I think you should bravely choose the life you want. I believe that there is only one life. It is really unnecessary and unworthy to suffer for one person. Even a weak woman can live well with hope. My father, who is also a gambler, watched too much since he was a child, including having no money and asking others to borrow money everywhere. Once I lost my money, the debtor even moved my TV. What matters is not that there is nothing to see without TV, but that a child has self-esteem and values. What she knows and sees will have a great influence on her personality and the way she gets along with others, even for life. For example, I used to be afraid to have too much contact with my classmates, afraid that my friends would come to your house to play, afraid to go out to play on birthdays, and afraid to give gifts to each other on holidays. . . In junior high school and high school, children were arrogant, even a little compared and vain. I sometimes feel that my past is gray and colorless. I am an introvert. I sometimes feel very cold, and my family and love are very weak. I don't know if these are the reasons of my personality or the influence of my family environment. I have thought more than once why my mother didn't divorce my father. If I had such a marriage, I would definitely choose to give it up. Maybe it's because you have no knowledge and only know how to endure. Just bear it and get over it. You're getting old! Maybe I'm used to it and don't want to change. I think you should think it over, make a choice and get a divorce. You may lose a marriage, your children may lose a father, and some people may object. They're not you. How to understand the sufferings of the people in the depths is very harmful for your children to grow up in such a family environment, but you can pour all your love into your children to make up for the lack of fatherly love and cultivate a sound personality. My mother is 47 years old this year. I looked at her past years, such as not willing to eat or wear, scrimping and saving, and not living the same life as others. I think it's worth it. Is it worth being wronged? Everyone sees things in a different way. I hope you can follow your inner decision and make your own choice bravely.