We see those poor abandoned people, but they seem to have done something chilling. We can't know how the man who intentionally hurt others in his feelings cried at night.
Emotional things are difficult to make decisions, but this is also its beauty and pain. What I want to tell you in this issue is a lot of emotional entanglements around the great writer Lu Yao.
Lu Yao wrote countless works in his life and achieved great success, but his life was emotionally alienated, with love and affection, and his father and daughter left him. Why did Lu Yao, who finally succeeded, leave this world alone?
First, a purposeful marriage ruined a woman's life.
There are many unhappy marriages in our life. The unhappiness in marriage may stem from a mistake from the beginning. Its origin may not be love, but the helplessness of the times and human nature.
Lu Yao's marriage is obviously like this. At 8: 20 am on June 1992 1 17, Lu Yao left this world in loneliness, but in the year when Lu Yao died of a terminal illness.
His wife came to Yao Lu's hospital bed and signed the divorce agreement without mercy. Faced with such a move, Linda was accused by everyone that she was an ungrateful woman. When she saw that her husband was seriously ill, she wanted to get rid of her burden.
At this time, Linda also showed unusual terminating. After the divorce agreement was approved by Lu Yao, she moved out of the house for the first time and even left her daughter alone, which really made people feel very chilling.
Linda was once reviled by many people, but no one knew how miserable Linda's life was and what she had experienced.
The meeting between Lu Yao and Linda was not romantic at all, even with a little boring utilitarian purpose. Lu Yao was an educated youth in those days.
When he was in the countryside, because he was handsome and knowledgeable, he was naturally loved by many rural local girls, but Lu Yao had a big dream in his heart.
He wanted to finish his studies and stand in a higher position, so he secretly set himself a mate selection standard, and he would not fall in love as long as he had a degree.
Because most local girls have no financial ability, only by marrying an educated youth can they complete their studies and let this girl continue to provide for her to go to college. Indeed, after knowing Linda, as Lu Yao imagined, she sent a large part of her monthly salary to Lu Yao, who was still in college, and saved herself, completely drowning the glory that girls of this age should have.
The original intention of two people getting married is not love, but a marriage that weighs the pros and cons, so the tragedy of two people getting married was buried in the beginning.
It's a pity that Linda's predecessors gave up too many things and paid too much youth for Lu Yao, but Lu Yao took it for granted.
He didn't realize his wife's devotion to himself, and even didn't give her too much care in life, according to Linda's later recollection.
As a writer, Lu Yao has a strange routine, which starts at noon in the morning. So couples rarely meet. Living in two worlds, they have no possibility of communication at all.
In addition, Lu Yao, who is busy with creation and communication, has no time to take care of family affairs. As a woman, she has to undertake most of the heavy work at home, deal with all kinds of secular affairs and bear all kinds of expenses at home.
However, she did not get the slightest understanding and response from her husband. At that time, Lu Yao's manuscript fee was not much. 1983, his salary is only 58 yuan, and the fee for writing is not as good as we thought. The payment for a life is only 1300 yuan.
However, he is an extremely proud person and pays great attention to the quality of life. It costs three yuan to smoke a pack of cigarettes and two packs of cigarettes a day. Such economic pressure is naturally unnecessary for Linda.
Day after day, year after year, Linda can't stand the endless torture in this plain life. She asked Lu Yao for a divorce, but Lu Yao always refused his request.
His face and a man's dignity did not allow his wife to make such a request, and the two fell into a cold war. Linda's divorce agreement was finally signed by Lu Yao in her hospital bed in the 1980s and 1990s.
At this time, she was like a bird that escaped from the cage, suddenly freed, and finally ended the bleak days of these decades.
Therefore, when everyone denounced Linda, Wang Tianle, Lu Yao's younger brother, once stood up and made a statement for his sister-in-law in Suffering is His Forever Companion. He wrote.
1at the beginning of 992, sister-in-law Linda formally filed a divorce agreement with Lu Yao. I have nothing to say about this, and I understand Linda very well. I don't know how many times she filed for divorce. As a woman, it is not easy to be a writer's wife.
Women in the world don't want a writer as a husband even if they find a farmer. A writer may give her life, but as a writer's wife, she also has to endure all kinds of mental disasters that ordinary women can't stand. I don't hate Linda or Lu Yao at this point.
It can be seen that the relationship between Lu Yao and Linda is weak. There is no absolute right or wrong in this marriage, no absolute winner and no absolute loser. Meeting the wrong person is the beginning of a painful life.
Second, he supported his brother on the way to writing, but turned against him in the hospital bed.
The relationship between Wang Tianle and Lu Yao is more complicated. Two people used to be brothers whose blood is thicker than water. Wang Tianle is like Lu Yao's agent.
From the year my brother was engaged in writing, he seriously supported his career, borrowed money from him everywhere, made him run around and negotiated with the publishing house for him, but later the relationship between the two brothers broke down.
Lu Yao once cherished his younger brother, and his masterpiece "Morning Begins at Noon" was dedicated to my younger brother Wang Tianle with the title of this book.
However, after Lu Yao was hospitalized, the sensitive Lu Yao found some invisible changes in his younger brother. He always hoped that his younger brother could take care of him more and talk with him more.
But because he had liver disease, Wang Tianle was afraid of being infected, so he refused to come to bed.
And every time I talk to Lu Yao, I have to wash my hands at the first time. These details hurt Lu Yao's heart and aroused his dissatisfaction with his younger brother.
After Lu Yao won the Mao Dun Literature Prize, Wang Tianle lent him money to raise the travelling expenses. But after receiving the prize, he found himself burdened with a lot of unwarranted debts and could not borrow that much money at all.
In other words, my brother borrowed a lot of debts in his name, thinking about the past, two people turned against each other in the hospital bed until Lu Yao died, and he never came to see his brother again.
Third, owing a lot of little girls has become the fetters of Lu Yao's life.
Speaking of Linda, Lu Yao actually knows that he owes her, but Lu Yao is not a person who has no feelings in this world.
If he loves anyone most in this world, it must be her own daughter. She was terminally ill, and he knew that no one was looking after her, so he found her a nanny.
When Lu Yuan came to visit himself, he also insisted on refusing Lu Yuan's appearance because he wanted to leave the best image in his daughter's heart.
In the last days, what Lu Yao said most was that he came to this world far away from165438+1October 9. Even a heartless man always has the gentlest place in his heart, which is reserved for his little daughter.
Lu Yuan always thought that his father's illness would be cured soon. She knew that 65438+February 2nd was his birthday, and she also prepared a delicate little gift for him, hoping that his father would like it.
However, I didn't expect her father to leave her forever in June 165438+ 10/7. On the day of her father's death, she lifted the coffin with tears and insisted on putting the gifts carefully prepared for her father, and Luyuan became her only concern and fetter before her death.
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Everyone has his own multifaceted nature, and it is difficult for us to judge perceptual things with a rational judgment.
For example, Lu Yao may be bad for his wife. By modern standards, he is an out-and-out irresponsible person, but is it wrong for him to pursue his dreams?
Is it wrong to bring more thought-provoking works and awaken more people in China? At the same time, it is difficult to judge the relationship between him and his brother and daughter with a right or wrong sentence.
Seeing the end of Lu Yao's alienation from others, we also have to sigh that everyone will have regrets in the process of growing up, but many of them are involuntarily. This may be the imperfection of life and the most magical place.