Mainly because you are young and not determined enough. It's no use being with anyone if you can't control yourself. It is also not recommended that you practice, because if you practice, the more you practice, the more you will aggravate your desire and lead to self-immolation.

Whether Buddhism or Taoism, we must follow the mental method. As the saying goes, if there is no way, there will be no work.

Tao is really not as simple as you think. Often the Taoist fairy and the madman are just a thought.