Being a soldier is a choice to achieve life goals, but it is not the only one. What can you do when your body is not satisfied? If you want to join the army, you need to find relationships at home and spend a lot of money and time. Is it really worth it? Even if your physical condition can rely on contacts to join the army, promotion is also troublesome. Why bother about things that don't suit you?
Why did you hang yourself from a tree?