Now that he has graduated for many years, he wants to tell the story of that year.
Oral: Lu Xiao (pseudonym)
Author: No.48
"BDSM is a very sensitive group in China. I didn't see any research value from your project report. " The sunshine in the office just cut the table in two. The tutor sat in the chair, leaned forward, looked for a while, and finally put down the paper in his hand.
Lu Xiao is sitting opposite the tutor. Hearing this, he held his breath, just like a ball with a hole, but he wanted to hold on a little longer, so he stood up and went to the tutor and said, "Teacher, you may not know much about this group, or maybe I didn't know anything about it in the topic selection report." In fact, they are not small. "
Mentor didn't look at Lu Xiao, just raised the volume, "I don't understand, you know? Are you one of them? "
The huge office is not quiet. Some tutors are on the phone, and some tutors are tutoring topics. But at the moment, everyone has lost their voices tacitly. Lu Xiao knew that their attention was attracted.
This is a difficult question to answer. Yes or no will put Lu Xiao in an awkward position. He just kept silent. Of course, he also knows that the tutor actually doesn't care about his answer, and the strong rhetorical question only represents a kind of negation.
The tutor went on to say, "Although our research group mainly studies subcultures, not all junk cultures can be subcultures. As a college student, it doesn't matter if you don't study well. What's important is to keep your feet on the ground and don't try to catch people's eyes all day. Do you think you are paying attention to something that others have never paid attention to? Do you think you can get high marks by replying like this? I tell you, it will only be counterproductive! "
After being scolded intermittently by the tutor for an hour, Lu left the office with his project report in his hand. The deadline for topic selection is very close. After squatting on the roadside downstairs and smoking a cigarette, he has to rush back to the library to rewrite the topic report.
In the library, Lu Xiao drew a few strokes on the USB flash drive to represent his upset.
In fact, he had a hunch that this topic would be rejected, but he didn't understand why the tutor questioned his academic attitude and ability.
For a moment, Lu Xiao wanted to open his mouth to refute. He wanted to answer his tutor, "Yes, I know them very well. I practice BDSM with my girlfriend. We buy related props, get to know related friends and understand their situation, so we want to do relevant research. "
But this idea was only suppressed for a while, just like the flame was extinguished by the sea before it was lit. He clearly knows that the consequences of offending his tutor may make his graduation a problem.
In 20 12, Lu Xiao was admitted to a well-known 985 university in the north. In college, "freedom" and "independence" were utopian impressions instilled in him by high school teachers, but after three years of enrollment, he felt more "utilitarian".
The utilitarian consequence is that the thesis is actually written not for research, but for graduation, which also leads to the fact that the tutor's actual position is not the instructor who teaches his academic methods, but more like the decider who holds the power of life and death. All his efforts in this matter are only to get the approval of a mentor.
But it doesn't seem to be the tutor's fault, let alone the school's fault, because in any other school, you may get the same result. So, Lu Xiao thinks it should be his own fault.
This self-questioning is sharp and painful: "Why does academic research tear me so much?" Is it because I am an undergraduate that I have no right to learn what I am interested in? What if I go to graduate school? What if I get my doctorate? Will things change? Or is there something that should not be studied? "
When thinking about these issues, Lu Xiao often walks into a dead end, but he doesn't have much time to go out for him.
Being in the top universities in China, he bears the investment and expectation of a family for more than ten years, and many outstanding colleagues are pervasive in the competition. He is like an athlete pushed by countless hands. On the track of life and death, no one can but be "utilitarian".
Everything we do in college should be associated with words like "future" and "way out". This is still true for voluntary and elective courses, not to mention graduation thesis. In order to compete and win, any risky behavior should be avoided.
University dormitory where Lu Xiao graduated.
Lu Xiao doesn't understand these truths. When he arrived at the library, Lu Xiao began to search for "topic selection strategy" on the Internet. How to choose a simple graduation project and how to choose a project that your tutor likes and supports has long been compiled into an "effective" criterion.
"In fact, the topic is so simple that you don't have to think. All you need to do is find the papers sent by graduate students brought by the teacher. There must be some future prospects, that is, things that the tutor team wants to study but has not had time to study. As long as you extract a little, you can become your own topic. "
One of Zhihu's answers is this.
The comment added, "This is what you like. If you choose this topic, won't the tutor think that what you want to do is what he has always wanted to do? He will immediately have a feeling of being said to his heart. This is not a like-minded question. It can even be said that Bole met a swift horse, which will definitely make you get twice the result with half the effort on the way to graduation defense. "
Looking, Lu Xiao had a general idea, but at the same time he thought it was absurd. Why is a university called a "university" when people can't learn what they want to learn at will? He felt that he was carved on a ruler and all his actions were quantified. Volunteers who do this activity add one point, climb a little, and fail in that exam, subtract one point and retreat a little. He really doesn't like this feeling.
The Story of Desert City says, "The awake people are miserable, and the ignorant people are happy." Lu Xiao felt that he was half awake and knew something, but there was always nothing he could do.
Tired of reading the raiders, he closed his eyes. He remembered that his girlfriend was still reviewing in the study room next door, so he put on his coat and went downstairs for a change.
When he arrived, his girlfriend was concentrating on learning English and preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. He picked up his girlfriend's cup, which was empty. He went to the nearby water room and filled it with hot water. The lid was screwed so that it would not leak or be screwed, and then it was placed in front of her study desk.
This series of actions is mechanical and insipid, like when people are distracted, they consciously hide that his girlfriend asked him what happened and whether he was hiding something from her. He thought about it, but he still shared with her the fact that he was scolded for choosing a topic.
Girlfriend with exaggerated expression than sign language with him, "you're crazy! Choose such a question! "
Then I pulled Lu Xiao out of the study room and said to him righteously, "Don't say that your tutor doesn't agree. I feel that there is something wrong after listening to it."
"First of all, you stand in the teacher's point of view. If you lead a student to study such a sensitive subject, will he be criticized by his colleagues? Will there be colleagues who don't like him secretly grasping this matter to make an issue of it? This study is very ugly, and I am afraid it will inevitably affect the future of ta. "
Lu Xiao began to feel bloated when he heard this, but his girlfriend didn't mean to stop.
"Tell me more about yourself, what is this research? Does it look good on your resume? What's the point of writing a paper? Isn't it just for graduation? It would be better to try to award another prize, right? Think about it, no matter how good your writing is, will the school dare to award you an' excellent graduation thesis' award? Oh, the undergraduates of xx University were awarded excellent graduation thesis for their in-depth study of BDSM Group, and public opinion is not allowed to speculate. In the end, you are restless, and so is the school. Have you considered all this? "
Seeing Lu Xiao standing there like a log, my girlfriend took a deep breath, changed her tone and began to be as gentle as the moon in the sky. "Lu Xiao, we are not children of prominent families, and we have no wayward capital. Let's choose a topic, do research and reply, shall we? If you win the prize, there will be an extra bonus. When you find a job, you don't have to ask your family for rent money. Isn't this more realistic? "
When it comes to family, Lu Xiao seems to be under pressure, and his voice comes from his throat. "Yes, I just want to share my thoughts with you, not that I want to stick to this topic."
My girlfriend breathed a sigh of relief, opened the cup and took a sip of hot water. Lu Xiao really doesn't want to insist, just wants to find some comfort through his girlfriend. He thinks that his girlfriend is a partner to practice BDSM with him. Of course, he will understand his thoughts, but he forgets that his girlfriend is also a senior, so she is not a runner on the track.
There is never much utopia to talk about on the road to compromise with reality.
Lu Xiao took his girlfriend's hand and put it in his clothes, trying to make her feel a little warm, hoping she wouldn't feel unreliable. He kept whispering to his girlfriend: "Don't worry, my tutor said so. I will definitely change the subject, I will definitely change it. Must change. "
The door of the library is big and heavy. In the following days, Lu Xiao shut himself in for more than a week, decided on the topic, wrote the first draft, and asked his brothers and sisters for advice. After "multi-party investigation and scientific demonstration", Lu Xiao finally chose the subject direction of "Study on the Life of Subculture Groups of the Elderly in Rural Areas". According to his brother, the study in the city is over, and the study in the countryside has always been reserved for undergraduates, because everyone in the countryside is unwilling to go.
Whether this is a joke or the truth is unknown, but Lu Xiao's tutor is very satisfied with it. In an email to Lu Xiao, he commented, "In today's aging population, paying attention to the elderly population is the general trend of the country, and the living conditions and happiness index of the elderly have become an important indicator to measure the health of society. This topic is in line with the core goal of building Socialism with Chinese characteristics. I hope that you will not be afraid of hardship when doing research and go deep into the grassroots line. "
Lu Xiao read these words over and over again, thinking that he finally met the expectations of his girlfriend and teacher. Watching, he finally realized a little happiness from dryness, but at the same time he felt that he had been slapped, and that slap hit the ground heavily. To this day, he can still recall the dull pain.
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