Li Ao, a senior in senior three, couldn't stand the systematic education of the school, so she decided to drop out of school and study hard, and was admitted to Taiwan Province Provincial University with the same academic ability.

His father, Li, is an educator in high flyers, Peking University. He adopted an educational model that allowed Li Ao to develop freely. In other words, his father is busy with the livelihood of his extended family and has no time to manage Li Ao. After hearing the news that Li Ao was leaving school, he simply said, "Do what you like."

So Li Ao began to study by himself at home and study part-time.

On that day, Li Ao, who lived in seclusion at home, was sleepy, and the spring water flooded out of the window, so he went out to bask in the sun in the street. Between intonation and intonation, a pure and clever girl in the crowd attracted her. Li Ao learned through an unannounced visit that the girl lived in the village lane, one grade lower than him, and her parents were Christians.

So he began to write love letters to the girl, waiting for her to hand them in face to face after school every day, but he didn't say a word. All the words were written on old-fashioned stationery with a faint ink fragrance.

Girls' homework is particularly good, and the articles written are basically the first prize of the school. Of course, she wouldn't give up. The reply to Li Ao is naturally literary, and their feelings are more and more unforgettable in the exchange of ideas. There was even an 83-page love letter among the love letters at that time.

Later, Li Ao entered the College of Literature of National Taiwan University, and the love letter was handed over by her sister who was still in high school. Later, when the girl wanted to go to college, the letter was interrupted.

When Li Ao's father died that year, Li Ao insisted on reforming the old funeral with funeral sticks and burning paper money, and looked coldly at the abuse. There were different opinions at that time.

The girl was admitted to the Chemistry Department of National Taiwan University, and when she heard Li Ao's surprising move, she took the initiative to communicate with Li Ao. At this point, the two formally fell in love and were inseparable. Later, for the sake of Li Ao, girls transferred from chemistry department to history department. In the same year, Li Yuanzhe transferred from the Department of Chemical Engineering to the Department of Chemistry.

This girl is Li Ao's first love-Luo.

Like all the first love in the world, although they are "young and childlike, they have a heart in mind", but they have to be forced by reality to "break up and lose their marriage."

The reality is that Luo Jia is poor and Li Ao's family is even poorer. Luo's parents objected that their daughter was with him, on the pretext that Christianity was inconsistent with Li Ao's beliefs.

Li Ao went to see Luo for the last time, but there was a sentence from Luo's mother: "If you have money to be president in the future, we won't come to the door; If you are poor in the future, you will have to eat and come to my door. Please take one more step! "

In this way, Luo left Li Ao, leaving him with only three things: Twelve Letters to Youth written by Zhu Guangqian, a seal engraved with Luo's name by his father, and underwear that Luo gave her when they parted.

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Li Ao wrote in his memoirs that Luo's departure made him encounter the biggest dilemma in his life.

For a teenager who is infatuated with love, the departure of a confidante has surpassed the unforgettable memory and turned into a life without love. At that time, Li Ao did not choose to take sleeping pills, as he later advocated. After swallowing a whole bottle of sleeping pills, I may forget that woman named Luo forever.

Fortunately, Weng Songran, his roommate, was aware of it and forcibly sent him to National Taiwan University Hospital, out of danger.

For the next three years, Li Ao didn't fall in love.

He really achieved the poetic meaning written before meeting Luo: sitting alone in autumn water, for fear of missing Iraqis. Years make people old, and I am down and out. Helpless and self-deprecating, what is revealed is the deep affection of "once the sea was difficult for water."

In his senior year, he came out of lovelorn love and met a Chinese-Russian mixed-race named Mimi.

Mimi is slender, and there is an elegant arrogance between her gestures. She likes to read twenty-five histories with thread-bound books, which are ancient books of beauty.

However, this relationship is doomed to be short-lived. On the day of parting, Li Ao left a photo of Mimi when she was a child, and returned the letter Mimi wrote to him.

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1963 Li Ao, a 28-year-old young man, made young people in Taiwan Province Province remember the best among their peers with an article "The Old Man and the Bonzi". At that time, Luoyang was expensive, and his popularity and reputation fell on this young man like the tide in Qiantang. He might enjoy it a little. After all, not everyone can get ahead after ten years of cold window.

At that time, he studied in seclusion in Bitan during the day and wrote articles for satellites at night. What I admire most is having tea around me. This woman is Wang Shangqin, the mother of Wen Li, the eldest daughter of Li Ao.

Wang Shangqin was the beauty queen of National Taiwan University at that time. On the bus of Academia Sinica, she met Li Ao.

Li Ao took the initiative to talk and knew that Wang Shangqin was the sister of his good friend Wang Shangyi. After some conversation, Li Ao invited her to live in seclusion in Bitan, and she readily agreed.

They soon entered the period of love. When they were playing in the street, Wang Shangqin saw the beautiful skirt in the window, but it was too expensive, so she left silently. Delicate Li Ao secretly bought them and sent them back to Wang Shangqin's home. At this time, Wang Shangqin was completely attracted by the "young leaders" in this literary world.

Later, after graduating from Wang Shangqin University, they went to Hualien as teachers and separated briefly for the first time.

If the relationship between two people is long-lasting, it is still a matter of time. However, at that time, I didn't know how long it would take to get together again. After all, communication equipment mainly depends on the age of writing letters, and long-distance relationships are not sweet at all. So Li Ao soon went to Hualien to find her and advised her to go back to Taipei, but it was not easy to find a new job without giving up her present job. Wang Shangqin turned down Li Ao.

They were unhappy for the first time, and Li Ao's family was less diligent than Rainbow's, which made her very depressed.

A year later, Wang Shangqin returned to Li Ao only to find Li Ao's correspondence with other girls. After a little conflict, she offered to marry Li Ao.

At that time, Li Ao was the lead author of Satellite, fighting for freedom of speech during the white terror in Taiwan Province Province. After considering for a long time, Li Ao gave her the final answer:

"ShangQin, I am not a contented person, my life's mission is to oppose the kuomintang, Chiang's father and son, against the dark politics. There will be bad luck in the future, including imprisonment and assassination. My ideal and situation are not suitable for starting a family. I'm afraid I'll get you into trouble and I can't marry you for the time being. "

Wang Shangqin lost his soul, and finally they parted peacefully.

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When he was young, Li Ao was definitely a die-hard intellectual. It is not appropriate to say that he is a scholar, because he is not a traditional cultural person. At that time, he was still a scholar, with a style of pointing out the mountains and inspiring words, so many girls liked him.

In Li Ao's life, many lovers' love was too short. The typical three women are H, Little Y and vivian lau.

Later, the most disgusting love letter written in Li Ao's love letter collection was addressed to H. Perhaps in people's impression, the most beautiful woman who fell in love with Li Ao was Hu Yinmeng, the "first beauty in Taiwan Province", but Li Ao said it was H. This woman code-named H was a supermodel at that time and almost replaced Brigitte Lin as the heroine of Qiong Yao's Out of the Window.

It's a pity that the boat and the car were different at first, and finally we had to meet in a hurry and leave in a hurry.

At this time, Li Ao's understanding of love has completely changed. Short-lived love is the happiest and truest. After a long time, mixed with pain, it is no longer love.

Xiao Y, a female student in the literature department, is a typical Jiangnan woman. She and Li Ao edited a dictionary in satellites magazine until one day Li Ao asked her, "So many people are after you, where am I?" Little y covered up her surprise with a smile, and then joked, "You are probably ranked thirteenth." Li Ao smiled a few times and said, "I don't think I'm even thirteen. I am an extra. " Both of them laughed.

Soon, Li Ao asked Xiao Y to eat in a "beautiful and cheap" restaurant. After Xiao Y promised, she said that something happened temporarily. Li Ao was disappointed for a long time and decided to go to the restaurant. As a result, when he saw Xiao Y waiting there, they smiled and said nothing.

Later, Xiao Y broke away from the sweetness of love and went to Hong Kong. This relationship ended in nothing.

I met vivian lau before I married Hu Yinmeng.

In Li Ao's three memoirs, little is written about vivian lau. It should be said that vivian lau is the most sorry person in Li Ao.

Vivian lau is the woman who knows Li Ao best. She cares about each other and has no regrets. Li Ao came back after being banned and lived in seclusion in Bitan Mountain Building. He hasn't been downstairs for five months and criticizes with a pen as a spear. In the meantime, vivian lau has been taking care of his life.

As for this secret relationship, I only know that after meeting Hu Yinmeng, he advised her to study abroad.

Vivian lau asked Li Ao, "Didn't you say you love me 100%?"

Li Ao answered her, "There are a thousand now."

Vivian lau left Li Ao without a word of complaint. On the occasion of going abroad, Li Ao sent her to the airport. She looked at Li Ao affectionately, awkward and finally didn't say a word. Tears welled up in her eyes when she turned around.

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Before vivian lau, Li Ao spent five years in prison. Others are most afraid of loneliness in cages, but Li Ao proposes to live alone. In prison, he continued to work hard, writing and reading day after day.

Even though spies tortured and insulted, friends framed and betrayed, and younger brothers robbed in troubled waters, Li Ao remained firm all the way until 1973 1 month. Xiao Lei, who fell in love with him for three years and seven months, wrote to him, saying that she would not wait for Li Ao any longer, and she was getting married.

Li Ao couldn't hold back his tears after reading the letter.

This woman, who can change Li Ao's pessimistic view of love most, left so firmly. From then on, Li Ao looked down on love, and a kind of love concept that we are happy when we are together is deeply rooted in his heart.

Enjoy the flowers and then go on a long trip. Only when the flowers fade can you think of the bonus.

If you have enough wine to drink, go on a long trip. Only when you are drunk will you feel slightly drunk.

If you have feelings, you should fall in love and travel far. Only when love is short, can love last forever.

-Li Ao's "Then Travel"

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Hu Yinmeng should be known to the outside world.

After Li Ao was released from prison, Tradition under Monologue was published. Li Ao, which was banned at that time, once again made waves and set off a cultural wave. At that time, many young people collected Li Ao's works, including Hu Yinmeng, the first beauty in Taiwan Province.

At that time, Hu Yinmeng, Taiwan Province's most popular movie star, published Li Ao, a maverick, and praised Li Ao.

Even if criticized by the film company, Hu Yinmeng ignored it.

Li Ao praised Hu Yinmeng like this at that time: If there is a new woman, beautiful and erratic, charming and confused, erratic and excellent, sad and sexy, incomprehensible and unreasonable, it must belong to Hu Yinmeng.

As a result, talented people and beautiful women admire each other, work hard and make great strides. 1On May 6th, 980, Li Ao married Hu Yinmeng, and Gao Xinjiang married Monseigneur.

Hu Yinmeng said at that time: "Li Ao and I are gamblers of life. He is my trump card. I want to bet on his happiness all his life. "

Perhaps it was because the film company in Li Ao didn't give Hu Yinmeng a film source at that time, or perhaps the fantasy of both sides was too unrealistic. Li Ao told a friend privately that the marriage would not last for a year. Hu Yinmeng also asked Mr. Destiny for advice on ways to maintain marriage, but to no avail.

The fantasy of love is finally broken by trivial reality. The two are a match made in heaven, and finally love and hate become incompatible grievances.

Married for three months and 22 days, Li Ao presided over a reporter and announced his divorce.

When we parted, Li Ao held the last bouquet of roses, and Hu Yinmeng wore light makeup, so we parted in this life.

Although there are still necessary lawsuits, we can love each other and kill each other, and it's over.

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Perhaps, many people think that Li Ao's character will not keep a marriage.

But in fact, he and his second wife, Wang Xiaoyun, walked hand in hand all their lives.

Wang Xiaotun is thirty years younger than Li Ao. When they first met, Wang Xiaoyao was nineteen years old and Li Ao was forty-nine.

Li Ao is two years older than Wang Xiaotun's mother. At that time, the parents of the other party unanimously opposed it. Rebellious Wang Xiaoyun didn't go home, and asked his brother to tell his parents that if he didn't accept this marriage, he would become a nun.

Finally, parents had to agree. Li Ao said that a man wanted to get married because he was tired.

Li Ao cherishes this marriage very much, dotes on Wang Xiaotong very much, and Wang Xiaotong also takes care of Li Ao, dedicating his best years and youth to Li Ao and giving birth to a son and a daughter for Li Ao.

They worked hand in hand all their lives until Li Ao died on March 18, 2065438, leaving Wang Xiaotun behind.

Li Ao told his wife, Xiaotun, that he would leave their mother and son sooner or later. It is better to live in seclusion in Yangmingshan as early as possible, and only see their mother and son once or twice a week, so that they can adapt to the days without him.

Not that much, just a little. The love of others is as deep as the sea, but mine is very shallow.

Not that much, just a little. Other people's love seems to last forever, but mine is very short.

Not that much, just a little. I only glanced at you.

-Li Ao, "Don't Love So"

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Excerpt from muxi Fish Neighborhood Headline.