M is my neighbor after I moved to the suburbs for a short time three months ago. A little girl works as a waitress in a nearby hotel. She doesn't want to live in the workplace, so she rents a house at her own expense.
M is in a bad mood recently. She told me that she quit her job as a waitress and wanted to take a loan to study beauty and take a technical job. Because several friends are also beauticians, I told M about the industry of beauticians, so as to prepare her psychologically and hope that she can stick to it.
I asked M why he resigned, and M said, "It's hard to be a waiter in a restaurant. I've been bossed around all day. I have no dignity and am as cheap as a dog. Just for the boss's little money, others want tea and bowls. If you have a problem with the guest, you will be scolded by the guest pointing at your nose. The manager also had a problem with me and asked me to apologize. I am not happy. "
I have always felt that I have no dignity in my career. I respect myself and others. If you are unhappy at work, job-hopping is normal. People who work hard in every profession. Many times, outlook on life and mentality are more important than ability, especially in the service industry. That's how I persuaded her.
I happened to go out for a walk on the day we met, and she was going to work, so I went with her to see where she worked. M works in a good natural environment, with flowers, grass, water and trees, exquisite decoration, pavilions and luxurious halls.
Walking and chatting casually that day, I knew that M was a foreigner, and it didn't take long for a person to work in Guangzhou, and his work was not very satisfactory. M feels that the manager is always bullying her and standing for a long time in a day is very tired.
Living in the suburbs of Guangzhou is not stressful, but you can't make money with low wages. We didn't talk much that day because M had to go to work, but with WeChat, neighbors can take care of each other in the future.
M and I left Guangzhou a few days after we met and went out to play. M occasionally chats with me, often expressing envy that I can come out to play, or complaining that the environment where I live is not good, things are moldy and so on. Sometimes when I see her posting photos of herself eating alone in a circle of friends, I will greet her and see how she is doing.
M told me that when she resigned and moved out of the place I rented, she asked me if I had returned to Guangzhou. I haven't returned to Guangzhou yet, and I don't know much about her. I can only remind her that it is most important to find a job and support herself.
One day, she asked me to borrow 50 yuan from WeChat. I haven't worked recently, and I'm so poor. Wechat is only 2 yuan. There's really no way. I have to advise her to borrow it from people around me. It is also convenient to borrow 50 yuan from a colleague. Finally, she borrowed money.
M usually find me on WeChat after 10 in the evening, or in the early morning, she said, "I can't sleep. I don't know why, but I feel particularly painful. I'm afraid of being alone in the middle of the night. That kind of loneliness is terrible. "
Every time I try to comfort her, I take time to chat with her for a while, let her pour out her dissatisfaction and confusion, and try my best to analyze and give her my advice. A person is only lonely, but he will not be lonely. Loneliness is not terrible, what is terrible is the mentality of feeling lonely and terrible.
M came to see me the day she moved, saying that she would move to her boyfriend's house. My boyfriend agreed, but he also lived with a friend. Later, when she said she was going, she kept saying she was busy and couldn't get in touch.
M is in a bad mood and feels as if she has just cried. She said, "I was scared alone in the hotel. I texted him, but he didn't reply. I'm so shameless. I'm too tired to sleep. I am still waiting for him! "
I don't know how to comfort others I can only talk to her and tell her that everyone should rely on themselves, and when they become strong, they will be fearless. Tell her to sleep. M also promised me to wash and sleep. When I was already asleep, she sent me a voice in the middle of the night, saying that she still couldn't sleep and was still waiting for her boyfriend.
The next day, I didn't ask her if her boyfriend had come. She told me that she was in a much better mood and would go home for a day. I went to work without saying much. I think M's circle of friends seems to have gone home, changed his hairstyle and wanted to change his mood.
Later, M told me that an acquaintance introduced a job and left a few days after he started working, mainly because the age gap between colleagues was too big and there was a generation gap. M also has no money to learn beauty. I recommend her to be an apprentice in some beauty salons, and try to eat and live without pay, step by step.
I haven't returned to Guangzhou yet, and I'm not very clear about M's recent situation, but M recently sent me a voice telling me that she has returned to Guangzhou, and now she rents a house alone and can't find a suitable job, mainly thinking about money all day and being crazy about it.
"My boyfriend is not so good to me. I get along with him anyway. After he left, I felt I didn't trust him. I don't trust him. His heart is so uncomfortable! I feel short and ugly with such people, so tired! "
Let me look at myself for a while. It is not easy for a person to live in a strange city, but since he has chosen a distant place, he must share joys and sorrows. When people encounter a little problem, it is easy to make people feel that they will lose everything, often because they think so, and then they really lose more and more.
When the financial ability is not enough for you to do what you want, make money. When you want to do what you want and have no professional ability, you should study. These are easy things to figure out, but many people can't.
Everything has priorities, whether to make a living or find a job first. This kind of thing really depends on yourself. The most important thing is persistence and hard work. Many people fail in persistence.
Every time a woman's gloomy voice comes from her mobile phone in the middle of the night, from the beginning of August to the end of the month, I said so much that I felt that I might just be a tree hole. Some things really can't be changed by others, and some people will keep falling into their own strange circle.
I am willing to listen, because I regard M as my friend and am willing to treat each other sincerely, but we are all adults and we have to take care of our own lives. I once experienced where you would go in my early adulthood. I was emotionally traumatized and in trouble. Thanks to the help of people around me at that time, I am willing to try my best to help others. But my help is not a tool for a person to get out of trouble. I may just be a wild flower on the roadside, growing tenaciously and opening to the extreme, as long as you can feel the vitality. If you can't, there is nothing I can do.
Suddenly I remembered Shakespeare's tragedy Hamlet. "To be or not to be, that's a question." For their own problems, others really have no way. A thousand readers have a thousand Hamlets. I won't say anything to M. I hope she can relax herself one day.
M reminded me of myself for a while. I have been confused, afraid and aware of my own shortcomings. I have no money, no potential and no ability, so my choice is to study hard instead of just doing it.
I want to tell M about my experience, but she has always been in her own circle. Like the little brother in Pleasant Goat and Big Big Wolf, draw a circle to curse you. I hope to draw a circle to bless M. Only those who have experienced hardships know that happiness is hard to come by and will cherish it more. You can't save yourself. Nobody can save you.
There was a time when I liked these eight words very much, "Look up at the starry sky and keep your feet on the ground". When I stepped into the society and faced the turning point of my life, my confusion, fear and depression were intermittently eroded. After graduating from college and entering society, I can't support my life at work. Life is not a dream. I rely on faith to support every inner collapse.
I really envy those people who have known what kind of life they want since childhood and have worked hard and been persistent since childhood. Don't keep looking and changing, just keep doing what you like.
I didn't become a fashion designer like I thought when I was a child, I didn't cut someone's hair, and I didn't become an aunt who cleaned.
Once I wanted to be everyone around me. Life may be day after day, getting married, supporting the family, taking care of each other, educating the children, and then dying.
I never thought I could really stick to school until I graduated from college. I never thought that I would study English translation in college. However, everything happened by accident and seemed to be fate. It is premeditated to choose to give up becoming a translator and try a different career after graduating from college.
The translation level is too low, I am not interested, and I am under great pressure. I'm tired of sticking to it for four years. I found many excuses to give up my major that I worked hard for four years. There is nothing to regret. These efforts will never be in vain.
In the process of learning translation, I have been trying to improve myself and shorten the gap between myself and others. Those efforts that lack time will eventually be rewarded. In order to see the wider world and make myself stronger, I must work hard.
I didn't understand why I had to suffer. I study English and do my homework every day, even in winter and summer vacations. But I insist on learning, repeat learning day after day, forget, and then continue to learn. The days when I worked so hard and studied so hard were my best days.
In fact, people's lives have different shapes, and everyone is different. I work hard, I am serious, I work hard and I am persistent. I think so just because I like it. It doesn't matter to me what M will live. I only talked and shared with her because I wanted to. I don't think I can help her or save her. Meeting is karma, so it is good to get rid of it.
During my college years, I distributed leaflets, worked in the canteen, promoted magazines, worked as a promoter, worked as an internship compiler on the World Wide Web, volunteered at school, planted trees in the mountains, volunteered at the West Expo, went to a nursing home, went to a stray dog base, and worked as a sales assistant in the company. A lot of messy things are just to make me more open and not fall into the pressure of study.
I do things by fate and seldom care about what I do, how much I pay and what I get. Although I don't earn much money, I am very happy. I can support myself step by step and take on my own life.
The work was also scolded by the boss, and the guests were difficult to get along with and dissatisfied with each other, but most of the work was successfully completed. I do everything very seriously, very seriously. I have never failed myself, and I don't think I can fail anyone.
What I learned in college, the problems I thought and the habits I developed have benefited me a lot so far, which is the reward of my four years of hard work! I am glad that I have not lost my ability to learn, and I have developed the habit of autonomous learning, not to cater to others, but to please myself.
After graduating from college, I worked as a handyman in the graduate school for more than a year, and then gave up the stable job in others' eyes, went out to travel and volunteered in youth travel. Now on the road, I plan to learn Chinese as a foreign language and take the postgraduate entrance examination. I want to set my own direction as the research and dissemination of traditional culture and traditional crafts, stand on the shoulders of the ancients and move towards the future. I hope to tap the treasure from the long river of history and guide the future.
After resigning this year, I went to Yunnan, then crossed the Yunnan-Guizhou Plateau to Chengdu, Qinghai, Lhasa, Lanzhou, Xi 'an, Chongqing, and then returned to Yunnan. I took a train across half of China to volunteer in Lushan, and now I am in Jingdezhen. I have to go to many places to prepare. Playing is also learning, learning how to face a strange environment alone, learning how to adapt to the environment alone and exploring the land where you have lived.
I will go to more places and farther places in the future, and then I will return to my hometown-Hainan. Share what I have learned with those who want to go out and see like me, and tell them the customs of this vast land. I will always be concerned about my hometown, which will always be a harbor where I can dock. I hope we can all get better from each other and meet again.
Now that I have grown up, I need to undertake all the trivial things in my life and plan my future, so I learned to plan first. Although the plan can never keep up with the change, it will be smoother to do things in a planned way. As long as we really want to do something, we will definitely do it in the end, and then we must work hard and persist. What we don't want to do is not what we really want to do.
There are two things I dare not do, one is to be a teacher, and the other is to be a doctor. This is the profession I admire most, but I am incompetent, have a personality defect and don't work hard enough, so I am experiencing, looking for and choosing, hoping to become a person I admire one day or make myself happy. What to do and how to live are not so important to me. The most important thing is to make me happy.
I didn't choose my career like this from the beginning. I may not be able to be a family member all my life. I have been a teacher for most of my life. But I didn't give up the courage to look. I know the importance of following my heart. More importantly, I am not afraid of the so-called failure, the time and energy I have spent, and the fact that others think what I have done is useless. I think every road in the past is inevitable and there is nothing to regret.
At the age of 24, I often feel that I have accomplished nothing and there are many things I can't do. No parents can give me an investment of 6,543,800 yuan, and now I plan to go to graduate school and work for myself to earn tuition and living expenses. I have no relatives who are officials, no rich and powerful michel platini, and no boyfriend who can work hard with me.
I support my life alone, and I don't feel dissatisfied. All my efforts will be rewarded. I hope I am strong enough to find my own direction naturally; Have the courage to understand gains and losses and make decisions; Hard enough, not afraid to start studying hard again, strong enough, not afraid to face accusations and doubts.
Everyone will have their own life and what they want to do. Maybe we didn't become scientists or astronauts, but we should find what we want to do and stick to it. We work hard to get closer to our dreams, live the life we want and do what we want.
My state is that it is my dream to live hard. What I do or want to do doesn't matter. I do everything with my heart and do what I want to do. The feeling of working hard on the road makes me feel more secure. Those days when you want to change yourself by others, and those days when you talk about your dreams, will only make you fall into the trap of thinking.
Looking up at the stars, looking for dreams and answers, it is easy to ignore the road ahead. If you are not careful, you will fall off the cliff. People with dreams are invited to return to the vast land and go down to earth. You will realize your dream in the end.