From the beginning, I felt that party member had to be excellent to apply. Last semester as a freshman, I didn't apply because I didn't feel sure to get in. After winning a scholarship for one semester, I feel a little emboldened and apply decisively next semester. Then a series of development courses, from activists to development targets, from preparing for party member to becoming a full member, took me four years in college. I still remember when I stayed up late to write my ideological report, my roommates teased me about how difficult it was to join the party, why I came here, and why I wrote these things against my will. I just smiled and said, well, I can't help it. My heart is in the party. Later, I got to know other cadres in party member. They are really good friends. They really set a good example for themselves and make them want to be like them. I also have a habit that I developed since I was a child. Is to secretly find someone better than yourself in the class, whether it is learning or other abilities. Then take him as the goal and compare with him silently. Although many people say, don't compete with others, just race with yourself. I just want to say, how do you know where the gap between yourself and others is? Different people have different opinions. In my opinion, comparison is the driving force of hard work. Of course, if this goal is set too high and too far, then I advise you to race with yourself.