20 15 Just after the Spring Festival, my lover who shared weal and woe with me for more than ten years suddenly died while working overtime for a month.
My sky is falling!
You know, my high school classmate has been the most important support in my life since he graduated from college and got married and had children. His kindness, seriousness, perseverance, warmth, his kitchen, his perseverance ... fate makes me worry-free because of him.
After he left, facing a pair of young and ignorant children and family, all the burdens suddenly fell on my shoulders. Others look strong, but in fact, the whole person is in a "silly" state all day. I don't know how to shoulder the heavy responsibility of educating children, and I am dizzy in the dark.
The cruelty of life and my son's rebellion make me want to cry. I often curse the unfair fate of God without eyes in my heart. The unyielding in my bones made me start looking for the light that can guide me forward.
On that day, at the end of March, 20 17, I walked into Mr. Huiwen's "Emotional Management" class for two days and one night. For the first time in more than 40 years, I realized that we can manage our emotions instead of letting them rise and fall. I was shocked by the sharp contrast between the photos of volunteer girls growing backwards ten years ago. Listening to her share her life story, at that time, I longed for myself to grow into her appearance quickly. On the first night, I signed up for a full set of courses, and two children were determined to inspire the camp. Nearly 50,000 yuan, the first big expense in my life (I never worried about spending money when he was here, and I couldn't be frugal after he left), was completed in a blink of an eye.
Now that I think about it, what attracted me at the beginning was that Teacher Yang divided Gestalt education into three stages: junior high school and senior high school. Although I couldn't figure out who was in front of the reshaping and dancing of life for a long time, it is undeniable that it was these three stages that touched my heart and prompted me to resolutely embark on the road of gestalt!
Maybe this is a window that God closed for me and opened for me?