."
"It's good to have you." My face is happy and my heart is full of joy.
"It would be nice to be with you one day ..."
"I will." You left out the word "together". If we really get together one day, what a wonderful and happy ending it will be. Just thinking about it is very exciting. But, will it? God knows.
"Go to your city and rent the house next door."
"This, you can take it." I am ecstatic, as if you were already by my side.
March 20th16,21,Monday
"I submitted my resume in Beijing and called me there for an interview."
"If you talk about it, will you withdraw it? Leave Ningbo? Going north from now on? "
"Maybe. Take a week off for an interview first. Are you coming or not? I'll take you to Happy Valley. "
"You are so busy that I can't bear to bother you." I don't have the heart to bother you. It was the most reasonable reason I could think of at that time. No, the most reasonable excuse. Going to a strange city and a stranger requires not only courage, but also a certain material foundation. What do I have? Is there love for you? But after all, living in real life, can't eat love.
"Is Beijing near Lanzhou?"
"It's closer. However, why do I feel farther away? " I said, "Actually, I didn't understand what I said." Can only understand.
"You know in your heart that I'm in Ningbo, and I'm leaving suddenly. I'm far away subconsciously because I'm far away."
"How can you understand me so much?" My nose is sour: "Leaving is a word with a sense of distance."
"You see you, don't want to. Drop in on your classmates in Beijing. Will you come? "
"You come."
"Where to?"
"Go where you feel good."
"There is room for you."
"Lanzhou." In fact, what I really want to say is "Come to Lanzhou, Lanzhou has me." However, how can I bear to let such an ambitious you come all the way from a small city to another small city? Beijing is your choice.
Your dream.
"I specially watched the talent recruitment in Lanzhou."
"The result? Watching it go wrong? "
"Mm-hmm." You added a smiling face.
The next night I fell into endless insomnia. Toss and turn, toss and turn, head at sixes and sevens, in a fog. Thoughts are like a broken kite, floating around. I fell asleep at dawn. In the dream, we went to the beautiful Bali together. It's the first time I dreamed of such a vague person so clearly.
I know I can't sleep, but I still sleep, because I always fall asleep, even if there is a struggle, even if it is dawn when I fall asleep. So, even if you know it will be difficult to fall in love, why not try bravely? Isn't infatuation wonderful even if it can't be achieved in the end?
Tuesday, March 22, 2065 438+06
"Did you see the harm caused by toxic vaccine? I feel terrible after reading it. Some China people really can't say anything, just thinking about how to make money. "
"Knowing this, the words have aroused great concern."
"My girlfriend in kindergarten doesn't know what's going on!"
"Fortunately, after my boyfriend returned to Beijing, Li Chenjun's mind and good fortune got along for a few days, and I gradually learned his story: when he was in college, he had a lover, and both of them liked China culture very much. They met and went to China after graduating from college. However, the girl died in a car accident before graduating from college because she was drinking in a bar and hit an oncoming truck while driving home. After graduating from college, he personally came to China to help his girlfriend fulfill her unfinished wish. Xiang had bright tears in his eyes when he talked about his girlfriend. Zhang Xiaohan's smile appeared in the room from time to time. Especially when he meets customers' dirty eyes again, he misses Zhang Xiaohan's kind smile even more. After the "October" holiday, Li Chenjun came to China Southern Airlines Beijing Branch, reported the number plate of Zhang Xiaohan in the name of tracing people, and got the contact number of Zhang Xiaohan. My friend hasn't been born yet, or I'll catch up with the vaccination! "
We laugh together.
"Many people get married as soon as they graduate from college. Are you waiting for me? "
"You found out, I have been waiting for you!"
"We are a little prelude to love!"
"Can there be a follow-up?" I'm nervous.
"It is definitely possible. I work hard, you work hard, and then the plot can continue."
"Uh-huh, we can finally have a result."
"What are your plans for the future?" You suddenly asked.
"There is a dream of being a boss. Any industry can, if it is perfect, it is best to take photos! I always hope that one day I can help others take photos with unique styles. "
"Photography is an industry that burns money."
"So I just think about it first."
"One day, my beloved will become a sunny flower in time, the sun will rise and set in the east, and the flowers will blossom and bear fruit. If you win the prize, you will be sponsored! "
"Good good."
We have a beautiful dream together!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 65438+06
"You are going to Beijing tomorrow, aren't you? Is everything ready to take? "
"Yes, everything is ready."
"The days in the north are always prone to rain recently. Take an umbrella. It's not that hot in the south, so you know ... "
"Uh-huh, with a coat. For a long time, no girl cares about me so much, and my heart is sweet! "
"It's a pity that it's not in sight!" I am full of regrets.
"I'm going to Beijing, waiting for you!"
"No, one day, I will go to a city in the south to find you." I swear.
"Yes, looking forward to ..."
"I suddenly remembered one thing. Earlier, you said that a girl said she would come to see you, which scared you. If QQ is deleted, you dare not answer the phone? "
"Yes. Don't you have a bad memory recently? How can you remember so clearly? Girls are so strange, they can't remember well, only remember things about feelings. "
"No, girls can only remember what people who care very much have said. The most important words said by passers-by A, B and D may be forgotten in a short time. " After saying these words, I am a little shy. Is this a confession?
"I'm flattered that you said that!"
"I want to say that you must be in the ranks of concern."
"Who else?"
"Wrong expression, no lines, no columns, only you!" I will explain quickly.
"That's not what I said at first!"
"This is what I want to say. The result is wrong! " I hum left and right.
"Sweet in my heart, so happy!"
Me too.
"I have to get up early tomorrow to take the bus and have a good rest!" I looked at the time. It is getting late.
"You too, girls can't sleep well at night!"
"I know! Have a nice trip tomorrow. Good night! "
"I'll tell you when I arrive. Good night! "
You arrived in Beijing on the afternoon of March 24th. For the next four days, we didn't contact each other. You disappeared again. I stare at the dialog box with my mobile phone every night. "What are you doing? Are you busy? " "Are you okay in Beijing?" "How was the interview?" "It's raining in Lanzhou. What about you? Remember to bring an umbrella when you go out! " "I miss you!" "Why are you ignoring me these days?" I deleted the message editor, deleted the editor, but I have been afraid to send it out for fear of disturbing you.
I heard that being too clingy will eventually be rejected. So, I chose to wait silently, waiting for an opportunity, an opportunity that I have enough courage to disturb you.
On March 29th, the fifth day of your arrival in Beijing, Lanzhou was a gray day, with wind mixed with dust and bumps everywhere. The weather in early spring is still somewhat inexplicable. After work, I turned up my collar and went straight home. Cooking, eating, washing, playing mobile phone in bed, the same pace of life.
If you are too idle and bored, something will happen. This sentence is absolutely correct.
"Are you there?" "How was the interview?" "Why don't you pay attention to me these days?" I sent you three messages in one breath, nervous and relieved.
"The interview went well and the training has already started. Go back to Ningbo in a few days and hand over the work there. Then I will come to Beijing. After Tomb-Sweeping Day, I will officially work here. "
"Congratulations! It will develop in big cities in the future, not bad! I'm so happy for you! " Tears suddenly popped out of her eyes and wet the screen of her mobile phone.
"Thank you."
Your sudden politeness makes me feel at a loss. I couldn't find a topic at the moment, so I went back to the third issue.
"My dear, I'm sorry. The reality is too cruel, and we are too far away. I don't think there will be any follow-up. I've thought about it for a long time, and I should make it clear. I can't keep you. I hope you can find someone who can accompany you for a lifetime as soon as possible, and I wish you happiness. " The first time you called me dear, it was also a beautiful transnational love. The fairy-tale love drama will eventually return to the triviality of daily necessities. Over the years, Peter has been working as a foreign teacher in an international school in Shanghai. As a teacher, he is a good teacher who can no longer do his duty, but the poor income of being a teacher also gives birth to the "moonlight clan" first. For the last time.
"Why?" "Why did we change when we went to Beijing?" "As long as you like, I can come to you at all costs in the future." "I love you." "I miss you." All the questions, all the secrets, and every love is a kind of growth. It may take a lot of courage to say your blessing bravely. However, hey, I got up the courage to say my blessing. The words were held back. All the ideas were stopped by obscure sentences before they really started.
Those fragmented sweetness
The tacit understanding of those souls is always caught by me, very clear and hazy, as terrible as a dream. It is happy to have it, but in an instant, it is so far away. Everything doesn't matter, leaving only the tears that penetrate the bones, the silent silence, and the sad five words: I wish you happiness, too.
What a hasty ending, no precautions.
Loved? No, I like it.
Once, you came to my city and left your mark on "people nearby".
Later, you lived in my heart and carved an indelible memory in my world.
We have never met, but I have made up my mind to fall in love with you.
We are heart to heart, full of tacit understanding and empathy.
However, we are not together. There is no definite beginning, only a definite end. Some feeling things, such as you forget, please remember, I still remember.
"May I see you?" "Can we talk?" I will still keep asking you these questions in my dreams. Then wake up crying, night after night.
love