On holidays (except Singles' Day), I feel that I have nowhere to go, especially Valentine's Day and Tanabata. My roommates have all gone out for the holidays, and my mobile phone is full of all kinds of show love. I don't think I should exist on this earth. Then a person silently plays games at home, watches TV, is in a daze, does homework and sleeps. The holiday will be over.
Because I am often alone, I hardly dig interesting and delicious food, and I don't want to go out for more activities or attend those parties. It's nice to feel alone. So, in the long run, I became a boring person.
It is often difficult to sleep at night, and physical and mental hunger reaches its peak at night. But a person can only endure silently, listen to sad love songs and fall asleep with tears in his eyes.
Slowly, I found that I was numb and had no feeling. I can't fall in love with someone easily again. I'm very picky about taking others. Although I am not good, I am not interested. It's a pity that my relationship never really started.
Every time I get together with my friends, I will hear them talking about their other half. I couldn't get in a word, but I didn't have the heart to interrupt their topic.
On the surface, you can only nod and listen. I can't say anything myself. I pray very much in my heart to end this boring topic quickly.
Sometimes, I go to the movies alone, and no one eats the same bucket of popcorn and drinks the same coke as me. No one discussed the plot with me, so I just fell asleep watching it! When I woke up again, I was surrounded by lovers. I feel abandoned by the world, but I am sad to see others so happy.
The advantage of being single may be that I have more time and freedom. I can focus more on my hobbies and play games by myself, and I don't have to worry about another person looking for me. Don't worry about personal development. There is no need to consider whether there is free time. Sometimes I envy the sweetness of two people, and sometimes I am glad that one person is free.