A few days ago, I went to the campus recruitment of Great Wall Motor with my friends. I submitted my resume like those seniors and sisters, and I got nothing.

The first time I really participated in the school recruitment, it was so unsatisfactory. In fact, I guessed the ending from the beginning: when filling out my resume, I found that I had no choice but to know my name and gender. I can't believe I don't have the information to fill out my resume, just to fill it out.

My university-I live a busy life every day. I shuttle between school organizations, I participate in various innovative skills competitions, I go to bed early and get up early, I am self-reliant and independent, and I am comfortable with all kinds of roles. My friends envy my life. They praised me and thought that I had lived the life I wanted. Think about it all the way, as if you are really great.

However, I am so powerful, why can't I even write my resume?

"What did I do when I went to college? It looks full, but in fact I'm very busy. I think I have a wide range of hobbies, but I don't specialize in my skills. " I'm thinking, what's the purpose of joining the college students' art troupe, running for a tutor, and participating in an internship at CCB?

Many times I say I want to be myself, but being myself is not willful. I don't want to do whatever I want. Being yourself requires strength and the strength of a firm goal. I call for being myself every day, but I still accept going with the flow and following the arrangement of the outside world. I keep saying that I am myself, but I don't even know what I really want!

It seems that I stay up late every day, but I just clicked countless praises with my mobile phone; It seems that I have been sitting in the library for a day, but I really just sat for a day; It seems that I bought a lot of books, but all I got was a circle of friends; It seems that I leave the office late every day, but I am lazy at work. It seems that he went to the gym, but he was just chatting up handsome guys and beautiful women.

Are those so-called times really brainstorming, or are they just trying to find them?

The so-called effort, which seems to be full of positive energy, is actually just killing time.

I heard a sentence at the Tucao Conference, "In this era, there are no talents at all. If you are not red, it is because you are talented. "

Holding a blank resume and being rejected by HR, I feel very capable, but I can't even pass the most basic threshold. Although it seems that I have learned everything, in fact I don't know what I really want.

To tell the truth, I have a dream since I was a child-to be a real writer, like reading, literature, the feeling of brushwork, the ink smell from books, and the relaxed and pleasant comfort. With the listening of music and the free flight of the soul, that feeling can't be expressed in words, only in words.

People with dreams are great, but the reality is cruel.

Later, the literature study in the university was not thorough, and it was still muddled, day after day, day after day.

I once said to myself that no matter what happens, I will live up to my heart. Although the future is bleak, at least I am still on the road. I didn't stop. I'm still holding on I'm changing a little bit. Yes, you're right. I am getting stronger and stronger, and I am getting more and more disappointed in others and myself.

Think about my blank resume, and now I am thinking about life. What am I living for?

I am also jealous when I see others studying literature. I want to study with them, dreaming of meeting my bosom friend and understanding my thoughts. ...

Seeing other people participating in the school's club activities, I also participated in the interview with great interest and joined them.

Seeing that my old friend's calligraphy is particularly good, I want to practice calligraphy, but I find myself just thinking about it.

However, all these fantasies were killed in the cradle before they started, and I found myself too lazy to move.

Later, HR at the presentation instantly woke me up-you want to learn everything, but in fact you don't know what you really want.

When a university comes to study in this city, it sometimes feels quite lonely, because no one understands you and no one really cares about you. I didn't feel really lonely until now.

However, I am lucky that June of 20 19 is my graduation season. The best time to plant a tree is ten years ago, followed by now. Fortunately, everything is not irreversible.

Finally, share a line from Stallone in the movie Loki with you who are reading this article: