Sometimes, people's fate changes in an instant.

If Su Yue 1 1 years ago had the idea of teaching in the countryside, she would not have been taken away on the trip and sold to that desolate and secluded mountain village.

That year, she was only 2 1 year old, a junior majoring in journalism.

The car broke down that day and another car was changed halfway. At dusk, the driver stopped at a dilapidated service area to facilitate passengers to get off in twos and threes. She came out of the toilet, didn't walk a few steps, and suddenly felt her body being picked up, and a towel full of ammonia covered her nose and mouth.

Great panic struck, and she twisted like a fish that died frequently. Soon, she got another blow on the back of the head.

When she opened her eyes again, she found her hands and feet tied, like a chicken to be slaughtered locked in a dark room. The small room has only a tiny window, which is very high and can only penetrate a little light. She can't see what it's like outside.

In the corner of the small room, there is a small wooden table with a shrine full of incense, which provides a painted statue of a god. Under the light of dust, his expression looks ferocious.

In a flash, ten thousand possibilities flashed through her mind. Are they going to kill her to sacrifice to the gods, or sell her to a brothel, or do her living organ transplant?

How should she save herself? Will she see her parents again in this life?

Trembling fear quickly spread from the heart to the whole body, and she trembled uncontrollably.

When she was dizzy and dying of hunger, the door creaked open and an old woman in a dark blue coat came in.

She narrowed her eyes when the bright light came in directly.

The old woman came over, raised an arm and said, "Come with me."

She stood up, her legs weak.

Passing through a small yard where chickens and ducks were scattered, the old woman took her into a dilapidated tile house. She took a quick glance at her surroundings. This is a poor farmer with only a high wooden bed and a low square wooden coffee table.

The old woman asked her to sit on the wooden bed. There were two yellow buns in the porcelain bowl beside the bed.

The old woman picked up a bun and stuffed it into her hand: "Eat!" " "

She raised her tied hand and obediently put the steamed stuffed bun to her mouth, thinking that she would have the strength to run for her life when she was full.

02

The old woman told her, "From now on, you are my daughter-in-law. Don't try to escape, you can't escape. "

A dark, rickety figure flashed in from the back room.

"This is my son."

Come here and slowly lift your face, what kind of face is this! Most of the face is covered with dark pockmarked spots, and the upper eyelid of the left eye hangs obliquely and sticks to the lower eyelid. The left eye only saw a little starlight the size of a bean, and the left nostril nose was missing a large piece, revealing an asymmetrical huge nostril. ...

Such a monster's face made her tremble, and the half-eaten bun fell to the ground.

She shook her head with tears in her eyes, and tears flowed like a river.

The old woman's voice slowly dropped: "Don't be afraid, you will get used to it after a long time. My son was burned in the face when he was working outside. I paid a lot of money for you. If you run away, I will kill you. " The old woman picked up the bun and stuffed it back into her hand.

That night, the old woman called two male villagers. They tied her up without saying a word. Her hands were tied to the bed and her feet were fixed at both ends of the pole.

She is lying in bed, in a big envelope.

The old woman's black and thin son tore the zipper of her jeans, and his trousers faded to the middle. He couldn't wait to get into her.

The ugly monster's face bit her face and neck with hot air, and she felt that she had died ten times in Qian Qian.

She doesn't know how many days she has been tied up. Every night, the thin man would come and ravage her.

Jeans have long faded. She lies barefoot in bed every day, and they won't let her get out of bed except to pee.

She really doesn't want to live, but she can't help thinking about her parents.

Her youth should not be buried here in such an unexplained way.

Those cruel ravages became the deepest hatred in her heart, and she endured a sigh of relief, thinking that if she could not escape, she would drag them with her even if she died.

03

A few days and months of ravages have yielded results, and Suyue is pregnant.

The old lady and the man have been watching her, and her life radius has never left the yard.

The plan to escape can't be implemented, but the stomach is bulging day by day.

Every night, her hands are tied and she sleeps in a bed with the old lady.

In the middle of the night, the old lady fell asleep. She raised her hands and slapped herself in the stomach. She wants to kill this embryo that has recorded shame in her belly.

The dull crash woke the old woman. She sat up and patted her face, but Su Yue only felt her ears buzzing.

At dawn, the old lady pulled her out of the yard.

She seized the opportunity to observe her surroundings. This is a village surrounded by mountains. The winding path is full of mud and stones, and sporadic adobe houses are hidden in the shadows of trees.

The old woman took her to a family.

An old woman in her fifties was sitting at the door with a baby in her arms.

The old woman showed her yellow teeth and greeted them with a smile: "Mrs. Jin Zhi is here! What about hadron? "

Only then did she know that the old lady's name was Jin Zhi and that the bully was Hadron.

Jin Zhi didn't answer, and said with a black face, "She still wants to escape! I'll show her your family and tell her what will happen if she doesn't have a good child. "

The old woman took them to the back of the house.

Behind the house is a small piece of flat land, and there is a grass shack under the big poplar, which is very simple and looks like raising animals.

As she approached, Suyue suddenly saw a half-naked woman sitting inside, her fair skin covered with mottled dirt, her hair disheveled, her ankles hung with chains and locked on a stake in the shed.

Jin Zhi stared at the naked woman and said to Suyue, "See? Like you, I want to run every day! Now crazy, the child is still born! "

Her voice alarmed the naked woman, who rushed over, knelt on the ground and kowtowed to them, shouting, "Mom and Dad, come and pick me up ..."

Suyue's tears burst her banks at once, and her heart pricked like an awl. What a young girl she is.

Jinzhi told her that this girl is a college student like her. After being sold here, she refused to accept her life, thinking about running every day, and gave up when she was pregnant.

Since then, her mother-in-law has kept her in this shack, and later the girl was tortured to madness. It's crazy, and it doesn't affect having children. Mother-in-law's family guarded her day and night until she gave birth to a child.

The baby in the old woman's arms was born by this crazy girl.

On the way back, Jin Zhi was still lecturing her endlessly.

She told her whose daughter-in-law had her leg broken alive after she escaped and was caught back, and whose daughter-in-law honestly gave birth to a child and lived a down-to-earth life, and her family would treat her as one of their own.

Suyue gradually realized that if she didn't give birth to the baby, she wouldn't be trusted and there would be no chance to escape.

04

Like all mothers, Su Yue gave birth to a baby girl after getting pregnant in October.

However, in this process, Su Yue never imagined the child's appearance, personality and name.

She should just complete a task and force herself not to have any feelings for the fetus in the womb.

She will run away from home one day, and she can't take care of the children.

On the first day of production, Jinzhi slaughtered a chicken and boiled it into a pot of rich chicken soup, which Suyue drank for three days.

Jin Zhi said, "It's a baby girl. If you are in good health, you have to regenerate. "

Su Yue's tears dripped into the bowl, but she didn't speak. She picked up the bowl and drank all the soup.

After giving birth to a child, Su Yue has a big living space, so she can go out for activities in the yard, but she can't go out at night and can't touch a penny.

When Suyue went to fetch water, she often met a boy of fifteen or sixteen. Every time the young man sees her, he always looks at her timidly with his head down.

Suyue knows that she grew up in the city and practiced dancing, and her looks and temperament are incomparable to those of rural women in Shan Ye.

She pretended that she couldn't draw water, so she deliberately shook it in the bucket and couldn't throw it down.

Seeing the young man still standing by, she whispered, "help me!" "

He nodded and quickly helped her fill both buckets with water.

"Thank you! What's your name? "

"My name is Shui Sheng." The young man replied in a muffled voice.

"My name is Su Yue."

"I know, you bought it from the Liu family."

Su Yue's heart thumped.

She asked calmly, "Yes, I have been here for so long, and I still don't know the name of our village." Which province and city is it? "

"Waliangshan Village, Shanxi Province." Shuisheng paused and said, "You don't want to go out. There are mountains around here, and no one will take you there. You can't get out. If you get lost, you can't find the body in the mountains. "

Suyue smiled awkwardly: "Well, thank you for being aquatic."

After that conversation, Shui Sheng often herded sheep on the hillside not far from Jin Zhi's house. Suyue often meets him when she goes out to collect firewood.

He asked Suyue, "Where did your family come from?"

Suyue said, "Qingdao! In Shandong province, by the sea, it's especially beautiful! You haven't seen the sea, have you? "

Shui Sheng shook his head: "Next year, I want to go out to work."

"Don't you go to school?"

"What's the use of going to school? My grandmother said let me go out to work, make money, and come back to buy a daughter-in-law ... "

Su Yue seized the opportunity to educate him: "It is illegal to buy and sell people. Why not study hard, work hard and talk seriously about someone who likes you? "

Shui Sheng said blankly, "More than half of our daughters-in-law here are bought. It's so poor here, who wants to marry if you don't buy a daughter-in-law? "

"But how poor the girl who bought them is. They will never see their parents again. Since it is poor here and you are so young, why not live in another city? Such as Qingdao, such as Beijing. The city where I study is Beijing, and there are many job opportunities in big cities. As long as you are willing to bear hardships, you can change your destiny ... "

She talked a lot with Shui Sheng. She told him about subways extending in all directions in big cities, bustling playgrounds and cinemas where couples go out in pairs. ...

Every time, Shui Sheng was fascinated, and his dull eyes sparkled with a little longing.

05

After nine years, Su Wen escaped.

By then, she had given birth to two children for Liu Jiasheng.

The daughter is eight years old and the son is four years old.

It seems that she has become a member of this village.

Pasturing sheep, feeding pigs, mowing grass and ploughing fields are all more skilled than Jin Zhi.

She speaks standard Shanxi dialect, sleeps at night without washing her face, wears a Chinese-style chest covering with a sour smell without a bra, her cheeks are tanned and her figure is strong.

No one is worried that she will run away. She has adapted to life here, and two children are holding her back.

Her movements are finally free.

Hadron is in poor health and two children at home need to be taken care of. Jinzhi is old, and she has to run a long way to the city to pull coal and sell chickens.

Going out more often, Suyue remembered the escape route.

On the day of the party, Jinzhi asked her to catch two chickens to sell.

Suyue said, "I'll take the grass. Let her see this excitement too. "

Cao er is her daughter. In the past, Jin Zhi wouldn't let her take her children far away. But that day, Jin Zhi agreed.

Suyue took the grass to the party and sold the chicken 100 yuan, plus what she secretly saved in the past two years, a total of more than 500 yuan.

Suyue stopped a van pulling goods into the city and gave her fifty dollars to be dragged into the city.

The market is remote, and there is no special bus to the city. If you want to go to town, you should either drive a donkey cart or follow these private cars that pull goods.

The truck driver was glad to earn fifty dollars by the way and took them away.

The van detoured out of the market and took a long winding loess road, which was narrow enough to accommodate only one car.

Su Yue sat in the back seat, clutching the grass in her arms, and her heart fluttered, for fear of meeting acquaintances in Waliang Village halfway and pulling them down from the car.

After living in Waliang Village for several years, she knows how ignorant people here are, whose daughter-in-law has escaped, and the whole village is chasing after it.

The van turned over the loess road and took to the winding mountain road. It's getting dark, and it's still far from Waliang Village.

The car driver is a young man who looks a little literary. It seems that he is not more than twenty years old. Suyue stopped the child tightly, fearing that the driver would plot evil against her and the child.

They finally entered the city before the evening was completely over. Although the city is barren, at least you can see the wide and flat asphalt road.

As soon as he entered the city, the young man parked his car on the side of the road.

Su Yue's heart suddenly tightened.

But I heard the young man say, "I have gone to town." I must get to the store before dark. I can't stand you anymore. Stop another car before dark! "

Su Yue secretly relieved and got off with her child in her arms.

She wants to call home as soon as possible.

The landline at home and the mobile phone number of parents have been memorized by her mind thousands of times over the years.

She pretended not to be careful and ran to several small restaurants and grocery stores without a landline.

She was afraid to ask others, because she was worried that people here would have the eyes and ears of Waliang Village.

Without further delay, she ran two intersections with grass in her arms, stopped a taxi and went straight to the station.

Recently, I bought two long-distance tickets to other cities, and she got on the bus with grass.

The next day, when Jin Zhi led the villagers to the county bus station, Su Yue and her daughter had already boarded the train to Taiyuan.

Looking at the flight attendants shuttling back and forth on the bright train and the police in blue uniforms, she finally felt safe.

Her neighbor is a little girl who looks like a college student and her boyfriend. She tried to borrow her mobile phone.

The little girl blinked her big round eyes and handed her the mobile phone: "Aunt, you can use it!" " "

She gratefully took the mobile phone, and her throat tightened with nervousness.

Can the phone be connected? Is father still alive?

The phone rang for only a few seconds, and then an old and familiar voice came: "Hello?"

It was my father's voice.

"Dad ..." She just spit out two words, tears burst out uncontrollably.

The little girl and her boyfriend cast surprised and sympathetic eyes. The grass tugged at her sleeve.

"Month, month! Is that you? Where are you! Tell dad! "

She told her father that she would arrive at Taiyuan Railway Station in eight hours.

Father was very excited and told her not to go anywhere after getting off the bus. It's best to wait for him where there are staff. He will drive to Taiyuan to meet her at once.

Hang up the phone, she cried her eyes out.

The little girl asked with concern, "Aunt, what difficulties have you encountered?"

She looked at the girl's young face with mixed feelings.

The girl in front of me is as young as when she was abducted. Now, at the age of 29, she is the mother of two children and looks like a village woman.

If you tell her that you used to be a college student in Beijing Normal University, will the girls think that they are dreaming?

06

As soon as Suyue went out, she saw her parents holding a big sign with her name on it and coming to meet her with her brother, uncle and uncle.

She recognized the family first.

She jumped up and shouted, Dad! Mom!

When her parents heard her call, they rushed to her through the crowd with tears in their eyes and open arms.

When I got closer, she still had a little yellow hair in her hand, and my mother's eyes were confused.

Caoer tugged at Suyue's skirt and cried timidly, "Mom!"

The confusion in my mother's eyes suddenly turned into the deepest pity. She hugged Suyue tightly, like a lost treasure. She whispered in Suyue's ear, "It's good to be home."

The first thing Suyue wants to do when she comes home is to call the police.

She begged her parents, "Mom, there are many girls like me in that village. Some people are tortured crazy, some people are disabled ... I want to save them. "

"Son, what you should think most now is not how to save others, but how to start your new life! You said that you have experienced so much, how can you still be so naive? " Mother's eyes are full of distress and anxiety.

In the eyes of her parents, what she did today is as innocent as insisting on teaching in Sichuan nine years ago.

My mother told her the arrangement with tears in her eyes: "I discussed it with your father, and we will help you raise the grass." Let's say it's a poor student who is subsidized. In the future, you will remarry, you are still young! "

She knew that her parents wanted to help her bury the past and start a new life. However, fate has changed, and she doesn't want to deceive herself any more.

After staying at home for a while, friends and relatives all know that she is back. No one asked her anything to her face, but she could feel others looking at her with pity.

Her parents deliberately separated her from Cao Er. She occasionally takes Cao Er out to play, and Cao Er can't call her mother in front of outsiders.

Cao er is still young, and she can't understand why, but she can feel that her grandparents don't like her, and there is always a distant gap between them.

When sleeping at night, Cao Er sneaked into her bed, hid in her arms and whispered, "Mom, I miss my grandma. When shall we go home? "

She touched the child's face and didn't know how to answer.

She saw her classmates organizing the tenth anniversary party online. She misses her former classmates and old friends very much, but after a long hesitation, she still doesn't have the courage to appear in front of everyone.

In fact, she doesn't even have the courage to say a word in the qq group.

She always stays in the group silently, silently watching her classmates take photos of travel, office and life full of petty bourgeoisie.

She should have lived this life all these years, but that night nine years ago, she tore it all up.

I can't go back.

She is no longer that innocent and indomitable young girl.

Time left her endless wounds and regrets.

At night, she always has nightmares. She dreamed that she had been kidnapped again. In the dark wind and rain, she and many girls were thrown into an old ship, ups and downs in the rolling black waves, like goods, I don't know where they were transported, and endless fear surrounded her. ...

She always dreamed that her son was sitting on the wooden threshold, crying for his mother with tears.

Yes, she misses her son.

Thinking crazily.

She once thought that she would be relieved when she came home, but in fact, every day she came back was spent in suffering.

07

Being busy is the best treatment.

Su Yue told her parents that she wanted to go out to work and go to Beijing to avoid the gossip of the small town.

Although her parents are desperate for her, they can't bear to watch her haggard all the way.

So, under the arrangement of a distant cousin, Su Yue entered a relatively large newspaper in Beijing, regained her journalism major and became a reporter.

She chose to enter the media, but her family thought that she couldn't let go of her major, but she didn't know that she had plans in her heart.

Su Yue's down-to-earth diligence and hard work won the praise of newspaper leaders and colleagues. Other little girls, on a business trip for a few days, cried headache and brain fever, couldn't carry their bags and couldn't resist the plane, but Su Yue had endless physical strength and energy like a man.

Only Su Yue knows that this is actually the tempering of life in Shan Ye in those nine years.

After working in a newspaper for half a year, Su Yue has several good colleagues who are talking with the editor-in-chief of the social reality edition.

She felt that the time was ripe.

She told her story to her colleagues.

Without deliberately exaggerating, her straightforward statement has made those young colleagues cry and be filled with indignation.

"Tell me, Suyue, how can we help you?"

"It's too much, the police dare not care, we care!"

"I really can't, contact several media and save the children first!"

Those eager eyes and angry words made Suyue feel extremely warm.

She knew that she was on the right track.

After consulting with the editor-in-chief of the newspaper, the editor-in-chief of the social edition decided to take the case of trafficking in women in Waliang Village as the theme of the series of reports at this stage. At the same time, colleagues accompanied Su Yue to the police station to report the case.

Under the supervision of the media, the police successfully filed a case.

Half a month later, the police dispatched a police car to pull Su Yue and several colleagues to Shanxi.

I drove for a day and a night to the county outside Waliang Village.

They parked plainclothes police cars in hidden places outside the village, and most of them stayed in the county seat to wait. I only packed a shabby van in the local area, pulled a few people and quietly entered the village.

Su Yue concentrated and showed the driver the way. Near where she lives, she directs everyone to get off. The car is parked on the hillside behind the house where Shui Sheng often comes to herd sheep.

Su Yue and two plainclothes policemen hid in the distance and watched for a long time.

In the yard, Jin Zhi turned his back on the chicken and chopped grass leaves for the chicken on a stone table. Su Yue's son is a few meters away from her, squatting and playing with mud.

Hadron is not at home.

Two plainclothes policemen saw the opportunity, and the leopard flew over, picked up the child and ran.

The child instinctively screamed: "Grandma!"

Jinzhi looked back and was frightened to disgrace.

She frantically chased out of the yard and shouted in a harsh voice, "Somebody! Catch people! "

Two plainclothes men stuffed the children into the van, and the driver slammed on the accelerator, and the van bumped down the slope.

In the rearview mirror, they saw a large group of villagers running after the car with poles, hoes and sticks. Several stones hit me, and the back window of the van broke a lot.

Debris hit the police officer's neck and blood flowed out instantly.

They originally wanted to take the opportunity to see several other abducted women, but now the situation scares everyone.

They almost fled the village of Waliang.

08

The report in that issue published villagers in Waliang village chasing cars with hoes and poles, and exposed the village appearance and the current situation of human trafficking in Waliang village in an illustrated way.

When the report came out, it was hot on the Internet for a long time.

Families who have lost their daughters also try their best to take people to Waliang Village to personally verify whether the children they miss day and night are hidden in Waliang Village.

It is said that several girls were saved because of this. Among them, including naked women locked in shacks.

However, apart from Su Yue, no one reported the case and no one gave evidence. Therefore, the police suspended the investigation of this case.

As a media, they can do so much.

A year later, Beijing office.

Su Yue is revising the manuscript.

The girl at the front desk came up and said that a young man was waiting for her in the hall.

Su Yue walked out of the office in wonder.

I saw a young man standing straight in the middle of the hall, half an inch neat, with a white shirt tucked in blue pants, looking clean and full of energy.

Su Yue exclaimed: "Aquatic! Why are you here? "

Shui Sheng smiled stupidly: "You say Beijing is good. So, I came to Beijing. "

"When did you come?" Suyue knew that Shui Sheng had been helping to pull stones in the town before.

"After you left."

Su Yue nodded, her eyes covered with tears.

Shui Sheng told her that he found the manuscript written by Su Yue on the Internet and in the newspaper.

"Suyue, are you all right?"

"Well, that's good. Doing my favorite job, with two children around. My parents also came to help me look after the children. "

"That's good, that's good." Aquatic chanting, like a sigh of relief.

Suyue smiled, and the aquatic state looked good, just like a different person.

Shui Sheng rubbed his hands and said guiltily, "Suyue, I'm such an asshole. It was so difficult to meet you at that time that I didn't know how to help you. I ... "

"You have your difficulties, I understand." Suyue interrupted Shui Sheng's belated apology.

She doesn't blame Shui Sheng. He grew up in such an environment, and that kind of ignorance that goes deep into the bone marrow can never be easily changed by a few kind words.

"Su Yue, the purpose of my coming here is to tell you one thing ..." Aquatic expression is very dignified, as if announcing an important event accumulated in my heart.

Su Yue led Shui Sheng into the office and asked him to sit down and speak slowly.

Shui Sheng told Suyue that all the abducted women in Waliang Village had passed through a woman named "Sister Gui". And this woman lives in the neighboring village of Waliang. Her identity is almost well known in Waliang Village, but this is a secret that they need to guard. The villagers dare not offend "Gui Sao", who has offended "Gui Sao". If your sister-in-law doesn't send women to their village, the men in that village will be single.

Shui Sheng and Su Yue said, and quickly recorded with a pen.

This will not only make headlines this month, but she will also take these materials to the police station.

Shui Sheng's family still lives in Waliang village. Some things are inconvenient for Shui Sheng to do, but she is not afraid.

Send aquatic left, watching his back into the numerous and complicated crowd in the city, until it disappears, plain month can't help but lost in thought again:

How many abducted women, once rescued, bury their shame and remain silent about the past. However, at the moment when no one is around, at the moment of trance, at midnight, those torn scars still haunt them like nightmares.

Isn't this another humiliation?

Su Yue knew that her life had been changed as early as 1 1 years ago. Then, in order to hide and wear a mask for the rest of my life, it is better to be a brave man, puncture the pustule and expose the scar.

If those bloody scars and smelly pus can break through the barriers of ignorance, protect the weak from bullying and give ignorance a chance to wake up, she will feel that all the injuries are meaningful.

(Original title of this article: The meaning of scars)

Telling real life into a story: the first season of the true story collection plan