You will feel like a bird in a nest. You are angry, insecure and afraid of losing the love of your family. In fact, you are scared, but you are the master of this family, you can live your own life, and you can defend your own life.
I can see that you are introverted and a little loveless, and your heart will definitely feel uncomfortable. Your grades plummeted, which made you sad and angry, but you managed to get into Huadong 2 1 1. You work hard. But you are also eager to be understood, cared for and loved by your family. You don't want others to share your love.
Even if we are not admitted to our favorite university, we are a little disappointed, but as long as we cherish our immediate efforts, we can accept ourselves, our disappointment and our school. I'm sorry that you have reached an anxious mood. You can also try to keep a kitten or a favorite animal. Travel if you like. Eat or cook delicious food and do something that makes you happy.
Although you will often think about it, then you will feel uncomfortable and depressed. But you can try to accept this family. You should take care of your emotions, your goals and your body first. This is the real acceptance of yourself, and then slowly accept this family. Try it, maybe you will feel different inside.
Survival of the fittest is not that the environment adapts to us, but that we should adapt to the environment. Since the stepmother has a daughter and took her home, we accepted it. This is also a relative of stepmother. Now we should mainly consider ourselves, improve our ability, create our own life, stop being distracted by family affairs, slowly strive for our own home, and get married and start a family in the future.