But then he said that he had been thinking about life recently, even thinking about not sleeping. I'm surprised. I sent the red envelope he gave me back to bless him and put a stamp on it.
Go to sleep, life is not so bleak.
It was his favorite eighteen years, but after opening it, he replied to me, "I'm not satisfied with any figures." I asked him, "Then why did you send it to me?" He said,
"Because for girls, youth is happy. Anyway, when you grow up, your responsibility will be great. "
I always thought that 18 years old has the same precious value for everyone, because 18 years old has many beautiful and pure fantasies and blessings. As everyone knows, it also has some "malicious" negatives.
Swallows come from a small village in the county. His father is a fisherman and has a small fish farm. His mother has been in poor health since she gave birth to the child. She does some manual work at home occasionally to earn some money to support her family. There are four children in the family, and the swallow is the eldest.
As a sister, Swallow has been very good since childhood. She always keeps her younger brother and sister at home and often helps her parents. This also helps her parents and teachers worry about their studies. Maybe this is what others say: Big sister always grows faster than others.
. /kloc-at the age of 0/6, she is sometimes caught off guard.
16 years old, the swallow's father died of myocardial infarction when he went out to sea. Facing the sudden bad news, the whole family felt that the world was going to collapse. Swallows at that time hated their helplessness.
. 16 years old, she also has responsibilities to bear.
The death of my father was a great blow to my mother. Her health went from bad to worse instead of bearing the burden of her husband. Seeing her mother's hard work, the swallow stopped to do everything she could at home for herself.
She gets up early every day to help her mother do housework and make breakfast. Help the younger brothers and sisters get dressed, feed them breakfast, send the youngest brother to kindergarten, and then go back to school by bike.
In order to squeeze out more time to help the family, Swallows race against time to study at school. Pick up my brother after school and go home together. When I got home, I helped my mother cook and my brother and sister wash. After dinner, I also mentioned my brother and sister's clothes and went to the stream to wash them. I often light candles very late, start my homework and review my lessons.
. 16 years old, she also has to bear pressure.
That year, Swallow was a senior one. Of course, she understands how important these three years are. Senior one is a year of laying the foundation. The students around me are no longer as lazy as junior high school. Similar, full of tacit understanding, strive for time to lay a solid foundation.
But I squeezed out a lot of time to help with housework and take care of my brothers and sisters. Swallow has worked hard to gain time for study, but looking at the people around him like soldiers who are fully prepared, swallow is inevitably worried that he will be defeated.
. 16 years old, she also has unspeakable grievances.
Once the swallow helped her mother with the housework and put her younger brother and sister to bed very late. Swallows still light candles to do their homework, but they fall asleep unconsciously.
The next day in class, the class teacher checked the homework because there was no complete criticism, but the swallow didn't refute it, just bowed his head and said nothing. Later, the chemistry teacher spot-checked her homework and asked her questions. Unable to answer, she was called to the office for criticism.
This time she tried to explain, but the teachers didn't agree, usually using this as an excuse. Swallow remembers that it was raining when she came home from school that day. She deliberately left her umbrella open and let her tears flow openly.
. 17 years old, she also has a choice to do.
The first year of high school barely survived, and the second year of high school, she needs to consider the third year of high school and beyond. She can't live in the present like everyone else and race against time for one thing.
After father left, the fish farm was taken care of by relatives in turn. But every year we have to invest, buy fish species, buy feed and so on. And if there is a typhoon, we may lose everything. Besides, it is not the way to let others help for a long time. So mom decided to sell the fishing ground.
If the swallow insists on going to college after three years, the money behind will give great oppression to the family. Besides, there are younger brothers and sisters studying under her. After some struggle, Swallow decided to drop out of school and work to support his family.
She doesn't want to fight alongside others, go to college, and go out to see?
. 17 years old, she also has feelings that need to give up.
She doesn't give up those classmates who study together and encourage each other. She didn't give up the middle school where she studied for four years. She won't give up the path and bike that she has been riding for four years. But he was the last person she gave up.
Under the suffocating pressure of high school study, everyone is busy with his own business, and no one has time to take care of anyone. But he took care of her in every way, especially after her family changed. He took care of the swallows.
That kind of feeling is not wonderful. At that time, it should be tacitly said that "among friends, you are the most special". This may be the feeling that the lover is not full, and no one shows it.
With the decision to drop out of school, the swallow secretly took away the youthful feelings at that time and silently bid farewell to his world. Goodbye is silent, she will be willing.
Now the 26-year-old Swallow will still think it was really beautiful before 18.
Not because there was only laughter and no tears at that time, but because with the growth of age, she has learned to bear more, accept more and tolerate more. So let's talk about those years, just like telling other people's stories.
You see, before 18 years old, she was caught off guard and helpless; There are also responsibilities that need to be borne; There are also pressures to bear; There are also unspeakable grievances; We must also face choices; There are also some emotions that must end. ...
Every era has its life, every era has its responsibilities, and every era has its choices of what to do, what to worry about and what to do.
Happiness has never been related to age or gender. Life will not give us more sunshine because we are young, nor will it give us more tenderness and romance because we are women.
Look at Eighteen-year-old Sky. When Xu Yifei was so happy that he finally passed the exam through hard work, he burst into tears. Think about us now, the performance we are trying to lift is almost numb and unmoved.
Just because we were easy to satisfy at that time. Now, we envy that kind of satisfaction, but we won't feel satisfied easily.
We miss the age of 18, not because of the beauty of the sky, but because we are afraid that we can't keep the fearless attitude of 18.
You think your troubles are new here, but in fact, you have already shed tears in every ring that used to be considered unscrupulous.
If you are at your present age, you feel at a loss. Please tell yourself, how many years later, look at yourself now, or you can take it lightly.
Each stage has its due course and each stage has its unique significance. Don't be reluctant to grow up, but believe that you can live well and get better and better.