My name is Butch, and I am the "nothing" of "all laws are empty, and the cause and effect are not empty", and I am the "seven" of "seven sufferings of life". I don't have a surname, because I am an abandoned baby born in Baotong Temple.

I was born dumb. I can hear but I can't say anything. And the constitution is very poor, a sick seedling, dealing with all kinds of drugs all the year round, moving to various hospitals to take charge. Of course, thanks to Chen Xiaoqing, we have survived to this day.

I turned 20 in July this year. I am the youngest mistress in Chen Xiaoqing, and the longest time I have followed him is 12 years.

I haven't been to school, but I have read some books at home. The reason is simple: my sick body doesn't allow it; Chen Xiaoqing won't allow it.

Although I am nominally Chen Xiaoqing's mistress, I am more like his family's mistress. I had an affair with him, but it didn't go to the last step.

Chen Xiaoqing doesn't like me. First, I am unhealthy. Second, in his words: No God is empty. But he didn't abandon me, and he still supports me until now, only for one reason, or in his words: I have Buddha nature and his luck.

Therefore, in addition to hospitals, Chen Xiaoqing often "releases" me back to Guiyuan Temple to "smoke" me. In his words, keep the Buddha's nature and take chances. I can't go back to Baotong Temple. Once inside, he became ill the next day and was in a coma for four or five days. So, we have to change temples.

I didn't leave Chen Xiaoqing for two reasons: First, my body didn't allow me, and I needed his care, which was the actual situation. Second-this is a hidden situation.

Since I met Chen Xiaoqing, I have often had this dream:

A young monk, standing beside the Buddha and looking down at me, said to me: If you want to talk, you need five kinds of water from Chen Xiaoqing, including his urine, his essence, his tears for you, his blood for you and his sweat for you. If you mix them together, you can speak loudly.

It's ridiculous, but it reminds me! Because, I want to say it so much, I want to say it so much.