? In the sprint year of senior three, the learning atmosphere in the class is quite strong, and everyone is basically in a state of tension. I also started to work hard because of the promotion of the big environment. Later, the family changed and the parents divorced. At that time, what they told me most was how to study hard and so on. Out of revenge, I wasted my time and did nothing all day. Actually, it seems silly now.
? You have to bear all the consequences of this revenge. Finally, I got my wish and was admitted to three schools (that year was the last year to implement the three books). Everyone in private schools should know that the most famous is the high tuition fees. I was quite gloating at the time, feeling that they had lost.
? In our school, there is usually a school banquet. My father has always regarded me as the proud kind, because I have basically belonged to other people's children since I was a child. The first time I regretted my stupid behavior was at this graduation party. My father asked someone to write a couplet, in which the name of the school was mentioned. I was also a competitive person since I was a child. For the first time, I felt as if I wasn't retaliating against them, but I was embarrassed, so I didn't say the name of my school at the end of the day. (Finally, I changed the word for it. )
? But the real awakening is much later. I am still a moth until now. I took my stepmother to school to report. Why should I take her? Because my original intention was to go alone, but my father strongly urged me to take her with me on the grounds that she didn't go out much, so let me show her around. I don't understand. Have I ever been out? However, I have my best friend with me (my best friend came out a year earlier than me), and we also avoided a lot of unnecessary troubles. My sister and brother-in-law accompanied me all the way off the high-speed rail. So I have never experienced the embarrassment of not finding my way or taking the wrong bus.
? After lunch, my brother-in-law drove me directly to school to report. Senior sister is also very enthusiastic, helping me run before and after. So the first day of my report was basically smooth.
? The first day I might report bad news later gave me a certain reminder, that is, tuition. My dad only gave me money to pay my tuition, saying that I should wait or do something by myself. I promised on the surface, but I knew it in my heart, but I panicked in my heart. According to past experience, there is basically no need to wait, just solve it yourself. I don't understand, I am alone, coming to a strange city for the first time, what solution can I have for myself who has never been weaned before? So I'm really ready to go hungry. However, my stepmother didn't believe my father's story. When she left, she gave me 1000 yuan to spend first. That's all she has.
? So far, I haven't taken the economic crisis at home to heart. I also know that my family is not rich, but I never thought that poverty could make me have problems eating.
? In the first year of college, I will still receive living expenses from my family, but I still don't know how to wake up and waste my life. Then something happened that devastated me, and that was my first love.
? At this point, although my living expenses are not much, but also given by my family, the subsequent changes really broke out suddenly. I don't want to say anything more about that man. Many people, like me, have been suppressed by their families for too long in high school life. Others treat you better, just like a drowning man who grabs the last straw and falls into it. I am a living example.
? What I can do for him is to dig out my heart and lungs, lose myself, and finally capsize completely. At that time, I wanted to die, my suicide note was written, and my place was chosen. I thought it was revenge, but I was actually embarrassing myself. Everything is ready, only time is needed. I didn't go to dinner, so I fell asleep when I got back. I lost ten kilograms in a week, but I still didn't get a chance, because no one dared to let me go. I am very grateful to my roommates here. They always accompany me carefully, take turns guarding me and chatting with me about various topics. However, although the idea of suicide is gone, it has left an indelible shadow on me. I started wearing heavy makeup, buying clothes and cutting my hair. But inferiority is like a seed that takes root in my heart, and the longer it grows, the bigger it grows. I began to vomit myself and became extremely insecure, not only for myself but also for others. (This has not changed until now) Yes, I don't believe in love, and I don't believe it easily anymore …
? When I was experiencing the suffering he brought me, my family attacked me again. The next year, they only gave me half of the tuition, and the living expenses were directly cut off. I tried to borrow money from many friends, but to no avail. It was the people around me who finally helped me. In the last few days, I finally collected all the tuition fees. Where does the living expenses come from? I started looking for all kinds of part-time jobs, and then I worked in a restaurant steadily. I go to help after school every day and come back before lights out in the dormitory. The problem of living expenses has also been solved. The teacher told us to draw with a computer, so I borrowed money and bought a computer without stopping. My mother also gave a small sum of money here. Some people may ask me why I didn't look for my mother, because my mother had a miserable life at home when I was at school. I left home clean, but later I found that my father had a better life. However, I still depend on others. First, I don't want outsiders to say that my mother is just spending his money. Secondly, I feel sorry that my mother can't face her. In the difficult days of her divorce, my father couldn't stand behind her. When he and his stepmother love my mother deeply at home, they always blame us for not visiting her. Later, my mother had a new life. When he was alone, he said that we were not allowed to find her in the future. Later, he paid back a little by working.
? Generally speaking, college dragged me on for a year and then suddenly weaned me. Basically, whether you ask or not, the tuition fee is paid in full in the first year, half in the second year, zero in the third year and zero in the fourth year. Nobody told you what to do with the rest. If you ask, what should you think of first What about myself? I blame myself for my naivety all the time, and how ridiculous that self-righteous revenge is now. Every cause has its consequences, and I ignore these foreshadowing again and again, which leads to my seemingly unfortunate life.
? Many people will sigh after knowing me, or be silent, or with all kinds of eyes that have changed their taste, so I am often reluctant to mention my experience to others. Because it may turn around and tell it to others as a story (I once met a classmate who told my story to others and then passed it back to my ears, and I was very disgusted with this person from then on).
? Of course I want to change my life, but money can really hinder a person's pace. The school is poor and I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination. But if you don't go to work, there will be no financial resources, and there will be no time to go to work. I don't want to get back at him (father) now, I just want to live my life well. He always wanted me to go to the postgraduate entrance examination for further study, but I never told him that the reason why I didn't pursue further study was that I had no money. He didn't notice even if he didn't give me living expenses.
? And what did the long-term life without money and debt bring me? Inferiority! Inferiority on the economic level is always attacking me everywhere. For example, my classmate casually talked about a few hundred dollars, but I really didn't think it was expensive, but on second thought, I don't even have a few hundred dollars here. So I am very sensitive to the price. Every time I hear something, my first reaction is that I can't afford it. Although I still spend money carelessly, I always like to care about gains and losses. I know my problems clearly, so I am more eager to prove and correct my mentality, which leads to more extravagant consumption. This is a vicious circle.
? From my own experience, I feel that I have countless experiences to share with those children who have just entered the university. Let me briefly talk about my suggestion. Just share what I don't agree with, don't take it seriously. After all, I'm not that old now. There's always something inexperienced.
? First of all, there are problems in schools. Learning comes first. There are all kinds of competitions, including school-level, municipal, provincial and national. Don't care about the size of the game, don't be afraid to bother to think about being lazy, it's really just that you have reduced the time for a few naps. The award-winning certificates are all yours, and then because of these award-winning certificates, you are indispensable for all kinds of awards and appraisals in the school. In this way, you will not only have a beautiful resume, but also reduce the financial burden to some extent.
? Then there must be a lot of people concerned about the community. It depends on your own interests. Don't say that I joined this club just to learn something. Then you might as well teach yourself quickly. Some clubs are actually very watery. You can choose one or two according to your interests. If there are too many clubs, you may not be able to cope with the time. The requirements are not high, that is, in addition to your major and department, it is enough for you to know a few alumni who can talk. (Note: There are seniors in the dance society who take you out to meet Shang Yan. The rewards are rich and the content is simple. )
? Secondly, if you are a class cadre, you can be the monitor, or you can often talk to the instructor in the office. (Each school may attach different importance to the class committee. Like us, only the monitor does things, and the school Committee is familiar with teachers in all subjects, but it is the counselor who controls your lifeline. It is very important to have a good relationship with teachers. You can master any excellent resources at the first time, and they will be partial to you. It seems that many fair and just decisions are made.
? There is also the question of making friends. It is true that friends have more ways to go, but do others regard you as a friend? See for yourself. Don't end up with many friends and few people to talk to. You know, after graduation, many people really just don't contact. What you contact is nothing more than your small group or your roommate who gets along with you day and night. So, don't care too much about others unless you are interested in getting along with them.
? As for love, don't fall in love for love's sake. I don't like him, but my friend said that we are very suitable. You can quit being friends. You don't even know what you like, but you are still blind. Love is just love, so be ready to leave at any time. This preparation doesn't mean that you are perfunctory and don't put your true feelings into it, but that I love you, but I can live without you. People! First, learn to love yourself. Because there is really no empathy, don't do anything that touches you by moral kidnapping, otherwise you will definitely want to slap yourself in the face after many years, believe me.
? The second is to live outside school and give yourself more social experience. Before I did a part-time job, I was very persistent about the two jobs of waiter and takeaway. I really want to do these two jobs, and I don't know if this is a quirk! I haven't done takeout yet, because there will be a catering peak after school, so I switched to various catering industries, such as Chinese food, western food, seafood bars, pubs … I won't list them one by one. During this period, I also met many different people, guests, bosses and colleagues. Those who are also cheated into closing their shops without paying their wages are looking for various reasons to deduct their wages. But I think life is always bittersweet. In addition, it may be that my own awareness of rights protection is not strong, so I can only endure boredom.
? There is also the temptation to face all kinds of little brothers and sisters. In short, don't take yourself seriously! Are you gilded or something, so people have a crush on you at first sight, and then they have to post it backwards? It's just that your face says I'm a liar and a fool. It's too eye-catching Whether they are social people or not, those operatives can really tell at a glance. You have a blank sheet of paper. Who doesn't want to use a clean one?
? Secondly, the problem of sex. At this time, you are an adult. I allow you to explore out of curiosity, but you are not allowed to talk about responsibility and morality. Physical needs are not only for men, but also should not be obtained through cajoling. It took months to cultivate true feelings. You are the person I want to find in my life! What are you talking about! Feelings will change, it's nobody's fault, so I hope this kind of thing that you love and I wish will not become anyone's emotional and moral shackles. But it is done, girls should protect themselves, boys should protect girls, and men should pay attention to safety measures! The real purity is not to say that you know less, but to persist.
? I can't think of so many other details at the moment. If you have any questions, please feel free to consult. I am not saying that I am a successful social person who has graduated for a long time. I am not a talent yet, and my living standard can only solve the problem of food and clothing. Therefore, where there are problems, you are welcome to point out and correct them. All the above views are personal. Those who are honest and can't see what I'm talking about, please row away by yourself. Transfer, invasion and deletion #