Hehe, how long have you been studying Buddhism? And your energy is spent on studying. It is good to encounter more setbacks when you are young. The finest diamond must be cut. You are only 15 years old. How can you feel 5 1 year old? You are so disappointed. Buddhists must first be optimistic, positive and open. Such a melancholy Buddha can't do anything about you, let alone teachers and parents. At your age, you absorb knowledge quickly, but you lack stability and digestion. A lot of knowledge takes a long time to understand before it is called experience. So do what you can, and everything goes with the fate. It is human nature that human or Buddhist knowledge needs to be mastered slowly. Buddhism pays attention to faith rather than superstition, in other words, it respects the law of development of things, sleeps when it is time to sleep, rests when it is time to rest, and adjusts body and mind to accept everything. As for whether the school is decent or not, don't worry too much. Sometimes a place with a good reputation may be more likely to imprison a person's potential. In short, don't force everything.