A father looks for his son.
After searching for dozens of Internet cafes, 55-year-old Liu Guohua (pseudonym) finally found his son Liu Ning (pseudonym) who was playing games in an Internet cafe on Jintong Road.
Liu Ning, 25, with messy hair and pale face, was staring at the display screen with rapt attention. Liu Guohua stood behind him, hesitated for a second, and then patted him on the shoulder. The latter turned around and stared at his slightly excited father in surprise.
Eight years ago, with a high score of nearly 650 points, Liu Ning became the top science scholar in a county in Liangshan and was admitted to China University of Science and Technology. Four years ago, I graduated from Liu Ning University, but I didn't find an ideal job. He began to indulge in the internet and wander around.
On the afternoon of Lunar New Year's Eve, a kind-hearted person found that a young "tramp" had been lying on a bench in Jiulidi Campus of Southwest Jiaotong University for three consecutive nights. He helped contact the family of the "tramp"-the next day, Liu Guohua came from his hometown, but his son was gone again. ...
A phone call before he disappeared?
"The shame of the whole county"
After his son disappeared, what Liu Guohua regretted most was the previous phone call. "I shouldn't have said such heavy things."
On the evening of February 4th, Liu Ning found a public phone to call home. He has no fixed contact information since he dropped his mobile phone last June. On the phone, he first asked how his family was doing, and then said that he had been near Southwest Jiaotong University for several days.
"I felt at that time that he was going to ask for money from home again." Liu Guohua recalled that since Liu Ning graduated from 20 10, he didn't have a job most of the time, and all his living expenses were paid by his family. Before college, my son was the top science scholar in the county and was admitted to a famous university with excellent results. The huge gap between the accumulated honor for many years and the loss after graduating from college made Liu Guohua lose control. The call lasted more than 40 minutes. On the phone, Liu Guohua sternly said to his son, "I said, you are a disgrace to your family and the whole county. Before you went to college, you were glamorous all over the county. Now when people ask about you, I dare not say. "
Later, Liu Guohua also said, "It's easy for me to deal with you. I won't answer all your calls, and all calls with Chengdu area code will be blocked. " Liu Ning's mother also answered the phone, "Crying and scolding her son, hating iron and not turning into steel."
My son hung up the phone. The next day, a strange old man called Liu Guohua's mobile phone: "Your son has been sleeping in the school chair for three days, in such a cold day ..."
Meet at the silent Internet cafe?
Looking at my father in surprise.
When I first got the call, Liu Guohua even wondered if it was another way for my son to ask for money from home. But he soon denied it. On February 6, the seventh day of the first month, he arrived in Chengdu early in the morning, but his son was gone again. Every day, Liu Guohua goes to the Internet cafe near the campus to look for it. He took out the photo for the owner of the internet cafe to identify, and everyone just shook their heads.
On February 7th, he deposited 300 yuan money in his son's bank card. The next day, he found that the amount on the card was less 100 yuan, which was reassuring. "This shows that others are safe and have taken the money." After finding the place where his son withdrew money from the bank, Liu Guohua searched for a long time and found nothing.
After five days of searching, Liu Guohua finally met his son. Yesterday, when Liu Guohua walked into an Internet cafe on Jintong Road, Liu Ning was absorbed in playing online games. Liu Guohua stood behind him and hesitated for a second to control his emotions. After that, he patted his son on the shoulder and said, "Let's go."
Liu Ning, with unkempt hair and greasy face, turned around and looked at his father standing behind him in surprise. Then, without saying a word, he turned off the computer, carried his schoolbag and followed his father out of the Internet cafe. The owner of Internet cafes said that in recent days, Liu Ning often came to Internet cafes to surf the Internet. In the network card, there are still more than 40 yuan that have been recharged.
On the way back to the hostel, the father and son have been silent. After a long time, Liu Guohua finally spoke, "Did you eat at noon?" "I have eaten." Liu Ning answered calmly.
A son in the eyes of a father
From top scholar to "tramp"
Liu Ning has the hope of the whole family. Good grades, smart head, admitted to a good university, we all think he will have a bright and far-reaching future.
In his hometown county, as the top scholar in science, Liu Ning's recent situation was repeatedly asked by his relatives, friends or teachers. At this time, Liu Guohua only waved his hand: "He worked in Anhui after graduation." "I have no face to say." Liu Guohua said helplessly.
"The good memories left by my son seem to be only excellent results before college. Every year, his favorite moment is the parent-teacher conference. Every teacher praises him and everyone admires him. "
Science champion
Father's favorite moment is the parent-teacher conference.
Before going to college, Liu Ning was always the pride of Liu Guohua and the whole family.
"His grades are particularly good, and junior high school and high school are the first." Liu Guohua recalled. For the 55-year-old father, the only good memory left by his son seems to be the excellent results before college. Every year, his favorite moment is the parent-teacher conference. "Every teacher praised him and everyone envied him. Even now, teachers can still remember this student. Every teacher greeted me warmly. "
What makes Liu Guohua most proud is that in 2006, Liu Ning became the top science scholar in the county with a high score of nearly 650 points, and was successfully admitted to the Electronic Science and Technology major of China University of Science and Technology. "The school also made a big billboard to promote this." There was a sense of loss of honor in Liu Guohua's tone.
Yesterday, the head teacher of Liu Ning High School also gave this student a very high evaluation on the phone: "He is very smart, studies hard and is a very excellent student. (That year) The college entrance examination (Weibo) almost went to Tsinghua. "
Liu Ning has the hope of the whole family. Liu Guohua said: "With good grades and smart brains, we all think that he will have a bright and far-reaching future."
A country without young people
Longest job, a few months.
However, the cruel reality shattered Liu Guohua's good expectations.
After graduating from college, Liu Ning said that he wanted to stay in Anhui. "A long time after graduation, we called him and he said he was busy looking for a job." To Liu Guohua's surprise, the state of "looking for a job" lasted for several years.
In Liu Guohua's memory, Liu Ning only worked for a few months after graduation. "That was in an online game company, doing online sales and customer service for several months. He felt boring and resigned. "
Once, Liu Ning said to his father, "If I can't find a job I like, I'd rather not work."
In his hometown county, as the top scholar in science, Liu Ning's recent situation was repeatedly asked by his relatives, friends or teachers. At this time, Liu Guohua only waved his hand: "He worked in Anhui after graduation." "I have no face to say." Liu Guohua said helplessly.
Liu Guohua was very anxious. It is difficult for him to understand that his son graduated from a famous university and his ability is not weak. How can he not find a job? He seriously attributed his son's inability to find a job to. July 20 13, he took Liu Ning back from Anhui to Chengdu and began to "watch" him looking for a job. After a few days of "squatting", Liu Guohua returned to his hometown, and then telephoned to inquire about his son's job search, but every time he got the answer "Looking for a job". 20 13 12 19 because the rent was due, Liu Ning left the rented house and began to wander around.
Liu Guohua found his son addicted to the Internet. "He often stays in the Internet cafe and doesn't answer our calls. He called home when he had no money, or simply didn't call and send a text message saying that I had no money. "
During this period, all expenses of Liu Ning were provided by the family. Liu Guohua said that a large part of the money was spent by his son in Internet cafes. Liu Guohua is also in a dilemma. "on the one hand, I know that most of the money is used for surfing the internet, and giving him money is harmful to him; On the other hand, you can't watch him starve to death, can you? " Now, he just wants his son to find a down-to-earth job.
"tramp"
He once asked, "What is the meaning of life?"
From the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, Mr. Wen, the doorman of Jiulidi Campus of Southwest Jiaotong University, found that a young "tramp" had been sleeping on an open-air bench by the mirror lake on campus for three consecutive days. "He wrapped his lower body in a skirt, lying in a chair, carrying a bag and carrying a bag. From five or six o'clock in the afternoon, I slept until five or six o'clock the next afternoon. Pale, such a cold day, sin! "
Uncle Jing, 82, who lives on campus, also found this "tramp" on the bench. On the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, Uncle Jing saw him lying in a chair. He tried to ask him, but the other person was very stiff and didn't say much. Uncle Jing gave him snacks and mineral water in his hand. On the morning of New Year's Day, Uncle Jing saw the tramp again. "This time, he said that he was a college student and had a conflict with his parents. He showed me his diploma and degree certificate." At noon, Uncle Jing gave it to Liu Ning 10 yuan and asked Mr. Wen, the doorman, to take him to the canteen for dinner. When Mr Wen finished eating, he found that Liu Ning had disappeared.
In the afternoon, Jingshu met Liu Ning in a chair on campus again. This time, he advised Liu Ning to call his parents. Liu Ning gave his father's telephone number. Jingshu said to Liu Guohua on the phone, "Your son has been sitting in a chair for several days ..." After the phone call, Liu Ning disappeared again.
What impressed Uncle Jing was a conversation between Liu Ning and him. Liu Ning asked him, "What do you think is the meaning of life?" Uncle Jing was a little surprised by this abstruse question. He thought about it and replied, "I think the meaning of life lies in enrichment and regularity."
My son's ego
Like most people, I am tired of working and getting married.
From primary school to middle school, my grades have been very good; When I was admitted to the University of Science and Technology of China, I had one in ten thousand hopes. Is it possible to influence the whole world like Einstein and Hawking? But after entering the university, compared with my classmates, I am just an ordinary member, and I feel that I am not as smart and crazy as a genius.
Let me, like most people, find a job, get married, have children and earn money to support my family. I feel bored, bored.
"If in wartime, I will be more valuable, more as? It's like leading your partner through the game and getting their approval.
At 6 o'clock in the afternoon, Liu Ning and his father came out of the Internet cafe and sat on the bed in the hotel. He is wearing a dark coat and a pair of jeans covered with oil. His skin looks a little pale because he spent a long time in the Internet cafe. In the hotel, Liu Ning accepted an exclusive interview with a reporter from Chengdu Business Daily. The college life and post-graduation experience are sorted out.
Talking about the number one scholar in science: I failed my thesis, and it took me a year to get my diploma.
Chengdu Business Daily reporter: Your father found you today (10). How long have you been in Chengdu?
Liu Ning: I returned to Chengdu from Hefei last August.
Reporter: What jobs have you found?
Liu Ning: Actually, I found a lot of jobs in Chengdu during that time. At first, I found a state-owned enterprise to do customer service, but as soon as they came up, they talked about a lot of rules and repeated training for many simple things. I felt bored and resigned after working for a month. Later, I got a job playing web games, but I had to train for four months without pay. Whether I can get a job or not, I said I don't agree.
Reporter: What was your major in China University of Science and Technology?
Liu Ning: Electronic Science and Technology. I should have graduated on 20 10, but I delayed writing my thesis for one year. I got my diploma in July 20 1 1 year.
Talking about four years of graduation
After finding a few dissatisfied reporters, I gave up: What job did you find after getting the diploma?
Liu Ning: At that time, an online game company in Hefei had a monthly salary of more than 2,000 yuan and a year-end award of more than 3,000 yuan, which was not bad in the local area; But this job lasted only nine months, and then I resigned. I mainly have to work at night, and I don't have a good relationship with the leaders. I feel that he is always targeting me.
Reporter: What happened later?
Liu Ning: I have found several jobs in Hefei, but compared with my previous jobs, I always feel unsatisfactory.
Reporter: Did you find another job in Chengdu? How to solve the source of life?
Liu Ning: I used to work in Hefei and had almost 6,000 yuan in savings; When the money is spent, we can only ask for it from home. None of my previous jobs were ideal, but I gave up later.
Talk about wandering life
I bought snacks on New Year's Eve and stayed in the Internet cafe for one night.
Reporter: What are you doing in Chengdu?
Liu Ning: I mainly play, read novels, sleep and surf the Internet. About 65438+ last February, the three-month rent expired and was not renewed; Later, I basically started a "wandering" life in Chengdu. During the day, I basically take the bus to go around, see and play. I have been to Wuhou Temple, but the tickets are too expensive, so I took a walk outside. In the evening, I usually spend the night in Internet cafes, mainly sleeping. Sometimes I sleep in the street.
Reporter: Where do you celebrate the New Year?
Liu Ning: Both New Year's Eve and New Year's Day were spent in Internet cafes. I bought some snacks on New Year's Eve and stayed in the Internet cafe for one night. I wanted to call home to say Happy New Year, but I didn't call because there was not much to say.
Self - analysis
"The main reason is still on yourself."
Reporter: Do you think this lifestyle is normal?
Liu Ning: This month, speaking of bitterness, it is really bitter; But walking on the road, sitting on the bus, listening to other people's chat and listening to their work and life, just like an outsider, is very relaxed.
Reporter: Have you ever wondered why your life is like this?
Liu Ning: I think too much. Maybe the main reason is myself. From primary school to middle school, my grades have been very good; When I was admitted to the University of Science and Technology of China, I had one in ten thousand hopes. Is it possible to become a great scientist like Einstein and Hawking and even influence the whole world? However, after entering the university, my academic performance is average, and I am just an ordinary member compared with my classmates. I feel that I am not as smart and crazy as a genius. But in real life, like most people, I find it boring to find a job, get married, have children and earn money to support my family.
Reporter: I heard that you once asked about the meaning of life?
Liu Ning: I'm just asking, mainly because I feel that the lifestyle of ordinary people now makes me lose sight of the meaning and goals, and everything is mediocre. For example, if I am in wartime, will I be more valuable and productive? Just like I used to like online games, because leading my partners through the game will get their approval; In fact, I always knew that these things were illusory.
Reporter: Dad found you. Will you go back with him?
Liu Ning: I was going to find a job as a network administrator next year and the year after next to support myself. In this case, I may go to my sister's house with my dad, but I haven't really thought about it yet.
postscript
There is nothing wrong with dreaming.
But keep your feet on the ground
From Weibo, the champion of the national college entrance examination, to wandering the streets, Liu Ning's experience is embarrassing.
Ideal and reality, like Hamlet's "to be or not to be", have puzzled countless college graduates. Unlike Liu Ning, they all made a choice. Either choose to stick to your ideals or retreat to reality. Liu Ning, on the other hand, lingered at the crossroads of life for four years.
Instead of wasting your life with a sigh, it is better to start from bit by bit and work hard for your ideal.
We appreciate Liu Ning's attitude towards life, but we should criticize his unrealistic behavior. People can have ideals, but they must be down to earth.
After the holiday, finding a job has become a top priority for many people. After countless times of hitting the wall, many people will say, let go of your ideals and face reality. In fact, there is a better choice: proceed from reality and finally realize your ideal!