You amaze my time/Xia Qixi-he is the graceful and gentle moonlight years, and you are the stunning time of Yan Ming Chaoyang. When Luo Yang told me that this was my good friend Gu, I looked up. You were wearing a bright yellow sweater on the dance machine, which dazzled me. After a long time, I remembered that when I first met you, the only words I could think of were thunder and fire. You are like an atomic bomb, shot into my world. At that moment, I forgot Luoyang with ulterior motives and tried to get close to you. I swear, I am not greedy for your looks, because Luoyang is also a century-old boy. However, the light you gave out that day was different. He is an elegant and gentle moonlight time, and you are a dazzling sunrise time. Look, Luoyang and I jumped off the dance machine that day. The peers around the dance machine applaud you. You proudly waved to them, turned and patted Luo Yang on the shoulder and looked at me. This is the new sister-in-law Luoyang took my hand and smiled. Don't sow discord. There is no distinction between old and new. You smiled treacherously, turned to look at me, held out your hand and said, Sister-in-law, I care about Bai. I have heard from Luoyang people about you for a long time, and I finally met you today. I smiled and held out my hand. Luo Yang's hands are dry and warm, which always makes my heart very stable. Your palm, probably because of dancing and sweating, is wet and warm, and with the afterheat of the bullet leaving the chamber, my heart begins to have nowhere to put it. I have been with Luoyang for half a year. You have to ask him what's wrong. The only thing is that he is too kind to me. Great. I'm at a loss. I'm at a loss I asked him why he was so kind to me, and he said that you are my girlfriend, and who is good for you? He said I was cute, and I said I was pathetic and unloved. Otherwise, it wouldn't be that all girls go shopping arm in arm with their boyfriends, but I scare a stray dog like a madman. Luoyang said, let me be your boyfriend, so you won't be lonely. Luo Yang said this sentence with a serious and solemn expression. My eyes are red. The beautiful boy who was very popular in No.1 Middle School stood in front of me and said that he wanted me to be his girlfriend. If nothing else, take him out for a walk. The return rate is the same as that of Hunan Satellite TV, and it has soared all the way. So I was possessed at that moment and agreed to Luoyang without hesitation. Second, there is no love in the world, but everything has its vanquisher. Ask what love is in the world. Some experts have answered it before, but everything has its vanquisher. I agree with both hands and feet. I think God must have seen me bully Luoyang at ordinary times. I am too arrogant to do evil, so I sent you to surrender me. Don't say I was photographed that day, you also have your own identity as a flower escort. Of course it's not my flower, it's a porcelain doll. When I came out from the video game for dinner the other day, you said that you would invite my girlfriend, the porcelain doll, to go with me. Just listening to this name, I have a skinny beauty image in my heart. I froze when I saw her. Girls in No.1 Middle School often say that I am a rogue and Luoyang is not a good match. The first time I saw a porcelain doll, I suddenly understood the meaning of mismatch. You are more difficult to match than Luoyang and me. Yes, she lived up to the proper name. Her skin is as smooth as porcelain, and she has a far-reaching baby face, which is kind and lovely. However, her height and weight ... I really hate judging people by their appearances, but I feel depressed when I turn around and look at you who are thin and bright. All the beautiful teenagers in this world are spoiled by Cinderella, such as Luoyang, such as you. I almost got up the courage to ask the porcelain doll, but it was all wasted anyway. Can we spoil them? I ate that meal with mixed feelings, because I learned a news that as a beautiful teenager, you actually like fat girls for nothing! I know I'm hopeless I'm not white enough and I'm not fat enough. Distance from your eyes is a reincarnation. On the way back, Luo Yang told me that you don't seem to care about anything, but porcelain dolls are your first love, and you have made great achievements in kissing since junior high school. You hip-hop with many girls, but you are loyal to porcelain dolls. I have nothing to ask heaven why I let every beautiful teenager be so single-minded. In fact, they can have both white roses and red roses. I think if Luoyang knew what I was thinking, he would have kicked me out as a baiwenhang. I opened my mouth and told Luo Yang that I wanted to play games. Luoyang said that porcelain dolls are very good and advanced, and they are very popular in the local area. You two are like a fairy couple who are very much in love every day in the game, wandering in Luoyang. So, he was very happy to hear that I agreed to play games. He jumped up and down to teach me, but I ran in the wrong place again and again, hit the wrong monster and practiced the wrong skills. I looked at Luo Yang guiltily, but he patted me on the head and said, silly goose. Then continue to take pains to show me a very happy expression. I suddenly hate myself. Luoyang is so good to me. I have been invited to play games so many times before, but I still want to be closer to you before I pick up the game. I don't know why, but I always feel that after I met you, I began to be possessed. Knowing that you have a girlfriend, you still want to find me as good as Luoyang. Knowing that the front is the sea of Wang Yang, she still insists on going alone like a moth. I gave you three hearts and gave him time. Porcelain dolls are really amazing. Facing me who can only pick up a little money behind you, she led the team to fight the fiercest monster. She is well equipped, Luo Yang said. You often give her all the good equipment and save money for her. To tell the truth, the porcelain doll deserves good equipment, because she has quick reaction, neat hands and a few pieces of thinking. People like me who are too lazy to guess riddles can only be your jokes. Since we met you, the four of us have often arranged to go out for dinner together. So I went to the wrong city to pick up worthless iron in the game, and playing underworld in a low-level place also rose to level 25, which became a diversion for you after dinner. More happiness, more popularity, more right and wrong. There are rumors in the game that porcelain dolls are of high level and well equipped. Not only did you give it to her, but she actually had an affair with the boss of the gang. At first I thought it was just a rumor, but I didn't see the porcelain doll after dinner. Luoyang said that the porcelain doll confessed everything to you, and she really moved on. Besides, she is going to visit him in the city with the sea and stay with him. As a result, we are no longer happy at the dinner table, and silence occupies the majority. Although you can't sigh, those sad eyes have proved everything. I know you are sad, so whether you go to the movies or go out to play, I will ask Luoyang to invite you. Don't fill up your time, and you won't be alone. But you are a proud person, how can you not understand that we can care, so you often refuse. Every night, in addition to calling Luoyang, I will call you and talk a few words of gossip in a seemingly boring way. You can't see anything unusual in your mood. I understand that the grievances that can be said are not grievances. Silence is more dangerous to you than talking. I also want to tell you that the lover who can be taken away is not a lover, and the porcelain doll is not worth your love. I don't deserve Luoyang's love either. I left my heart to you and my time to him. After four long nights, I shook Luo Yang's hand. Luoyang went to participate in the competition outside the province and asked you to take care of me. But the day after he left, I was restless. Yes, I am a hooligan, which doesn't match Luoyang's temperament. But let's talk behind my back. In the third grade, a girl was one year older than me and ran to the door of my dormitory to scold her. After learning about it in the restaurant, I immediately rushed to the dormitory. I learned that the girl went to study at night. So I rushed to her class again. I followed a group of good sisters, threatening. I met you when I passed by the class gate. You asked me what happened. I don't care. Go upstairs to the third grade. I kicked the door open and let the girls single out. The girls stood up and looked at me contemptuously. When they walked out of the class, they saw you, but they became timid. I gave her a slap in the face regardless of everyone's obstruction. The girl seemed to resist, but she was powerless. I kicked her again, but you held me back. At six or seven o'clock, it was already dark, and the street lamps on campus were vaguely blurred. In the corridor on the second floor, many students watched. In the crowded and flustered crowd, you hugged me tightly and gently hugged my waist from behind. You say, Yang Lin, don't get into trouble. I think if Luo Yang is holding me back, I will accuse him of defending a pretentious girl. But you are different. Your blocking posture makes me addicted to it. That night, I squeezed my hand just for a little hug from you. After I stopped, you let me go quickly and naturally. This action made me lost for a long time. Your nature proves that your heart is open. You really take care of my girlfriend in Luoyang. You happened to pass by, and you came to the stormy waves of my life. I will never forget your natural pulling and hugging. When Luoyang comes back, you tell him that I have a bad temper. Luoyang smiled and rubbed my hair and clinked glasses with you. I also bowed my head and secretly took a sip, thinking of your hug as light as smoke. Cherish white, I have never told you that every time I meet you, I will put away my usual resentment. I don't know which of your girlfriends named A, B, C and D snuggled up on your shoulder happily, and I held Luo Yang's hand hopelessly in the long night. Luoyang gently lifted my bangs, changed my cup and poured orange juice. His love has always been so appropriate and stable. There are thousands of doors, and one person must go first. Touch asphalt and you will be defiled. This is the best word for you, but you eat tea all day to pay off your debts, and finally you bury the curse. When entering the senior three exam, the student who is the first in grade suddenly missed the exam for no reason, and it was reported through the grapevine that she was pregnant. And the culprit is you. During that time, I really didn't see you on campus. I called you and turned it off. I asked Luo Yang, but he just frowned slightly and didn't answer. I know, it's true. I don't have much time to date Luoyang during the summer vacation. On the pretext that it was too hot to go out, I wandered around the game site for a day. Finally one night, when everyone was offline, you saw that you were online. I'm calling you. What have you been up to recently? You said, get a visa. That night, I knew that your father was furious when he learned about it, and the top student's family almost hanged themselves in front of your house when they knew about it. Your father finally decided to go abroad for you and the top students. Let you two leave this place and promise that you will be responsible for the honorary student home. Knowing this fact, I don't know what to say. Finally, I ask you, do you like her? It was a long time before you came back and said, I just transferred all my money and equipment to Luoyang, and I can't play games with you in the future. I'll call you back when I'm finished. It will show that the person you called is not online now. You can leave a message for him. The day before you left, you invited me to Luoyang for dinner. You bring a top student, and the top student actually looks smart and beautiful. He looks up at you by your side, just like a sunflower looks up at the sun. At the dinner table, you quietly pick fishbones for porcelain dolls as before. Top students are particularly shy and only say they can eat. You look like a porcelain doll, but you are so different. Where have you been? What about the man who likes to talk and laugh at the dinner table? The one who let me catch a glimpse of you. Where is the boy with gorgeous steps on the dance machine? Where is the boy wearing only bright clothes? There is a song that says that there are thousands of doors, and one person must go first. Xibai, you go first. I don't know whether to follow behind or run counter to it. Because Luoyang has given me stability, I am reluctant to give up my dream. I am afraid that from now on, I will walk alone again. I was born in a family with sound parents, but my parents love gambling, so I have no time to take care of me. I don't remember how many times I cooked instant noodles by myself, nor how many times I was punched and kicked. The only thing that embarrassed me these years was when I was seven years old. Because no one taught me the common sense of life, I never knew how often to take a shower and brush my teeth in the morning. So, at the age of seven, I was pushed to the ground by my peers and endured their humiliation. They say I am a beggar, I don't pay attention to hygiene, and I have infectious diseases. Since then, my personality has become withdrawn. In addition, I failed an exam once and didn't get into the top ten. My father slapped me and my grades dropped sharply. I also learned to smoke and drink and steal money from my family. From junior high school to now, I have always been a loner. When other girls are shopping with their boyfriends, I am not lonely when I run after stray dogs. Although I stood there later and didn't lose anything of my peers, I always had resistance in my heart. Except Luoyang. I knew Luoyang liked me. When I sit alone on the rooftop, he often reads books on the rooftop. When I am bored pulling flowers and plants, he will come to me with stray dogs. He only wears three colors, white, blue and gray. I guess he must be a single-minded person, so I trust him with a wandering heart. Bai Xi, you once told me that when you like someone, you don't want anything from him, just want to treat her unconditionally, just like a porcelain doll. That's because you have always been in a rich family, and you never lack anything, so you can give your things to others. I know, you must look down on my behavior. You don't like Luoyang that much, but you are with him. You must think I am selfish. In fact, I am just afraid that the long-awaited warmth will suddenly dissipate, and I am afraid that I will have to go alone again. That feeling, very lonely, very lonely. I am a little busy with my senior three courses, but my study is poor, so Luo Yang often helps me take notes, wants to tutor me and go to a school with me. I said to him, Luoyang, don't bother, you can easily focus on the exam, it is difficult for me to get into the junior college. Luo Yang likes me very much and has never quarreled with me. But in the face of the college entrance examination, there is no concession. We never blushed or quarreled together, because every time we lost our temper, Luo Yang would appease me. I think Luoyang is a harmless person. But now he's starting to limit me. He must make up lessons after school and during self-study. He even picked me up from school and recited words on the bus. I can't stand this life. I quarreled with him. At first, she comforted me. I didn't make up lessons for you because I wanted to be together. This kind of life lasted for a long time, and finally, once again, it was really overweight. I hate to blurt it out. If I lose you in the face of making up lessons, I would rather lose you. I seldom consider the feelings of Luoyang. I think he is like plasticine. I can rub it round and smooth it. So, I don't know the lethality of that sentence. He told me very gently, Yang Lin, if you don't like me, why didn't you tell me? I won't embarrass you. Then he got off the bus. After that, he never spoke to me again. But I still have a warm breakfast in my desk, boiling water in my teacup every day, and a whole box of stomach medicine in the hole in my desk. I think I should have separated from Luoyang a long time ago. Maybe I can fly away with you freely. But since I left him, I feel lost again. I chose you because the left atrium was too crowded for two people. You will occasionally reply to postcards and meet you on Q. You always look very busy. Chatting is also nonsense like "Have you eaten" and "Is the weather okay there?". Because of the different time difference, the daytime on your side is the early morning on my side. In order to talk to you, I started surfing the Internet all night. Although our words are often a few words, I am used to watching the changes of your QQ signature and guessing your life. I was so concerned about you that I ignored Luo Yang's distressed eyes. When the college entrance examination was released, Luoyang's score was far ahead of the key line. And I can only go to junior college. But I cried when I saw Luo Yang's wish. Because his wish is exactly the same as mine, a college. I grabbed his petition and forced him to ask, are you crazy! Why are you doing this! Luoyang shook his head. Yang Lin, I said I went to the same school as you. Luoyang is calm, but his family is crazy. They found that Luoyang was admitted to the same school with me. Even found me and said that you could help me concentrate on studying in Luoyang. I shook my head with a wry smile. I don't want to get to the point I said, Luoyang, you are forcing me to die. If you do this, I won't study, not even junior college. Luoyang's eyes are full of sadness. He said, Yang Lin, don't do this. I suddenly flew into a rage. I said, Luoyang, what do you want me to do? I don't want to go to the same school as you. We are not the same people. Please don't push me. You know I'm most afraid of being persecuted by others. Luoyang bowed his head and said nothing. Liu Hai covered his blinking eyes. I eased my mood and said, Luoyang, that's it. Let's go to our own schools. If we can't find a boyfriend or girlfriend in two years, how about we get together? Luoyang looked up and settled, and finally nodded his head. Before he left, he said, Yang Lin, I will definitely wait for you. I don't want to be so determined about Luoyang. Because the left atrium is too crowded, there is no room for two people. So I only chose you. He is a good man in Luoyang. Wherever he goes, he will meet a good girl who adores him. They won't bully him willfully like me, and they won't be grumpy and difficult to serve like me. Luoyang doesn't need to suffer with me. I don't want to delay him either. I'm not great, I just can't stand his kindness. So, at least, I don't want to hurt him anymore. But the last thing I missed, do you know what it was? When I got to college, I went back to being angry with the masses. I am very happy outside school every day except making trouble. I have had many boyfriends. Cherish white, I finally understand your loneliness. There are many beautiful women around, but none of them are intimate. They all say they love me, but I have met two of the best, so I don't think they are affectionate enough, frivolous enough and can't talk calmly. Luoyang will call me occasionally. He just said hello to me. He also said that you came back from abroad and broke up with the top students. The top student found a lover abroad and she will never let you go. You go to college in another city. Life is carefree. I heard that the porcelain doll came back to you later, but you didn't forgive her. Although you have loved many girls, there will always be only one in your heart. But you said that being forced sometimes becomes an inertia. Let her be free while I still have good memories of her. You started playing games again, talking and laughing. When you returned to the game world, you were surprised to see my level. You must not know that in the past two years, my level has been as pure as fire, and now I am like a porcelain doll in the game. It's just that I earned all mine. I didn't ask anyone for money or their equipment. I stayed up all night and fought alone. You know, after Luo Yang and I broke up, I asked my boyfriend what he looks like now, and I played dumb and asked you which one to ask. I didn't give Luoyang any chance. I said that after I went to college, I found I didn't like him even more. I'm just kidding. When I was with you, I didn't know much. I know how sad this sentence will make Luoyang. He is not a superficial boy at all. In college, he was still the one who stood out from the crowd. But I will never get tired of it. I just want him to give up when he is tired one day. Sure enough, in the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I met you in a bar in my hometown city. I saw a beautiful girl standing beside Luo Yang, the kind of girl who walked in the street with her head held high, like a model. Standing with her, Luoyang really became golden couple. There is no one around you. I have to ask you jokingly. I haven't looked for them since you said you broke up with top foreign students. You pretend to be deep, I have already seen through the world of mortals. Luoyang was a little embarrassed to see me single, but he couldn't bear it in his eyes, so he sat with the girl for a while and left. Half an hour after he left home, I received a short message from Luoyang. He said, Yang Lin, if you need me to turn around, I will run to your side at once. I looked at the message and smiled. I was smoking and in tears. Gently press the delete key on the phone. Things have changed, which is the result that I have been looking forward to for a long time. How can I turn around and hurt you? We all stayed in the bar late that day. Later, when people face inward, you come and sit next to me. You're a little drunk. Sit on my shoulder. You've never been so close to me, you mumble, Yang Lin, it's so comfortable to lean against you. The songs in the bar are a little noisy, but I won't listen to a word you say. It flooded my hair, so I had to tilt my head. I dare not move. I have fantasized about such a scene countless times. I met many different boys in college. I played jokes on them, quarreled with them and even kissed different mouths. But what I finally miss, do you know what it is? That night was a silent hug. My heart beats at the thought. My refusal exhausted my life's courage. I don't know how long we have been sitting, but I only heard you whisper in my ear at last, Yang Lin, otherwise, let's try together. I heard from Luoyang that you have a family business, so your family wants you to get married as soon as possible. It's just that you are tired of love and just want to be stable. But, Xiao Bai, what can I say? Your words made me stiff all over, and the drums of music fell into my ears, as if they were heavy. One after another, I was depressed and a little out of breath. Finally, I sat up straight, picked up the cigarette on the table and lit it by my mouth. I turned my head and said frivolous, haha, ok. You get a room, and then send the room number to my mobile phone. Everything is obvious, and you are slightly drunk. Say, what did you learn in college? It's too direct for me to accept. You said you were joking and covered your heart, as if you were scared. Love is a war. Sometimes, a word can make the other side lose. We are not the same young boys and girls. So, you understand that I refused to be hungry and accepted it with a relaxed attitude. From then on, we were still good friends. Cherish white, you only see me refuse at will. However, you don't know that I dragged my heavy body out of the bar that night and stood on the deserted street on my way home, suddenly crying loudly. That kind of wailing is like a seabird losing its favorite partner. I like you and I can't wait to spend my life with you. My refusal exhausted my life's courage. I have been with others for four years since I met you in 2005, but my heart has always been with you. I've been expecting you to say "together" for four years. But if you really say it, I dare not accept it. Four years ago, when we were sober-minded and loved someone, we made a lifelong commitment. Four years have passed, and we have long been numb by the world and emotional life, and we can no longer afford the previous flame of love. I'm afraid that the two of us who are tortured by love are too dull together, and I'm afraid that the daily necessities will make me forget the surprise for you in triviality. Do you know my parents? They also fell in love at first, so they decided to be together. But life shattered all their love. On the day you said "together", they had a big fight over who took the last money to gamble. Finally, my mother was taken to the hospital, but my father picked up the gambling money and ran to the casino. He didn't look back, and he had a little nostalgia for his mother. He only remembers the bustling and decadent atmosphere in the casino, forgetting that behind him is his favorite person. My parents' lessons made me afraid to ask my lover for something. I've been afraid all my life that this is just a fairy tale that never existed. I once read a very vicious saying that love is nothing more than two endings. I am tired of taking care of each other and getting old, forgetting the rivers and lakes and remembering each other and crying. For you, I choose the latter. Others may never understand my shyness. The more you love, the more hopeless it is. It is a kind of pain. I must have rejected you, and I must have rejected myself. Only by becoming good friends can our connection go back to ancient times. Love goes too short, but it is so easy to be sad. Of course, you may never understand my gains and losses. You will find a new girl to accompany you in the years to come, but I will always remember your amazing time and your warm embrace. If we don't accompany each other, the memory you left me will become a warm Bai Yueguang instead of being crushed by years. I am willing to take the beautiful thoughts you left me to find someone who can give me stability like Luoyang, and then I will live.