I still remember that when the Lin incident just happened, all kinds of keywords about "seduction", "rape" and "sex education" flooded the circle of friends or news screens. This incident once pushed the importance of sex education to a hot discussion. It's almost a year since the Lin incident. Now, when I open the last interview video (video link) before her death again, what is stirring in my heart has not diminished after these two years.
After reading the book Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise, perhaps many people, like me, are surprised by the depressed style of writing in the book. I have been thinking about how much tenderness she felt when she wrote these seemingly calm, cold and delicate words.
Her death is not a story of a girl who committed suicide in despair after being raped. The direct cause of her death is the result of her disappointment and helplessness to the world because of the collapse of her faith. In the long run, being seduced is also the biggest indirect reason for her suicide.
15 Zhejiang college entrance examination, Chinese composition topic argument: is the text as it is or not as good as it is?
From Lin's writing, we can see that she is a pure person, and she has absolute faith in literary style. China has a history of 5,000 years, leaving no religious beliefs to its people. China people have only one belief: moral belief. This is also the last bottom line that a conscientious person sticks to. Throughout history, China people have always lived up to their conscience. And when a person is in the most desperate, he can learn from the sun when he thinks that everything he has done, and he can get great comfort with a clear conscience. The conscience of ordinary people has become the last moral belief of China people.
If a China person loses the so-called moral pillar, he will become a person without faith and awe, just like Li Guohua and Hu Lancheng mentioned by Lin.
Li Guohua's language is so beautiful, but he doesn't want that kind of beauty. What he wants is a girl who is firmly controlled by himself and the pleasure of squeezing out high notes in bed.
Obviously, Lin believes that writing is carried out as a person, and her understanding of this is as natural as being born to drink water and eat. And such a pure girl is facing a man's sweet words and affectionate words for the first time, and she has no reason not to believe that this is true. When such beautiful words and animal-like behavior fall on her at the same time, the feeling of doubt about life and despair is beyond ordinary people's understanding. As a witness, Lin described all this in detail. I really can't imagine how much pain she has to suffer when writing. And I, when reading a book, have nothing but heartache and helplessness.
What Lin Yi doesn't understand is why the language spoken by people with dirty hearts like Li Guohua and Hu Lancheng can be so beautiful and moving. Deformed ideology is also a beautiful ideology, irony!
Lin, a pure and sensitive traditional writer, was raped by a teacher who was full of artistic words. What made her desperate was not that her body and dignity were trampled on. But the words she believed deeply betrayed her in the teacher. This is the collapse of faith and the real despair and helplessness. A girl fell in love with the seducer, and lived all her life in the self-deception of "love the teacher if you love her" and the despair and pain that reality told her "otherwise". This is why I said that being seduced is the most important indirect reason for Lin's suicide.
Lin called his work "humiliating writing"; It is said that the biggest massacre of mankind is "Fang Siqi-style rape". In the face of the same massacre, the survivors of Auschwitz concentration camp are full of hope when writing, hoping and believing that what happened in Auschwitz will not be staged in the future; But after years of polishing and polishing, when Lin Yi wrote these words, she understood that what happened to Fang Siqi would not disappear, but would continue and happen in any future. Because of this, she can't see hope. Her writing style, no matter how sharp and delicate, can't change the status quo. So she felt humiliated, helpless and desperate.
Perhaps in the eyes of many of us, it is normal for people to be dishonest and duplicitous. However, it is precisely the "true feelings" that Lin Yi can easily say from the heart as a person without waves in his heart.
What I want to say is: Maybe ordinary people, after the same experience, will always have such a dark memory in retrospect, but they will not commit suicide after being violated. Unlike Lin, there is no stain or hypocrisy in her literary world. She is more obsessed with literature than we are, more sensitive and fragile than we are, and more eager for beauty than we are.
A sentence that has appeared in books and videos: When Yi Ting reviewed the story of the whole building, she suddenly felt that it was not the people who studied literature, but literature that failed them.
I think maybe this is the true portrayal of the author's heart. She believes that everyone who studies literature will stick to the final moral belief, and every student who studies literature should have something to say when talking about love poems and words. In fact, the real literary world is far from the pure paradise she imagined. From ancient times to the present, there are many examples to show that Wen is not like him, and this is not the paradise she wants.
Literature can tolerate these insincere people who betray morality and soul. But Lin can't, she can't allow and can't accept it. There are so many stains and flaws in her dream literature.
Is she too dreamy and naive, or, as she said, literature failed her. I can't judge.
No matter from the interview video before Lin's death or from her words, we can find her pain, her innocence and her kindness. I'm really sorry that such a talented woman left this world with regret. May heaven have no hypocrisy, no rhetoric, no whitewash, only the kindness and purity she hopes.