Female college students who once had a deep blessing —— The evil reward after prostitution and the story after abstinence
I have been diving and read countless posts about abstinence. It really took me a long time from being at a loss at first to linking all bad luck with lewdness. Fortunately, I finally woke up and felt it necessary to write down my experience here, because almost all the posts about abstinence prostitution on the Internet are unlucky from beginning to end. Some people may think that this is the fate of previous lives, but I am a person who has many blessings in previous lives, but I think it is very necessary to use my own experience to make everyone take warning, so that many people who still have many blessings do not commit adultery with luck. I am not a lucky person. I was born in a happy and well-off family from the beginning. My parents love me and my grandparents live a long and healthy life.
I have hardly experienced any major setbacks since I was a child, plus my mother is beautiful, good-looking, intelligent and versatile. I have been the apple of my family since I was a child, and I am also the most brilliant one among my classmates.
Maybe it's caused by past habits. When I was a child, I had a bad behavior. At that time, I didn't understand anything, so I felt that my legs were tight and I had a strange feeling. But because I was young and didn't know anything about it, I didn't indulge or cross the line. The frequency is not high, almost once every few months.
At that time, because of their outstanding looks, boys pursued a lot in primary school, but they were afraid at that time and refused to stay away. It's really lucky to think of it now.
Thanks to the ancestors, the primary school has always been lucky and versatile. Student cadres who have won prizes in various literary competitions and have always occupied the highest position have always been the first and second in their studies, and have never fallen out of the third place, becoming the envy of parents around them. Later, I went to junior high school and became a hot commodity as a teacher. I have always been excellent in my studies, and I have never fallen out of the top three for three years. In junior high school, "Seeds of Love" had a crush on boys and was also confessed by other boys. But I always insist on not looking for an object during school. I control myself, so there is no puppy love. But when I was in junior high school, I bought back some stories and novels and magazines from outside, and I felt puzzled when I saw the hidden sexual plot above, so I began to have psychosexuality and slowly began to have bad hobbies, but I was not addicted or presumptuous because of my parents. I have a bad habit, almost one day a month, I will fantasize.
In junior high school, he was still a good student and a good boy envied by his parents around him. He won the first and second place every year. Now that I think about it, it's a great blessing.
But since then, the skin has gradually become less delicate and there have been pore problems. After graduating from junior high school, I was admitted to the most powerful high school in the province. After I entered high school, I was still in the best Olympic class. My grade in senior one is also the top three in my class, and I have also served as a class cadre. Similarly, there are many boys who have pursued it, but they have not agreed, just because they want to keep the bottom line and don't want to fall in love early. Now I think with real feelings. Fortunately, it was under control at that time, otherwise the situation would have fallen even faster. In high school, I was the man of the hour. People around my parents and my classmates all know me. I won a prize in the academic competition, so I got a good ranking without studying hard.
But all the bad things started on a weekend in high school. At that time, I accidentally found a CD at home (warning parents not to watch indecent videos here, which has a great influence on children, and you may not even know when children will secretly find it). As a result, the display screen is full of pictures that make me blush. It can be said that from then on, I knew what real sexual behavior was like for the first time. At that time, I looked at the whole person's head and exploded. Later, I slowly recalled, continued to fantasize, and my bad habits escalated. At this time, the results began to appear for the first time. I fell from the top three in my class to twenty, and many of them were not as good as my classmates. I was naive at that time and didn't think of it. On the eve of the third year of high school, because of the short time of the college entrance examination, I naturally didn't have time to finish the bad habits, and my grades improved slightly. But there was a strong psychosexuality and bad behavior before a mock exam, and the results of the mock exam were very bad as soon as they came out. At that time, there was a lot of pressure. I didn't put it down before the college entrance examination, so I took the college entrance examination. Before the exam results came down, I didn't have the habit of doing bad things because of the pressure. I know that the blessing is great, and I have become famous in my life. I bless the virtues of my ancestors. After the college entrance examination, I was admitted to the top 200 in the province and a top school in the south. But I didn't get into my ideal Tsinghua Peking University.
Now that I think about it, if I didn't have bad habits from beginning to end, I would definitely spend my four years on the campus of Tsinghua Peking University. Nevertheless, my blessings were not consumed by me at that time, and my luck was still very good. I was lucky to go to a particularly good university and not wake up.
After college, the real road to prostitution began. At that time, I got good grades as a freshman, and because I had self-esteem in living in the dormitory, I couldn't indulge in obscenity. I watched those lousy books and videos, and I was still in the top rank as a freshman. At that time, I was budding with feelings. There are many boys chasing me, but many of them refused. I had an affair with a boy who had a crush on me, which was limited to the spiritual and emotional level, but for some reason I didn't continue to associate. I made a boyfriend in my freshman year, and after a month of dating, he made a request for fornication, which I rejected in disgust (fortunately, I didn't make it worse, which also made me understand that bad habits in the past would attract the same partner), and then I broke up angrily.
But it didn't last long. I met my third boyfriend again, and this time I really met true love. After dating this boyfriend, I had a relationship with him that shouldn't have happened, and the result began to appear slowly. At first, I was a girl with a good personality, but after having sex, I began to be suspicious. I often quarrel with him and play well, but my feelings are still stable, but my academic performance is not so lucky. I plummeted and became the last ten in my class. I was worried that I would fail. My boyfriend and I commit adultery once a month. Because of the postgraduate entrance examination, I am not very presumptuous. At that time, I devoted myself to studying hard. After the results of the postgraduate entrance examination came out, I worked hard to review, barely crossed the line, and was admitted to the graduate school very thrilling.
There is a good saying, it's not that you don't report it, it's not the time. After graduate school, I separated from my boyfriend because of some problems, because I liked him too much. At that time, I was overwhelmed by Lacrimosa every day, but I still knew nothing. I don't know how to confess my bad habits. On the contrary, because of my physical experience, I hung a curtain in the dormitory to separate myself, then downloaded a terrible video, and watched lewdness and lewd literature on my mobile phone at night. I was fascinated.
The grades are getting worse and worse. First of all, the projects that graduate students are engaged in are particularly unsatisfactory. All kinds of misfortunes can be encountered, and life is unlucky. They were hit by falling things and splashed with hot water. They have experienced everything, even failing their best subjects. Personality changed greatly, and I was infected with severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, and my personality was very bad. People around him don't like it, and he pretends to be lofty. No one despises it. Seeing that girls feel ugly and boys feel dirty, a little thing can make the parties vicious. At that time, there were people who copied Buddhist scriptures. Now think about it, while copying and starting a business, the gods and buddhas in the sky are paying attention to what you have done. How can it be smooth?
Later, on the eve of graduation, my family found a good relationship, paved various roads, had many good job opportunities and prepared various exams, but because of ignorance, I almost committed adultery and psychosexuality four times a week (graduate students have never contacted other boys or had physical adultery with the opposite sex, which shows the harm of psychosexuality and SY, and I never lost physical adultery, or even worse).
As a result, I was so miserable that I even wanted to end my life, and all my job opportunities were lost. People refused to accept me for inexplicable reasons. No one knows which link has gone wrong, that is, I can't be famous. It's no use finding a good and particularly hard background. Almost all the exams have passed, even many ordinary students are far behind. I really succeeded in almost everything, and all the inexplicable unlucky reasons came to me. At that time, I thought it was bad luck at eight o'clock, and I didn't wake up at all, which was a serious consequence of adultery. In addition, in recent years, the body has a strange smell inexplicably, and the body odor is obvious in summer, especially under the armpits. Gynecological diseases are prone to inflammation, which is difficult to talk about. The skin is too bad, and there are many small bags in the pores of my face, all of which are oily particles. He is ugly, and his whole face is rough and unlucky, and he has no past appearance. Moreover, after adultery, the bones will be deformed, the cheekbones will be prominent, the temples will be sunken, and the cheeks will be sunken (it should be that the good or bad luck is uncertain, and everything has a cause and effect), and the leg shape will become O-shaped, which is very ugly (I didn't expect this before, so I advised many spectators not to take any chances. This is not a coincidence at all. Otherwise, why did everything concentrate after adultery? Especially girls).
Because the conditions at home are not bad, I spent tens of thousands of dollars on my face, but it didn't improve at all. On the contrary, it became more and more serious, and I didn't see Chinese medicine. I dare not tell my parents about gynecological problems.
It's true that whoring and breaking the money, because it costs tens of thousands of dollars to treat these things, and the cost of finding a relationship, finding a job and traveling back and forth has been tens of thousands, which is wasted.
In addition, there is no improvement in feelings, no more boys to chase, and no suitable fate. Everything starts with lewdness and you can't report it to your family.
When I was a graduate student, I was often raped by men in my dreams. When I woke up, I still felt pain in my lower body. Now it seems that all evil spirits are in my upper body, which is very scary. I was crushed by ghosts several times, which was particularly serious. I almost died. I even heard the voice of an evil ghost. When I was awake, I was suppressed by a great evil force. I was really scared to the extreme. I'm still thinking.
Because of a little kindness, I have been to many Buddhist temples with my boyfriend, and now I am anxious to miss the Buddha in the south and get rid of the heavy pressure.
People who commit adultery are good at staying away from gods, and evil spirits are in their bodies. Since then, they have had a deep understanding. An accidental opportunity to know that everything is the result of prostitution is really painful. I am deeply aware that all kinds of nausea have inspired me, and I am saddened by it. Happiness never comes in pairs. I'm only told what to do.
The old adage is correct. It perfectly matches the lewd timeline and all the ups and downs of luck. I can't imagine how fast lewdness can leak good news. Now I decide to abstain from prostitution forever (don't make a vow of abstinence for 500 days, just make a short-term wish for something to go smoothly during this period. If you don't remove the seeds, they will sprout sooner or later. If you want to quit, you must quit forever.
With the blessing of my ancestors and all kinds of good knowledge, my determination to quit is decisive. Up to now, it has been more than ten days, and I don't want to think about those things any more. It's no feeling to see a similar scene, and it's useless to be unclean. Just when I remembered, my grandparents had accumulated such a blessing for me. I am unfilial and disrespectful to my parents. I swear that I will never commit adultery from now on, otherwise I will be unfilial to my parents and ancestors.
Now every time I think about it, I feel sad and ignorant of so much time. Why should I wait for the results? Just more than ten days after I got rid of lewdness, made up my mind to repent, repent and be good at knowing, do my best to set free, pray for all beings, and participate in printing good books, I decided to be kind from now on, not to be contaminated with nausea, to benefit all beings and to correct other bad habits. Therefore, in these ten days, I was able to bless good knowledge because I stopped being lascivious. I was flattered to get a good job and the opportunity for further study inexplicably. Miraculously, the family is much more harmonious than before. My parents quarreled some time ago, but now they are more harmonious. In just ten days, my personality has changed. I stopped being petty, began to be tolerant of others, and began to reflect on many ridiculous thoughts and behaviors before. I had a lot of dreams about quitting my job in the evening, and I also had a lot of good dreams. I think it's because the gas field is getting better, and naturally the bad gas field induction is separated, and the evil is accumulated. It's true! Physically, my face has actually improved in just ten days, my temples have actually risen ~ ~ not so concave, and my skin has changed a lot, so I don't need any skin care products! Gynecological diseases are also decreasing, and blessings come too fast! ! It's more effective than any medicine, forcing me to tell you right now, quit prostitution, make the greatest determination to quit, repent to the bone, sincerely repent of Buddha, be sincere and kind, help all beings (don't do good for happiness), and the blessings will come back soon! Don't take chances. I advise you not to commit adultery. All lewdness is rewarded, not before the time.
Heaven, earth, ghosts and gods are considering people's good and evil, stop bad habits in time, make amends actively, and good luck will take care of you soon.
I hope my brothers will reprint my experience, so that many people who are lucky now but have prostitution habits will not continue to be lucky. Thank you, brothers.
1updated on October 22nd 10: Thank you for your concern and happiness. I have been chanting recently, and I have been blessed by kindness. I had a dream last night. In the dream, there is a man in the room. At that time, he thought he was a demon and smelled of lewdness, so he wrapped his face in a headscarf to prevent him from seeing it, but he came over anyway. I was inexplicably pulled out by him and walked all the way to a big slope. Now I thought he was going to be slutty, so I kept breaking free, and finally. Seeing him stall a woman's lewdness, he suddenly became a villain, tied her up with many other accomplices and stabbed her with a knife and fork. Women were in great pain, and then the whole earth collapsed, sinking deeper and deeper, feeling trapped in the center of the earth, and they were all dragged underground. Then I saw it, and I was surprised. I am here to update. After this dream ended, I had a clear dream, which I prayed about becoming famous recently. The dream had a good result. The examiner announced that I was on the list, ranking very high. I don't know if these are good phenomena. Thank you brothers! !
654381October 26th update: My mother always thought it was because my spleen and stomach were weak because there was an unpleasant smell in my mouth. I bought a lot of big hawthorn pill to eat, but it didn't work. It has been 19 days since I quit smoking. My family says my breath doesn't smell like it used to. It can be seen that it is the result of lewdness, and my breath is bad. Now when I come into contact with bad habits, I naturally recover ~ ~ and my eyes were always gone before, and my family also said that I was away every day. I said it several times a day, saying it was ugly and feeling listless. Now I'm so bored. ! My own armpit odor has been improved by more than half. I hope fellow initiates will strengthen their confidence, not waver, abstain from prostitution, and good luck will come one after another, absolutely! I have been reading books recently, and I feel that my learning ability is getting stronger and stronger. I'll report back when there is good news about other jobs! !
654381October 28th update: abstinence is a blessing. I haven't worked at home for months after graduation. Nobody asked me to submit my resume before. Although I graduated from a famous university, my hardware is very good. I got an ideal job opportunity today, and I will try my best to realize my wish! !