He is my deskmate in senior three, Sun Lu.
At the beginning of school, we lived in the dormitory arranged by the school, with six people. But I couldn't stand the depressing environment and the darkness of not seeing the sun all the year round, so I took him out privately. We found a new room and started our two-person world.
He was reluctant at first, but I conquered him cruelly.
In the eyes of classmates, he is the kind of person who is more fucked up. I didn't know him very well before I sat at the same table with him. After getting to know him well, I can't help but say, this kid is a fucking asshole.
Once I asked him, what kind of girl do you like?
He replied, it's none of your business.
It doesn't matter if I go back. I just want to ask you what's on your mind.
He's angry, you fucking idiot!
I was angry, too. I'm the only one!
He sneered, yes, you are not only unique, but also no three no four.
I was speechless at once.
I just didn't expect such a fucking person to find a girlfriend.
His girlfriend is the math class representative of Grade Three in our class, nicknamed Liu Xiaoxia. Her grades are good, her skin is slightly white and her figure is slightly fat. Others say that her hair is very good.
At first, we were surprised at their relationship.
Although Sun Luren is an asshole, his academic performance is still good, especially good at mathematics.
At that time, they sat together to discuss problems all day, but when they couldn't help it, they laughed more happily and didn't care about other people's strange eyes at all.
When we began to doubt their relationship, Sun Lu casually said, I won't get along with her.
I can't believe I believed it.
Fuck you!
On the day they formally established their relationship, they also bought a big bag of mountain lollipops and gave each of us one.
Since then, the two have been glued together all day, inseparable, as if to announce to the world that we are in love.
A classmate who knows me well found a situation that had never happened before. He whispered to me, "I found that Sun Lu now buys a pack of chewing gum every night after school."
It turns out that fucking people will become normal in the face of love!
I finally believe that love is really powerful.
We didn't think highly of them at that time. At that time, the third year of high school was over half, and daily life was tense and busy. Falling in love is the most taboo at this time.
We predict that the two will definitely score after the college entrance examination.
This is a universal law. Before the college entrance examination, it was the confession season, and after the college entrance examination, it became the breakup season.
Before the college entrance examination, I thought that there would be no time without confession. After the college entrance examination, I thought that we should not delay each other.
Most confessions end in failure, and most breakups are successful.
I didn't know love at that time. When I see the intimacy between them, I just feel that, like family love, the truth will be more pure. Every moment, appreciate each other, every day, snuggle up to each other and enjoy * * *.
Our previous prediction didn't work. They didn't break up after the college entrance examination.
But accompanied me to the fourth year of high school.
Many things, the more we want to make it look like what we think, the less we can do it. Imagine a rainbow after rain and a meteor at night. But when we look up and wait for beautiful fantasies, we will find that they will not easily become a reality.
The feelings of the two people seem to be closer. At the beginning of senior four, unknown students saw them stick together all day and expressed their feelings. The relationship between the two brothers and sisters is really good.
I almost fainted from laughing.
In fact, you can't blame others, mainly because the appellation between them is too easy to misunderstand. Liu Xiaoxia always calls Sun Lu "brother", while Sun Lu calls her "Xiao Ni 'er". But when two people quarrel, Sun Lu will also look at the figure of Liu Xiaoxia leaving angrily and shout, that woman.
Liu Xiaoxia's opening remarks were Brother, Brother, Brother, and my heart fell over.
Later, a movie "You at the Same Table" was released, in which the heroine said to her boyfriend that in the future, if you are my boyfriend, I will call you brother.
At that time, I thought, I must have heard such a name somewhere, so familiar.
When two people quarrel, it is still very frequent. Sometimes, just because of a sentence or an action, two people begin to quarrel.
I went out with them several times, but I never came back smoothly. They always get into trouble because of a little thing. As a result, Liu Xiaoxia angrily quickened his pace and left Sun Lu and me behind. Sun Lu was very calm about it, but they caught me in the middle and made me feel at a loss.
For the first time, I understand.
The second time, I was confused.
The third time, I silently told myself that I would never go out with you two again.
After the quarrel, the two will soon be reconciled and close. How could this happen!
The place where we live is the facade house built by the school, with three floors, the first floor facing outwards, all of which are rented out, and the second and third floors are student dormitories. At that time, we lived on the third floor.
There are only two of us living in the dormitory, but many times it is three people during the day and two people at night. I didn't expect Liu Xiaoxia to come into our dormitory.
At first, she just stood downstairs, waiting for Sun Lu to go down and look for her. Slowly, she began to go upstairs and stood at the door of the dormitory waiting for the sun to show up. Finally, she simply entered the dormitory.
The time from the beginning to the end was short, but it took me a long time to get used to it.
When Liu Xiaoxia finally put down all his shyness and walked into the boys' dormitory, many boys were surprised. The way they look at Liu Xiaoxia is full of surprise, curiosity and evil.
After a long time, slowly, first the boys on our floor got used to her arrival, and then the boys in the whole building said they got used to it, including the doorman.
It was still very hot at that time. Boys go back to the dormitory, go downstairs with bare arms, wash their hair, clothes and underwear. Liu Xiaoxia initially showed a girl's proper expression, blushing and afraid to look them in the eye. But soon she was no longer ashamed to see these phenomena. When she was washing clothes for Sun Lu by the pool, she saw these, and she was very mature and didn't deliberately avoid or turn her eyes.
Right outside. The point is, she went to our dormitory.
Every time she is in our dormitory, she always makes me feel very uncomfortable. She stood there, and I didn't even dare to take out my underwear to wash. Later, I found that Sun Lu didn't care. He took out his red underwear and put it on in front of Liu Xiaoxia. Seeing this situation, my heart is bent. Anyway, at least my underwear is not red.
During lunch break, she and Sun Lu often lie in the same bed, so do I, and our beds are side by side.
I wasn't used to it at first, but then she came more often, and I suddenly felt that the picture was quite harmonious.
I sometimes think that they might do more without me.
I was right.
One day I had something to do at noon and came back from outside for a long time. When I went back to the dormitory and saw the door unlocked, I knew it was them. I tried to push the door, but I couldn't. I knocked on the door with my hand, and Sun Lu's voice came from inside. "Who is it?" .
I said, "It's me."
He shouted, "Wait a minute!"
I just stood outside the door and waited. After a long time, the door still didn't open, so I knocked again.
The voice inside is more urgent. "Wait a little longer!"
I stood there obediently, afraid to move again.
After a while, the door finally opened and Liu Xiaoxia sat on the bed. Seeing me, he quickly explained to me, "Blind Bao, don't think about it, we didn't do anything! Nothing! "
In order to dispel her concerns, I said simply, "You are both married, what are you afraid of!" "
Later, I thought, I should go straight back to class.
Although they really didn't do anything.
At the beginning of school, when we sat together and had nothing to do, we nicknamed each other "blind bags", which translated into English as "blind dumplings".
At first I shouted at each other, but somehow, shouting became my nickname. After their propaganda, other students finally began to call me that, and this nickname has become synonymous with my senior three.
I am the blind man!
We lived like this day after day and finally waited until it was over.
The college entrance examination is coming soon.
A few days before the college entrance examination, we sat together and nervously reviewed those knowledge points that we thought were unfamiliar. I really want to ask them a question. What will happen if there is a gap in grades? But I didn't say it after all. I think time will give me the answer.
Those two days of college entrance examination are our most relaxed days. After an exam, I tore up the information related to this time and threw it into the sky smartly to prove my determination to the whole world.
Two days passed quickly.
The day after the college entrance examination, Liu Xiaoxia and Sun Lu got on the bus to work in other places before they could consider their grades. They went to the same place.
I'm waiting for the day when my grades come out at home.
On the day when the college entrance examination results came out, Liu Xiaoxia called me and asked me about my situation, so I learned their results. As I was worried, there is still a gap in their achievements, but fortunately, they did not live up to their efforts this year.
I don't know what they will decide, but I don't think they will be in the same school.
Love doesn't mean giving up everything, because two people together want everything.
Finally, one of them applied for a university in X city, and the other applied for a university in C city, all of which entered the long-awaited university life as they wished.
They also started a so-called long-distance love trip.
Many lovers can't stand long-distance love, and it's not easy to endure loneliness for each other in two cities far apart. In the end, one party always proposes to break up first, and then the other party accepts it gladly. There is helplessness, regret, nostalgia and pain, but these are all so meaningless at the moment of breaking up.
I'd rather believe that Liu Xiaoxia and Sun Lu can make it to the end. I witnessed the family-like love between them. If a person who is far away from the world is not only your lover, but also your relative, I think this miss will be much more sincere.
During the National Day holiday, we all went home and I saw them again. I haven't seen each other for nearly a month, and there are many intimate actions between them. I can't help feeling at a side, I hope my idea can come true.
At that time, we didn't understand love, only vaguely felt that love was two people snuggling together. No matter how noisy it is, it will be as beautiful as it was.
I think the love between people who really love each other is just like family ties. No matter where you are, you will care about each other, and there will always be a yearning in your heart. When it ripples in their hearts, it will turn into warm and soft light, shining in a strange city in the distance.
Because in that city, there are people you know best.
Ou Nan is a post-90s college student writer.