As time goes by, the time from graduation is getting shorter and shorter. Four years of college passed away quietly. I have gained a lot in these four years, and I will share it with you today.

When I came to college, I was full of fantasy and hope. Because too many people use too much pen and ink to render all kinds of college life. The main characteristics of my imagined university are openness and freedom. When I came to college, I was exhausted and scarred. Because I experienced too much emotional trauma in high school.

Maybe it's my naturally sensitive and depressed personality. I also had an emotional problem in high school. I tried my best to get rid of these emotions, only to become crazier and crazier because of my attention. These bad emotions bother and torment me like shadows. The main manifestations are: sensitive and suspicious, insomnia and poor sleep quality. Once somatization, the main manifestations are: indigestion (difficult to swallow when eating, hungry after eating) and headache.

Originally, I didn't care too much about these symptoms, but because these symptoms seriously affected my two college entrance examinations, I had to pay great attention to them. Moreover, these symptoms have been affecting my learning efficiency, so I always feel that my potential has not been fully exerted. Before the college entrance examination, even though many outsiders said: it's not very important, all roads lead to Rome and so on. But for the students running on this road, no matter how they say they don't care, they can still feel an invisible pressure.

So, when I came to my university, I was very negative, full of negative thoughts, full of depression and anxiety.

When I arrived at the university, my only goal at first was to find a cure for the bad mood during my college days. So I don't care much about studying and other things in college. What I really care about is how to get rid of my bad emotions through effective means, so that my life can be liberated more freely and my potential can be better played instead of being suppressed.

So during my college years, I have been working hard. The goal of my efforts is also very clear, that is, to make myself full, happy and happy. To this end, I began to try to read what most people call "extracurricular books" (in fact, in my eyes, extracurricular books are no different from in-class books); I also spent money to participate in the training of some social training institutions; I also try to participate in various social practice activities.

But all this is not as effective as Mr. Zhou Zheng, whom I know, after listening to his basic course of "Psychology" for half a year. It was Mr. Zhou Zheng's course that made me turn my attention to solving my own problems to psychology.

At first, my understanding of psychology mainly focused on the books of psychoanalysis. At first, psychoanalytic books were extremely easy to accept. Because in the process of diagnosing your problem, he gave you an opportunity to vent the bad emotions accumulated in your subconscious. So after reading the book of psychoanalysis, my mood began to get better slowly. However, the effect of psychoanalysis stops at the level of "venting emotions". Later, with the passage of time, I found that I didn't completely get rid of such bad emotions, although their influence on me has become much lighter than before!

So I'm still exploring the road to complete psychological normalization. Later, by chance, I saw Alice's book Control Your Emotion translated by a psychologist in Taiwan Province Province, the founder of the famous cognitive therapy. I began to know that what really bothered me was not the external objective world, nor the trauma caused by what I had experienced before. The most important thing is that my way of thinking is not good.

Later, through reading, I gradually realized that the external world actually exists objectively, which our consciousness can't control and change, but in my mind, there is always the idea of putting my thoughts above the objective world. However, because the world does not depend on our will, we can easily fall into pessimism and depression. In fact, in the face of such things, what we need to do is to accept their objective existence. In addition, I have gradually discovered that everything in the world around us has various attributes. When we understand them, we can choose the attributes we like and ignore those that will make us feel bad.

When I first read books on cognitive psychology, I was skeptical about their view that "changing the way you talk to yourself will change your mood", but later I applied this view to my life and found that language really has such magical power. Language is the main carrier of our thinking, and our way of thinking will directly determine our emotional response to something or something. I began to slowly succumb to the great power of "language".

In fact, our human understanding can never get rid of our subjective factors. The difference between the psychological quantity of our understanding of things and the physical quantity of things is very huge. And the size of our psychological quantity is determined by our attention. We can't recognize the true face of things, and we will think about what things look like where we are concerned. Therefore, on the psychological level, "attention equals facts." We can choose where or which attribute to pay attention to. So our emotions and moods are also under our control.

By constantly identifying our bad and negative thinking and rebuilding our benign thinking, I found our initiative and autonomy in my emotions.

Although there is still a long way to go on the road of normalization, I am still very satisfied with my exploration during my college years. I have completed my original intention and main goal of going to college: to make myself happy. Compared with these, my other gains are incidental.

What I shared above is actually a part of a word "emotional intelligence" that we often mention in our daily life. My emotional intelligence can be restored to the present situation, and my university is already very satisfied, with no regrets!