I don't know if this is a secret diary story of a female college student, only for strangers to read … Before editing the title and description, please click "Save" to save your customized changes. Log165438+1When will my purity be disguised on October 30th? This is another story that can only be told to strangers ... I wonder what they think. Those people who appear in my life and I regard them as friends may not even think about it. No one has leisure to think about who has had sex with the opposite sex all day. Only they, the girls I live with day and night, are naive enough to make a fuss about that kind of thing ... There are a group of innocent girls living in our nest, but they know little about the adult world in their early twenties. We lived a happy life without fireworks when watching porn in other female dormitories in the university and discussing various experiences with BF. We hardly talk about this topic, even if it is involved, it is simple. No one has discussed it, and no one has the experience to talk about it, except me and another girl ... only, that girl was met by chance and had already had a boyfriend. It was the medical record that was inadvertently placed on the table, which made everyone who saw it stunned, but everyone didn't say anything, didn't ask her, and didn't disclose anything, knowing that she didn't want to say anything. Only occasionally in private discussions, there is an incomprehensible expression, as if she is impure and separated from us. And I, what can I say in such an environment? I am afraid of being discriminated against and consciously protect my secret. However, in the process of discussing with them, I don't seem to pretend. With them, I still feel impure. I think so from the bottom of my heart. Of course, they think so now ... maybe I'm too good at acting, or maybe I take secrets too seriously. In short, I have deceived everyone and myself for a long time ... In this environment, I think I will always be pure, and I don't know when I can persist. Maybe we have to wait until we all leave school ... 165438+ October 28th. I can't help but think I can get rid of it, but I can't ... Once, even that night, I thought I could stop falling in love. I didn't think about anything when I sent him away this morning. Two days later, I actually missed it. I'm a little scared and even more annoying. Not free and easy enough. Can't you really avoid the custom of all women: if you give it to yourself, you won't feel lost. I never thought about our relationship. I used to think that it would be nice to meet him underground. But I ignored it. I loved, hurt, and felt heartbroken ... so before I knew it, my heart was out of control. My thoughts, vaguely, are getting deeper and deeper day by day. What should I do? That is: do nothing, as before, don't embarrass him, and don't ask for anything. This is his favorite. 18:39 | Add comments | Read comments (1) | Fixed links | Write in the diary | What's the unknown ending of my little girl's mind ~ ~? Dancer of the wind always wanted to have such an encounter in high school. Of course, this is impossible, so I wrote it down to comfort Liao. However, I don't know what kind of ending to use. Does anyone have a good idea? 18:38 | Add a comment | Fixed link | Written in the wind dancer's log dance, I met Wu Shang for the first time, with countless neon lights and countless people. It was in this endless noise that he suddenly broke into my world and used his music and dance. An ordinary afternoon, after class, I didn't want to go home and wandered in the street. I like it when I'm bored. I am walking in a noisy place, surrounded by people, but all strangers. It can make me feel that I still live in this world, but I don't have to pay attention to those boring people. I feel comfortable and refreshing! Think of a sentence: time took everything away, but it didn't take me ... When the neon lights were on, I sat on the steps of the square and counted the stars. The weather is clear and the stars are shining. Suddenly, there was music, hip-hop music. I looked up and saw a group of boys in hip-hop dancing in the middle of the square. I can't help but look at it with my head tilted. Strong dance, qi dance and solo are all great. Especially the guy wearing camouflage pants in the middle, the baseball cap was pressed very low, revealing broken hair. The beat of the music stirred my heart, and I couldn't help running to the boy in the middle and saying, "Hey, fight!" " "Too arrogant, will be a little negotiable. The boys who were with him all stopped, gathered around and looked at me and him in surprise. He looked up at me, his handsome mouth slightly raised, and said, "You first. "... after three rounds, regardless of the outcome, all round applause. "Not bad! ""You too! " "My name is Wu Shang." "Shadow." "Meet my brothers, Gu, Lao San ..." Then I met these brothers and became a member of LD. The most important thing is that I met the love of my life ... LD is the organization of these boys, and Noichi is the boss. They do all the things that bad youth clubs do, such as racing cars, fighting, drinking and flirting with girls, which does not include martial arts. He is not interested in ordinary girls. Hehe, of course, they also dance, in the night without competition and struggle. Gu and I went to the same school, which surprised me. The world is big and small. Wu Shang rode his pine breeze, that 400CC modified car, carrying me flying in the deserted street at midnight, making my cheers cut through the thick sky of the city at night, rising and flying away. Wu Shang took me to watch a racing competition. When we had to chase the girls behind us, we always won. Kung fu is faster than the wind. Gu said: I have never participated in this kind of competition. You should be the first. I said with a smile, that's because I won't be afraid. In fact, I know that as long as the Great Xia says a word, even if he loses his life, there will be a large group of girls vying to sit behind him. However, I don't want martial arts, hehe, he said that the position is mine ... In the evening when it's okay, LD's brothers will dance in the square in the city center, just like when I first met them. Tired of jumping, I went to the seaside to drink beer and buy cigarettes. I don't smoke. I only drink fresh oranges. Wu Shang always laughs at me for being a small child, but he always buys me lots of fresh oranges. I like the cool appearance of martial arts, I don't talk much, I am opinionated and loyal, I like simple and pure things, and I will take care of me very carefully. The soldier's arms are full of security, so that I can live and be protected like an angel with wings. I can be willful and childish in front of him, and he will smile and watch me coquetry, blink my eyes and stick out my tongue, lose my temper and drink more fresh oranges. Only in front of him can I be a little woman, and being loved by martial arts is my happiest thing. 18:37 | Add a comment | Fixed link | Write it in the log | Little woman's unknown worries ~ ~ ~ Lonely shadow has two LG backs. Just a few days. I don't know why, after he came back, the two of us had an amazing tacit understanding. We are no strangers, because he has been away for more than a year, but we are inexplicably close. I know his style of doing things. After he kissed me in the summer vacation of freshman year, he asked me not to tell anyone. At that time, I liked him only because I had been fighting in the group for more than a month and became a "small enemy" in everyone's eyes, but my heart was sweet. Of course, I didn't know he was lying to me. And I trusted him so much that I didn't tell anyone. Later, it was too late, and he finally admitted that he was still with his ex-girlfriend. Seeing that girl, I have nothing to say. Beauty is like ice cream, which makes all men covet. I was very smart, didn't say anything, didn't embarrass him, and didn't stubbornly expose anything. That girl became my good friend. Later, he left and went to the development of Jiangnan water town. Occasionally send text messages, I feel shabby when I meet them online, and sometimes I make phone calls. I once joked that I missed you. I just don't take it seriously anymore and dare not put it in again. Only I know how badly I was hurt that summer vacation. When I came back, I suddenly became close, and many things became logical ... Afterwards, I asked: Don't you have anything to confess? He was surprised. Won't you tell me not to tell anyone? He smiled, embarrassed and panicked. I know your style. A word should completely reassure him. LG and I are two lonely souls, and we only miss each other when we are lonely. We all know that we can stay together if we want to be together, and leave if we want to be apart. No burden, no responsibility. 18:34 | Add a comment | Fixed link | Write a log | Little girl's unknown worries ~ ~ ~ The world is so fucking ironic! ! ! Shit, the world is so fucking ironic ... I fell in love with someone and met him quietly in the game a month ago. He is the referee. Before, I just knew that there was such a person, my boss's boss, who had met but didn't know him. Until more than a month ago, when he appeared again, he was so handsome that he fell in love at once. Love seems to come too soon, which is incredible. The boss said he didn't have a girlfriend, which may be the reason for my fantasy. Of course, I didn't say anything, and I didn't want him to feel too bold. After all, I'm a stranger. I think, wait until I get familiar with it. In the first few days, I pretended to send him a short message intentionally or unintentionally. He replied that he was impatient, but he didn't feel interested. My sixth sense tells me that he is not interested in me. No, it's that simple. I don't want to be friends Unfortunately, I can't get it, but I am more afraid of losing it, so I regard him as an idol worship. Only you know the love in your heart. So, no longer romantic, self-defeating. I'm afraid I'll get tired of being disturbed too much. Once tired, there is no chance. Two days ago, their company came to our school to give a lecture. It's even more handsome to see him in a suit. The youngest middle-level leader, North Sales Director. I only saw the boss's description of him before: a man with perfect career, love and dance. I didn't know his company was so awesome and his position was so high. More worship, more role models. Try to see him as often as possible. I went wherever he appeared, saying nothing, just watching from a distance, hoping that one day he would know my mood. The performance of the big dance company in Tianjin was held in a bar. Ben hesitated whether to go or not. The day before, he said to me, Let's go to the show tomorrow. So, I decided to go. I hesitated for a long time that day and sent a short message that I thought for a long time. I want to go for a ride with him, just to see him more. He said he would go from his friends, not from school. My heart is heavy. I just hope this is a fact, not a refusal and a boring refusal. I was looking for him in the bar that night. He went late and brought a girl, holding hands. At that time, there was nothing in his eyes, only his fingers clasped. I suddenly felt embarrassed. I feel stupid and romantic, but I don't know that others have a heart. I wonder what my boss will think of me. I once had such a crush on him and was rejected. I was arrogant and announced to him that I would attack my idol. Now, I am most afraid of his embarrassment. It's just that it's not irony, but that girl, his girlfriend ... In the bar, the girl is not interested in dancing, sitting in the back and chatting excitedly. Sitting with them intentionally or unintentionally, one of the girls once knew each other and introduced me as soon as she sat down: This is * *' s girlfriend. I'm surprised. I didn't expect to know what I care about so easily. Later, I thought about it, fearing that he would tell me something, and deliberately told me that I knew it and asked me to leave. Just finished, before he said hello, his girlfriend was surprised to say to me: Remember, China Merchants Bank came to our school to apply for a card a few days ago, and we organized a group to sign up for that gift doll. What a small world. It turned out that I met his girlfriend first. Of course, at that time, she was not his girlfriend. They only met three weeks ago. Is that ironic? Water under the bridge. It's time to end it. I'm not afraid to hide myself and hurt myself secretly. I just ask who knows, my sadness, my embarrassment ... 18: 33 | Add comments | Write in the log | Little girl's unknown worries ~ ~ dare not love ... I find that I always can't get what I like, but I'm not interested in what I like. Knowing that he will come today, I hesitate to go. My intuition tells me that he has no feelings for me. Although I like it very much, I dare not say anything. What scares me is that it's boring. I am a girl without courage. I'd rather stay away than summon up the courage to tell him that I like him. Many girls in comics finally get happiness because of their persistence in love. Difficulties and hardships didn't stop them, but I was defeated by my cowardice. What I fear most is rejection and disgust after confession. Because I know my feelings of rejecting others, I never dare to try it easily. I am afraid that even my friends can't do it, so I have to tell myself not to bother and wait silently for this mood to fade away. It was the same with LD at the beginning. I gave up decisively, so what? People don't like you. GY doesn't like my behavior very much, blaming me for not insisting. So what if I persist? The result may not be as perfect as it is now, but I feel that nothing happened and I am still a good friend. It's not what I want, but it's the best ............................................................................................................................................................... In the meantime, I was sad, confused, struggling, and in tears ... Who remembers except myself ... I still want to go today, so just watch quietly without disturbing him. ...